I gotta tell this man…my hair has been dropping like nobody’s business..arghhh..and let me bold it ITS REALLY DROPPING A LOT *sighz* as it is my hair can be used for Loreal Advertisement..LOL…alrightz..i have to do something abt it…sham has update her blog and she keeps on finding all my Pinglish words which I try my level best to hide *grinz* wahahahaha well I had a project to do on a boring topic “Purchasing Computer” da bets thing is that I have done everything..and juz da day before da due date..but to my atrocious…my project cld not be open at all..i saved it in my A/Drive…damn..i had to stay awake the whole night…till 4:30am..and finished it..i wld like to take dis opportunity to thank shamini for lending me her book..and keeping me company and also my cuzin bro madhan for lending me some notes…
I still have my role play to do…hope it will turn out well *prays* lol…exams are coming choo soon…only have 3 weeks…yet to really discipline myself to sit in one place and study…LOL…*naughty gal* My illusionised thoughts is still pending…lol..coz dun have a topic to talk abt…anyone can suggest…all suggestions are accepted…Many have said that now I am 21yrs…must be responsible…etc…is not that I dun want to be…juz dat I am also a normal human being…and most of the time I am crazy…lolz…my mum keeps annoying me abt proposals…damn…she thinks I have really grown up to settle in life..wahahahah that’s a joke man…if I am gonna settle in life now…I think my future husband will go crazy…probably he won’t be able to stand my nonsense…or there might be a twist like wad shamz said..maybe I will become quieter after getting to know my future husband…LOL!!! We shall juz see wads dere for me in my destination..
Getting to know my classmates a lil better..a class full of studious, naughty, fun and jovial people..pretty interesting I shld say..holidays are soo close..but I dun think I will have da time to enjoy coz I am looking for job..and I wanna be occupied..sighz…so that my loneliness, emotions, feelings, mind will not disturb me much…hehe.. nowdays everything and everyone seem to be changing alot..i hope its all for the good...thats all for now Adiyoz..
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I have a dream to Bublish my Own Book. Be a well known author, make an impact in everyones life who read my book. Hmm..we shall see whats gonna happen..okies yesterday i went to Popular Bookstore as i was browsing at some books, there was this book which caught my eyes. Its called Single Picky Girl. A book written by a gal called Janice Wong and she has practicaly wrote whatever practical things happen in life and stuff...its really nice to read and she was also a column writer for Streats, The Straits Times, The Newpaper and Her World Magazine and guess what she is only 28years old. She was an air stewardess and work as a marketing executive.. well after reading her book..she only encouraged me more to write and become a writer..haiz..i hope this small dream of mine wld turn out to be a dream come true..now though i can't write a column in all those Newspapers and Magazines...i wld do it in my blog too..though i know i don't have much a big fans over here..lol..
I am gonna name my column..and it is going to be called...
ILLUSIONISE THOUGHTS
Do all mum know about their kids...here i am talking abt mothers..as far as i know mothers are known to be their daughters best friend but its not always the case..some mothers are the child's nightmare..hmm..i am proud to say that my mum don't anything abt me..actually i wld love to blame her..but i also have a partial part in it..coz i don't have the habit to share things with her..oh my...some kids find it so easy to do that..but i can't *pulls hair* anyway talking abt daughters...sons are also mummy's boy...haha..well in one way its good and bad.. coz the son would love the mother soo much..and the other part he can't live without her at all and become dependent on her..hmm..but not all sons are like that..i recalled complaining to one of my friend that my mum is nagging at em and giving me cold shoulders...and he replied saying all mothers do that...then i said sorry not all mum will do that..and i won't do that at all when i become a mother...he laughed...he said lets see when the time comes..i said well it all depends on how you bring up the child..haiz..but whatever it is Mothers are angels who brough angels and devils like us to the world...There was a Discussion held in heaven..God and the Assistance Creator created babies..and send to each and inividual women on earth..but then the Assistance Creator asked God.."why do we send this particular child to thise prticular women...why do all women gets a different child..and den God replied..well I know that only this women can handle this kinda child...and bought God and the Assistance Creator Laughed at Each other...well..now we know why our mothers are our mother and not our friends mothers are our mothers...*Laughs* Only our mother can tolerate us..*Peace*
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THANK YOU
First of all i would like to thank all people who have forgotten their friends after they are being attached..okies i noe of someone who also blogged abt the same topic but dat person said fuck off to all...well diff people have diff opinion..
i have been wondering wad makes the changes in everyone suddenly..when dey dun have da special someone..they are seem to be soo attach to the friend but once they have found the special someone..oh my...they seem to be carried along..i noe some of my frenz might think i am hiniting at you..well i am actually trying to tell wad i feel..in anyway some people might think i am lonely depressive and etc..dats y i am talking like this...well this is all from my life experience..
From wad i noe i think i have less friends actually..and i really dun noe trhe reason...but i noe i have a special fren in life...and i have always want her to be my special fren..she was and she is still my special fren...but juz now i feel she is a lil further away from me...coz she is now attached...hmm looks like those who are attached are living in their own world..but let me get this clear..i am not blaming everyone who are attached are like this...some noes very well how to balance bought their relationship and friendship...i have realised dat everone has taught me something abt life...Feeling lonely makes me feel irritated...i have my tantrums thrown at others...damn i noe its sooo wrong...guess i need to make myself occupied...seriously.. There was dis incident where i noe dat my fren had met her bf yest so guess she is free i called her out for lunch..but to my suprise she said sorry gal i am going lunch wif my bf...i was really taken back.. coz as far as i noe her..she could have asked me whether i wanna join her and her bf for lunch...but no she din...its ok...maybe she wanted to spend everyday of the days wif him..lol.. or maybe i shld not have interuptted...i am sorry gal if i am pricking ur nerves..juz wanna say dat da pain for me is even worse...anyway i have learnt my lessons....
I did talk to her abt dis issue...which made me understand everything abt friendship and relationship...if i had not talked wif u i wldn't have realised dat i am in da wrong..so i wld like to say Sorry...i noe u are soo gonna screw me left right...wahaha..but i dun care coz no matter wad in da end u are my fren...i wld neva let go of you at all...even if u are letting my hand go baby...
Aightz now...let now...i seriously think i am gonna flop my accts exam...gosh..da teacher keeps saying i am gonna fail the paper..sometimes i feel she is right...LOL...anyway i really hope i can pass through coz after da exam no more accts..damn happy...and yeah life is getting pretty interesting...alot of things are happening...and i am pretty shock dat i am a good role model in someones life...hmm...INTERESTING!!! LOL i have got juz few more weeks for my exams...really need to buck up...and enjoy life at the moment is a NO to me..i am looking for a part-time job...so if anyone noes of any plz msg me...dankz...i am gonna keep myself occupied... i want to achieve something in life...become famous in a good way..help people who are helpless.. oh my so much i wanna do...but i have yet to realise wad are my capabilities, talent etc...damn.... My mum keep asking my photo guess she is gonna look for a bridegroom for me... LOL i am soo gonna get arranged marriage...but its soo not my type...haiz...
Falling in love is such a beautiful thing...but whenever i fall i end up hurting myself...sooner or later i think i am gonna suffer from love phobia...wahahahahh *kidding* alrightz...nothing much to tell abt...if there is anything u wan me to blog and elaborate abt..plz do tell..i will try my level best...dankz...Live Every Second As though Its Your Last!!!
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well..well..1st of all i wld like wish sanju Happy Belated Birthday...anyway skool is making me feel more stress..and lately i have been very low in spirits and feeling agitated and getting pissed also..arghh..have so much of work to do..financial is freaking down..i badly need a PART-TIME JOB!!! My exams are coming soon..and i really need to buck up man..sighz..
Yesterday met up wif shamz to have lunch at tekka...but we have to wait for shamz mum..so decided to go to my aunty's travel agency..damn funny man...i guess i was the big time nonsense everyone has eva met..*am proud of it* yeah den shamz mum came..we went to premz shop to leave our bags and dats when prem gave me a belated b'day gift..it was a nike Perfume..ahh.. nice nice..i like it..den we went to Ghandi's to have lunch *yummy* den shamz went to do her threading at Menaka's...looks like i am advertising those places we went..lol..oh shamz bought a new hp..damn nice and damn EX!!! i got to starve for dun noe how many mths to buy the Hp..LOL yeah after threading..wen back to premz shop..
oh another thing shamz mum bought me a gold locket..damn nice..its heartshape locket where the number 21 is hanging inside the heartshape..*sweet* i am planning to get a shorter chain..so that i can wear both the lockets which she give and my parents bought for me..and i am so gonna look like a GMT Jewellery...wahahahha..anyway i am not bothered..i live for myself..after dat took some photos wif shamz hp..da photo taking session was helluva hilarious..oh..prem bought a new control car and i was playing wif it..damn nice...sighz..*looks at sanju and shamz* and i am still waiting for my big belated birthday treat *stares at Sanju* i am feling so stress dat i feel like eating a big tub of chocolate chip ice-cream *anyone wanna buy for me*
so many new movies are out but i dun have da cash to watch dem...damn...and i guess i really need a very good massage..*giving shamz da pitiful face* There is so much of financial problem going on..but my desires are not leaving me..LOL..there is a list of things which i want..shall list dem down..
Wishlist:
Digi Camera
New Hp
Driving license
Braclet
new shoe
new clothes
shades
ahh...yeah dats all for now..aightz nothing much for me to blabber already..hehe shall end here..
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phew!!! atlast man..after so much of struggles and heart man..i manage to do my 21st Birthday..hippie!!! well i did my b'dae celeb on 3rd September 2005 Saturday..even last minute also i did some shoppings..gosh..i was nearly dead...after getting ready by 5:00pm itself...packed my things and other clothes which i am suppose to bring to the place.by the way my b'dae celeb was held at Karimun Country Club..so i left wif my dad 1st to put up the guest book and photos..wearing a saree and walking up and down is da most difficult thing for me to do man..den took my photo shots..damn funny some of the poses though...then it was ard 7:00pm+ where guests start arriving...was glad..cause i was half worried sick what if the guests dun arrive..den i am dead meat..LOL..
yeah den slowly the room was filled up..got so many gifts and stuff..invited everyone to go and take their dinner...welcome everyone to be seated..yeah..den my frenz all arrived..i am glad atleast some of my sec sch frenz could make it...thanks babe..and thanks for the gift also...and not forgetting my other big bunch of frenz, Shamini, my old besti (sham's mum), Jag, Aishu, Meera, Kumaran aka Teddy, nareen, maria, hema, sankari (hemyz sis) yeah..all came..after so long i am meeting my some sec school frenz like kala, azimah...nice meeting you all...den..after welcoming..my cousin sis and sis-in-laws all went down to dress me up in my gown...and den when i was waiting outside at da door..da cute DJ annouced..lets all stand up as da b'dae gal enters the room and walk up to the stage...
ahh...embarrassing man..but damn fun!!!..walked up to the stage where my cake was.. and oh ya the cake turned up very well..and den once i stood on the stage..da dj said before i cut the cake lets talk for a while wif the b'dae gal..den i was passed the mike..and i said a very BIG thanks to all those who turned up...in Engilish and in Tamil also..*giggles* den he asked me since i am now 21 i must be daring, brave and can defeat any challenge rite..den i said why not...LOL..so hasked two of my bros on stage..and asked them to hold a stick where a balloon was tied in the middle..so each of them will hold each side of the stick and i got to burst the balloon by biting it....wah!!! damn farnie man...i tried so much..coz both my brothers were trying to carry the stick higher and higher...lol...so i decided to use my hand bring down the balloon and bite it!!! damn funny..den da DJ said i cheat a lil..but i said nvm i'm da b'dae gal..so he said since she is the b'dae gal we give it to her...
den another suprise was juz before i cut my b'dae cake...madhan came on stage and gave me a bouquet and a small box wrapped nicely..so da DJ said dat wadeva is in the box i must use it now...so i said okies...so while i was trying to open my sis punetha and da DJ kept giving da sound BOOM!!! i tot something is gonna pop out..but to my another big SUPRISE it was a Pacifier..waahahahahahahhaha...damn cute..and it was barney's pacifier...so i use it..took pics..den cut the cake..and fed everone...took some grp photos..ahh...den wen to change my last attire...pants and top...atlast...so it was time for the shake ur body....dancefloor time....but for a change..all dancefloor the b'dae gal or boy starts alone or wif one of the parents...but for mine..i asked my parents alone to start of the dance floor...so cute...dey dance ...den later i joined in..and bring my aunty who has neva danced in her life or in any function to dance wif me..she felt sooo shy..soo cute...ahh...i adore her...den dance wif my sis punetha, madhan, meera, and all cuzins...and frenz...damn fun..but was suprised none of my sec skool frenz din dance..though i called dem..even menaka din dance..oh my..suprised...lol..but i enjoyed alot..den my sec sch frenz left a lil early...but the rest of other frenz stayed a lil long...but am happy all came..and enjoyed...i lurvvve the last part of my b'dae..all my cuzins surrounded me..and one by one danced wif me..den suddenly madhan carried me and went ard within the circle and all sang Happy Birthday song remix version...wah!!! i was sooo happy!!! den we took some formal and informal shots from sivaram bro's camera...ahh..after dat all headed back home...i am glad everyone came and enjoyed..thanks...My 21st is a beautiful memory for me...next we are all planning for my cuzin sis meera's 21st b'dae..hippie!!! and next year is shamz..LOL...
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