First of all i would like to say a big thanks to all my frenz who said dat my ISF entry was touching. Now officially I am graduated and still thinking on wad to do in life.
Right now am juz enjoying my holidays and having fun but everyday I am still worried abt my exam results coz it was quite difficult and due to my memory problem I could only remember certain notes. For now i am planning to do a full time job and study part time but the problem is i dun noe where my interest lies and stuff am juz totally confused in my complicated life.

I was asking my bestie yell me wad to blog abt den she said juz blog randomly and yeah dis is one of my random entry. For the past few days i have been feeling very laidback. Too much of thinking of life, career, future, love, self-esteem. Too much to deal abt. Am juz taking it slow and steady. At times my loneliness is juz killing and one of the biggest problem now is money. I am really running low in cash or shld i say dat i am already bankrupt. lolz

The beautiful reason why life still goes on even if we all have so much probz to handle is becoz of wonderful friends and loved ones. They are dere rain or shine.
One if my friend asked me dis question "is wrong to be attracted to gals and is it wrong to attract gals?" well society does not accept it but to me it all depends on our body hormones. oh ya totally forgot my fren kelly wrote a small poem for me and its really sweet and dis is how it goes:

Ah... Durga the ah-amazing Diva...
The wonderful ooze of sexiness she possesses,
The sexy voice she produce,
The answer to Bollywood's next goddess
In other words, simply irresistible...

She is a wonderful friend,
Someone you can connect with,
A person whom you can depend on,
AND and and....
A person who fights for her rights and justice!
But beware, she does bite sometimes...
But she is still all fun-loving at hear.

Isn't the poem sweet..thanks kelly. Alritez lets go to the next issue. There has been alot of love affairs going ard. In my perception all the good guys have been taken but those remaining single ones are quite difficult to get them. In love, looks and age seems to be important. Haiz... maybe one of the reason why am still single is coz i keep attracting the wrong gender juz like my fren. lolz. and maybe like wad i seem a pretty manly look i haf. lolz. i can't do much abt dat coz its manufacturing defect. i too wish i look or dress more feminine but i did tried at times. *smiles* and da other reaosn is coz i am older den most of my frenz are..lolz.anyway am juz only 23. ahh juz prefer to live my life as i love. and oh ya below is an small entry which i wrote in a train journey from khatib to dhoby gaut quite some time back. Therefore jus enjoy reading it and veiwing some pics we took in sch before we grad.

Here is the travel entry:

Always wanted be a writer cause of the things happening around & the experience I go through. As I am traveling in the train, I see many different people. Their eyes tells a lot of things. Some are just stoning, some are really enjoying every bit of life. Some possessive couples, some couples who are actually betraying each other. Some married woman who are thinking of pregnancy and some divorced woman looking for a companionship. Some family who are already broken and some family who are breaking. So many different people but all of them are created by the same person whom we all believe is God.

Most of us blame the fate and just say that its their destination to lead a life like that but we always forget to have a 2nd thought such as why are we leading a life like this & not the other like other people.

We don’t take the initiative to change life and live it as it is. We don’t realize that people and life are to be appreciated. We don’t respect people’s point of view and even their circumstances. For instance lets take the homosexual, bisexual, gays and lesbians. They have so much love to shower and gif and even have their own dreams but due to the people surrounding them they just don’t seem to be leading a normal human being life. For another instance lets take the blind man who is singing wif his keyboard in the public and betta still some of it are his own composed songs. People don’t seem to appreciate him. They would just comment saying “why can’t he do a betta job then begging like dis. But if this people can criticize, they should probably bring the man to a recording theatre n make his dream more realistic to become a singer.

Why are handicaps outcasted as handicaps? Why can’t they be called as human being. Sometimes when they look at normal human being like us they rather be abnormal cause of the way we behave and treat people. Families who are broken or breaking seem bother about their marriage life den their children’s life. They don’t seem to think of the child future or feelings. Due to this the child grows up to be rebellious and a spoilt kid or worse join the bad group. Couple who don’t have kids seem to be blaming each other and worse still most of the blame goes to the woman than the male. If woman can gif birth without the help of man, then they are also called God. But somehow woman are still upperhand or should I say God’s assistant cause they can bring another life into this world. Aren’t the woman gender should be appreciated and praised. But looking at the now generation woman nowadays, they go for an abortion when they realize that they are pregnant knowing it’s a life that they are killing. In my point of view I feel that those woman who abort their child should be given a punishment which makes them realize that it is a crime to kill a life.

Many people might be wondering why am I writing such deep thoughts. But to be frank I see all this in different people eyes whom I am traveling with. I see happiness, pain, hurt, tears, betrayment, friendship, love, emotion and etc in all different eyes. I believe that my instincts are right and I trust my judgement. Sometimes I may be wrong but if anyone get the opportunity to be interview another person whom dey dun noe at all, they would realize that atleast one of the truth will be out which I see in my perception or should I say wad I see by my eyes and read through by my heart. Life has come to a conclusion that “Good people lead a shorter life than the bad ones. Happiness is given to those who don’t appreciate it at all and Sorrows are given to those who are suppose to be appreciated.

Thats the end of this entry. and here are some pics to glance through.

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