Phew…after a long time I am back to blog..yeah I noe I seriously took a very long time coz I dun have internet connection at home..and I had holidays therefore I cldn’t even come school to blog..haiz..its ok coz I dun really have much things to update coz I have such a boring life..lol..
Just recently I watched the movie Salaam Namaste…I shld really sincerely say it’s a wonderful movie..ahh..i love it to the max..a story which had friendship, relationship, emotional feelings, marriage, pregnant..damn beautiful..and oh ya da actor is Saif Ali Khan and actress is Preity Zinta…and Saif looks cool and handsome coz he build up his muscles… and he look wow…and Preity oh my..she looks extra beautiful man..hats off to Preity and also the make up artist..da songs are damn meaningful..haiz..
At the moment I am juz feeling down and not really in good mood..dun noe why…feel something is missing in my life and sometimes I even feel that I am hopeless..damn… after a long time I realize that my handwriting sucks to the max…can u imagine a 21yrs old gal can’t write properly..damn it…and I seriously think that I lack of talent…
Sometimes I juz wish I cld be some ppl..so smart, talented…and etc…argghh..i noe rightfully I shld not feel dat way..but my sensitive side is making me feel like that…
For now I need someone’s hug..a lap for me to lie down and cry..i am begging my eyes not to reveal my tears..but they juz dun listen..by the way I got my 1st semester results..though I passed my 3 subjects…my GPA is low…damn..in one way I am happy that I pass but in the other I am sad of the points..but as we all know God does not give juz happiness but also sorrows…I laugh a lot…but he makes me cry for more than wad I laugh..do u think its fair…yeah I noe somewhere in the world there are people who are living a worse life then me…but each individual is diff..
As the days passby…I juz wonder what on earth am I doing…and wad am I gonna do after I finish this course..so many questions running in my head but I have yet to find an answer..nowadays my chest pain is getting worse…not sure why…especially at night when I wanna sleep the pain occurs…damn..hope to see a doc soon…but I dun really like to doc at all..and take medicines…coz they suck a big time..lol.. right now I am looking for a part time job..hope to get one soon.. and yeah for now dats all I have to say…
