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after a long time...@Wednesday, September 15, 2004

HI Hi hi...sorry pplz for da late entry..i was so bz and also lazy to update..aightz..i shall start telling wad happen from saturday sept 11..alrightz..

SePtEmBeR 11

Dis day is unforgettable for all those in da world..cause many lives were gone juz becoz of one arse hole..well one moment silence for dem..3..2..1..okies..i went for my cuzin bro's wife 21st b'dae..yeah dey recently got married..well..da b'dae DJ was a cutie but den da MC was an IPS aka Irritating Piece of Shit lolz..da dance floor was nice..wah after a long time i dance omg really enjoyed..on some tables two jug of tiger beer was placed..argghh was soooo tempted to drink but den my dad was dere..haiz..hehe..anyway i drank burban coke guess dats da spelling..i din mean to drink but didn't knew it was burban coke till i drank two glass..was damn shiok..lucky my dad din noe..after da b'dae came back home..was dead tired and my legs began to ache..argghh..den freshen myself wen to bed..

SePtEmBeR 12

ahh woke up early coz my cuzins and i were going to go our cuzin sis house warming..my cuzin sis hse was at punggol..ahh..my parents din come as dey had work so wen wif madhz and his parents, devan bro, muth bro n his wife, punetha sis and her family. since too many people had to go in two cars..well all wen dere..din stay too long coz my cuzin sis husband side are all punjabi people and da hse was like full pack..lolz..din understand wad da hell all were speaking..den juz walked ard da hse.ate..talk and left..den wen to mandai road dere to see da monkeys..gosh dey were so cute..one greedy monkey was annoying us..lolz..but da baby ones were such a cuties...after dat wen back home..den my sis-in-law suggested why not all of us go PS for shopping since dere are two cars..dis time all da youngster sat in one car and da old folks da other car..da youngsters cars was driven by muthu bro and da old folks one was driven my by uncle..den wen PS..looked ard..den sat down most of da shopping was done by madhz n my sis-in-law..ahh..after dat all wen to Jalan Sultan..had really a feast man.ate chicken and mutton satay, mee siam goreng, mee kuwa, roti john, tulang and drank sugar cane..was so full..i noe u will be wondering is dat really my appetite..lolz..after eating..sat down and talk..den wen back home..had really a grt day..

SePtEmBeR 13

din do much was juz bummin at home..den wen to punetha sis hse played wif my nephews..den was dicussing some things..den came back home..ard 8pm bavani my bro's gf came she and i wen to Northpoint coz she wanted to pay her bills den walked ard..did some window shopping..den she treated me to Swensons..wah..had Banana Split..yummy...den was talking wif her...came back home..showing her some pics which i took recently..den she left wif my bro..ahh..was planning wif shamz wad tme to meet her and stuff..

SePtEmBeR 14

ahh..my prayer was being painted..den was telling my dad i want my room to be painted too..da same colour OrAnGe..kewl colour..lolz..den my dad promised to paint my room...was bummin ard..suddenly my internet was not working..tot my line was cut..den called Starhub..din get response..den called shamz and cancelled da plan of meeting coz din have money and had to get money by hook or crook...coz my bro asked me to settle da Internet Bill..argghh...and geetha sis called me coz she and i had to get some files..den after i got ready..one last try..ahh my IE was working..i was so mad..if only i had Cash i wldn't mind going shamz hse coz i badly wanted to go..but my mum din wanna give me money..din have money at all..sighz..hell broke..sorry shamz..den wen wif geetha sis to get da files met suba dere..den met punetha sis at Khatib Mac..den ate.. after dat wen back to punetha sis hse..discussed some things..den left home..came back..arrange da god songs and files..ahh..got alot of things to do man..need to do some typing, printing, photocopying..gosh...ahh its all for a good deed..so dun mind..now so bored..came to blog..at last i'm done..where is everyone..not even one is chatting wife me..wonder where is everyone..hehe...dats abt all for ToDaY..


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Why do I always get da blame...*sobz..*sobz*@Friday, September 10, 2004

well..well...harlow pplz..how are u guys? hmm..if u are gonna ask me da same quest..i will seriously juz say dat totally everything is going wrong..hmm..two days ago my electricity was cut..grr..but we on it in a illegal way..den yest i took all da initiative to go early in da morning to Civic Centre to Da Power Supply HQ..grr..my mum told me dey open at 8am..i was dere 7:45am..but den..dey only open at 8:30am..gosh..i was pissed,sleepy,irritated and bored..wad am i suppose to do..i din have a choice..therefore juz waited..grr..dere were other people oso waiting..hmm..when dey changed da signboard to open..for da 1st time i juz rush in..*kiasu* neva been like dat..but time was running for me coz i had school..grr when i wen to talk wif da Customer Service person..she was damn stubborn she din wanna help..i din have enuff cash to pay..but she argued wif me..we dun accept etc..she expects me to pay full amt which is not within my budget..gosh..ahh..i was pissed..i juz paid da amt i had..and she said she wun reconnect till she get da full amt..for all i noe she is an new CS person and she is an indian..after dat i got out from dere..wen to da mrt station to call my mum..told her wad happen..she said dat i wld have tok rudely..dats why dey dun wanna on back da electricity..*WTF* den i called my dad..he was like nvm..u go school..we shall see wad we can do...now no one has cash and stuff..dats wad he told me..haiz..i'm seriously hell broke..badly need a job..everytime had to juz eat bread and go school..and save da money my dad gives me..which will initially be spent juz for my school stuff...argghhh...hmm my classmate suckz my blood..doing project work..dey are not being cooperative..and my leader wen ard telling people dat wad i'm doing for da project is not relevant..WTF..i did all da information for her..she wen home amend it and she print she said dat all is her work..fark man..seriously..and she keeps on shouting at me infront of so many other students..she thinks i'm very quiet..well dun wanna say anything yet..if she thinks she can bully me like hell..rule me..nag at me..order me..ahh..i can jolly well ask her to fly kite..well most of classmates dun like her coz she is NO 1 Bossy Ass..and very Vain..and Arrogant..argghhh..damn childish..i juz dun noe wad to say..da best part one of my teacher ask me to counsell her hahaha..coz she is absent frequently and doesn't come to school on time..hmm..no comments abt her..my life is in a mess..sighs..i BADLY NEED A JOB...if anyone noes a part time job for sat and sun plz inform me..dankz..i'm so stress..depress..gosh..juz dun noe exactly wad i'm feeling..haiz..


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Will My Boyfren get along wif my frenz??? *wonders* *prays*@Tuesday, September 07, 2004

HI Hi hi...hmm..sorry for not updating for some days coz of exams and functions..etc..okies dis topic/question was asked my Saj..Is it important for my boyfren to get along wif my frenz..and if dey can't get along..how well can i handle it..alrightz..i seriously want my bf to get along wif my frenz..to me yesh its important..coz my frenz are precious to me..coz wen i'm gonna introduce my bf to my frenz and vice versa..i dun want them to look at each other like dey are born enemies kinda thing..i'll talk to my bf abt my frenz and wld also try to get along wif his frenz..its not an easy task coz we may have our own opinion of someone and we can't juz change it..maybe i'll go out wif my frenz and bf..like to da beach..some outdoor sports..hmm..ask my boyfren to be such a good boy and tok to my frenz and stuff..i wld also ask my frenz why dey can't get along wif my bf..i will suggest solutions..will explain to dem dat he is not like wad u think..and in da end no matter how much i try and still dey can't get along i will be so depressed and juz scream....haha..i really can't do much den..i will ask my 24hr counsellor abt it and i guess she shld noe who am i toking abt..*winkz* Oh ya i wld seriously pray and wish dat my future boyfren must get along wif my frenz and vice versa..becoz both of dem are important to me..though my frenz are given da 1st priority..its not nice to hurt someone's feelings...we must show empathy..yeapz..dats abt it..aightz saj hope i did answer ur quest well...and its my point of view dats all..all rightz..Adiyoz


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My frenz come 1st or My Boyfren..@Sunday, September 05, 2004

Wazzup people...well..if u ask me..my boyfren is a perosn who is impt to me..but den he came into my life like juz only..where else my frenz who are also impt to me..but den dey were wif me throughout..so coming to da point my frenz are more impt..and dey are always given da 1st priority..but it doesn't mean i will neglect my bf..he is also impt..its juz dat he is given da 2nd place..dun worry my future bf *winkz* u are still impt to me darling..
*NOtE: If YoU aRe CuTe..I aM sInGlE..bUt I aM cOnFuSeD wHeThEr Am I aVaIlaBle..BuT I'm NoT tAkEn..


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its quiz time..aren't i kewl...*whistles*@Saturday, September 04, 2004







Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK]
You are Super-Cool!
Woah! Step back - the future's so bright for you it's blinding me! You are the coolest of the cool. Everyone looks up to you as the benchmark for being coooool. The fonze was your grandfather. Any cooler and you'd freeze! WOO it's chilly in here.
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Have u ever met someone like dat...@Thursday, September 02, 2004

A pretty lil gal named Durga. Juz recently she turned 20yrs old. She always wanted love and to be loved..In the game of love, she lost all da games but is remembered by the things she did and sacrificed for her love..Her first love blossom at da age of 14. You might think its puppy love, but to her its her 1st and best love.She tot it might last for a lifetime but den it withered after a year. Then her 2nd love blossom at the age of 17 hmm..it lasted for only a day. I noe u might be thinking WTH! Her 3rd relationship blossom at da age of 18..it withered within months, da reason dey broke, da guy insulted her looks. Both of dem always had soemthing to fight abt..wonder wadz wrong. Now dis pretty lil gal is 20yrs..though she might show signs dat she is not bothered abt love, she always look out her room room window, wid da curtains wide apart, da wind caressing her cheeks, and the one & only reason she is wating..for her prince to break da barrier around her and give her all da love and happiness. Dream guy..pretty lil gal always dream and imagine how she wants her boyfriend to be..First he must be a Singaporean..haha..hmm..he must be ard da age of 21-24. He must not be short or neither soo..tall..not fat..not skinny..muscular..wah..but not like those weight lifters..not dark..neither too fair..juz maybe my complexion..hehe..hmm lets see..what he shld noe: cooking..sports..make up a conversation.. how to pamper her..how to love her more den anything else..how to face her dad when he is gonna tell dat he loves her..how to please me..how to be in her good books..wad are her likes and dislikes..wad she loves and hates da most..her best frenz..her cuzin..practically noe her in and out..His Character: loving..faithful..adorable..stubborn..a lil temper..a lil arrogant..a sweetie pie..willing to do anything for her..responsible..pious..outgoing..socialble..joker..be lame at times..nice voice to sing(at least try)..His career: must be a student right now..or in a good career in a good position..well..must have a child alike heart..she hate smokers..and if u drink she dun mind..but not a regular drinker..How she expects her dream guy to fall in love wif her: well..follow her w/o her knowledge..find out her character..noe her well 1st before u fall in love wif her..take her pics..keep as a rememberance..get to noe her..be her fren..get along wif her frenz and cuzins..be brave enuff to tell dat he loves her..propose to her in a most cutest and romantic way..be brave enuff to tell her dad dat he loves her..pick up a fight wif her..argue wif her..ask sorry..piss her..den please her..lend his shoulders for her to cry..give his handkerchief to wipe her tears..hug her..pamper her like a child..treat her wif all da respects..juz love her for da way she is..scold her for her mistakes..teach her da good ways..bring her out of her cage..kiss her forehead..sit and watch movies wif her..fight for da bolster in her room..buy for her suprise gifts..once in a while blue roses..tell her sincerely dat u love her..if she is upset..act stoopid to make her laff..feed her..put her to sleep..she loves to talk and talk..so if are quiet forget it..u have to talk..make up conversations..take a lot of photos wif her..candids will be best..hmm..pretty lil gal..cld think of nothing else..lolz..she noes its not easy to get this dream guy..but she believes in God..one day a guy..who got most of wad she dreams of will come to her to give her all da love and happiness..To you people it might juz be an imagination..to her is part of her life..a life which she always wanted..all those guys who came in her love life promised to give her dis kinda life..but in da end..dey find deir own life and hurt her..No one noes wad is wriiten in deir journey of life..always follow ur heart..pray..and enjoy life..

Give Me

Give me all your loving time
Give me all your hate,
Give me all your singing rhymes,
Give me your mistakes.

I'll take them and put them under glass,
for all the world to see,
And take them out and kiss each one,
because they're all for me.

Then I'll let them fly on free,
and wave until they're gone,
and cry some sad and joyful tears,
And listen to their songs.

Give me your heart,
and I'll give you mine,
all my wishes too.
And when you let them fly on free,
I know they'll all come true.



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hey shorty its ur b'dae we gonna party like its ur b'dae@

Happy b'dae shamz..okies..people..its my best frenz b'dae 31 August 2004 and she is turning 19yrs..hippie...well..though its teacher's day celebration had to go school..school ends at 4..had to rush back home as my frenz and myself wanted to suprise shamz..haha..she had a 1st suprise when da rest of dem who are *meenz + prem + vinod + sasi + patzu + jag all of dem were already in shamz hse..dey gave her a suprise wif da cake..den i wen to her hse at 6pm ahh...wen i came in after a while da rest of dem say dey had to leave..but den..we already plan to meet at da restaurant...*winkz* haha..shamz was a lil heartbroken coz all were leaving..but den she din noe wad we plan..after dat..all left except shamz, her parents and myself..was waiting for her and her parents to get ready..gave her my special handmade card..though it was simple..hope u like it babe..den we left a while later..took a cab and wen to Sakunthala's Food Palace..ahh..was da 1st time i'm going dere..hmm..nice place..cold..lucky was wearing long sleeve..ahh..oh ya..today i tried my level best to look feminine..*shy* haha..dun noe why..juz felt like dressing up like dat..hmm..*wonders* shamz meenz prem and letchu said i look pretty..wah..*floats* hahaha..okies..back to earth..we were like waiting for da rest to come..actually da plan was da rest of dem were suppose to be seated and waiting for shamz..but den..it happen da other way round..lolz.was trying to distract shamz from looking at da window..den came meenz wif a bouquet from her dad..cho sweet..and it was blue roses..ahh..den came prem jag..vinod and patz..after a while came rajan uncle family..shamz dad fren..roshini's family..ahh shamz was shock..dats wad we wanted..hippie..hope she like da suprise. den we rajan uncle and shamz dad ordered da food...omg da food was damn nice..shiok!!! nice wack man..smilez. den took some pics..haha..nowadays i juz love to take pics..i wonder why..i mean i like to give pose for da pic..den all ate..played wif ashwin..ahh..cutie..roshini's bro..played wif roshini too..though she was a lil rough..den had some tok..dis arsehole keep on giving irritating calls...grr..but den he got it frm me..lolz..den had some tok..den came prem's fren maria and i dun noe da other gal's name..hehe..hmm..had some tok..after dat..decided to make a move..we were all waiting outside for shamz dad and rajan uncle and roshini to come out. i was standing juz a few steps away frm da door..roshini ran towards da door and juz ran out clenching her fist and dere she gave a nice punch on my abdomen..*boom* ahh i fell holding my abdomen...dat was damn pain..ahh..my knees went weak..and juz fell..tears streamed down as it was pain..ahh..gosh..den shamz parents both offered me thier handkerchief..gosh..though i was in pain but da care and concern i got..ahh..felt touched..den prem gave me his hand to help me back on my feets..he helped me carry my bag..cho sweet..sat a while..roshini's mum said sorry..nah..though its dat lil brat fault.its ok..as she is still young..shamz dad asked me am i ok..meenz and shamz asked am i fine..den i said yupz..den we all left da place..rajan uncle's family took a cab and we all toom mrt from farrer park mrt station..sasi,prem maria and her fren took da NEL to back home..da rest of us took da NEL den changed in Dhoby Gaut..ahh...was fun disturbing vinod..lolz..de meenz alighted at AMK den followed by me at yishun and shamz got down in admiralty i guess and vinod got down in boon lay i think..and jag got down at bukit batok..now all will be a bz..thinking of me ahem..*adjust collar* lolz..hahaha..well dun mish me pplz..yeapz..had a grt day..lucky my dad din scold or nag at me for being late..hehe..hippi..well shamz..hope u had enjoyed ur b'dae..and had a grt time wif us..once again Happy Birthday and wish u all da best in life..stay sexi notti and bitchy..*smilez*


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Happy B'dae shamz@Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Many Many Happy Returns of Da Day Shamz..my best pal..ahh..can't believe how life wld be without her..okies babe..its ur b'dae..and u r 19yrs..ahh..getting older..note dis point:*dis is ur last yr of teenage hahaha...enjoy it to da fullest. sorry was trying to keep myself awake yest to call and wish u..but den..my sleep took over me..grr..so...i noe u wld be waiting for my call onli!!! wahahah *thick skin* well i am born like dat..here is a poem juz for my lil darling..take a look..

Birthdays comes and goes in every year
but few remains with us as golden memories
Its a special day to celebrate with loved ones
Although, the years carry our age away
but every aged year brings happiness into our heart
Life is full of ups and down, weary or teary
but life goes always with smile instead of frown
The candles have been blown off to say good bye to old year
and then the cakes is cut to say welcome to new age
The birthday song sung to forget the world
and the birthday wishes keep pouring to live more
When the birthday gifts are overflowing on the table
and impatient face is glowing to open them.
Dine and wine are served unlimited
Music followed by dance to remember unforgettable day
'Happy Birthday To You" that is last words that we hear
from each and everyone and again the drums are silent
for another year to come.

May u have da most wonderful birthday and all ur wishes come true
and May God bless u wif all da happiness on earth and heaven..*muackz*





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