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had fun..@Friday, December 31, 2004

well well...i really had fun today..met shamz at khatib..she wants to do her threading..and when she saw me..she said "fuu durga..someone wearing lip gloss, eye shadows..and nowadays u r lookin feminine" to be frank dat was da 1st time someone closed to me say dat i am lookin feminine..coz most of da time ppl say i look mre like a "Rowdy, anjadi kuppai, tom boy" god..at last for once i felt happ dat someone praised da way i dress..lolz..well to some ppl it might be lame but to me its a compliment..okies..after meeting her..went to dhoby gaut..frm da back dis parveen.. hugged me..god i was shocked..i am like meeting her aftter 4 yrs..gosh...she look hot man..her hair, her looks, her dressing..lolz...*looks at parveen's skirt length* LOL...den when we were walking to menaka's bridal..dis guy looked at us n said hi charlie's angels..LOL...so we were like discussing who is who...i am cameron diaz..parveen is lucy and shamz is drewberry..i think dats how u spell her name..hehe...after her threading..we went to jothi to get pottu for shamz..was raining..and we practically ran..den we took da train back to dhoby gaut..went to PS..damn parveen is damn nice to beat...*aim's at parveen's arms* but in da end i got wacked by those two brats...we ate at LJS..damn hungry man...den walked ard..parveen tried a shoe in U.R.S u shld have seen da way she walked wif it..like one peacock...wahahahaha...den da heels seems to be high...so juz got out...shamz bought 3 pairs of earrings...and among da 3 i chose one for her..hope she likes it..hehe...coz i am not sooo good at choosing feminine stuff...den dey both wen tamp...as dey were going for a show..and me headed back home..den got a call for my sis dat my dad wants to meet us at sembawang...juz wen back home..freshen myself..den left to sembawang...ahh...wen to satay club...ate tau goreng, rojak and satay..my Appetite is damn big juz as my heart..lol...den walked ard..bought some stuff for my doggies...n left...came back home....juz rotting..watched a hindi movie...interesting..and kareena looks beautiful in dat movie...and its new yr eve...dun have any plans...hope 2205 will be a better yr...hope i will be a better person...come up in my education...and take my driving license..both car n bike...hehe *sticks out tongue at shamz* yeah...dats all for now...i am leading a complicated..incomplete...life..da moment i start smiling and lol..da next moment something juz corrupted and i am crying...why...if god can hear me..plz make my 2005 a better year..


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@Monday, December 27, 2004

The Beginning Of An Ending..

well i wld like to continue my story..so juz seat back and relax..and plz tag if u have anything to ask or say..

Holidays are gone with da wind and yeah the students are back to school. As usual Kesh came in his bikes and there goes da gals..."oh my" except one gal and she is none other than Akshana. Kesh wen to the lecture hall..hmm waiting for his gang of frenz..but unexpectedly Akshana came into the room. Immediately his jaws drop..he kept looking at her and when she walk near to him he offered da seat next to him but she sat at the back of him. He felt that was suppose to be a shut up. In a while came his frenz...though kesh is mischevious..he is very good at his educations..The lecture was getting boring and while da other students were taking down notes..dis kesh was bz playing games with his hp...and when Akshana saw him not beng serious..she juz gave da look like she has no comments..ahh...break time came..Kesh fav period..lolz...and for da 1st time Kesh asked a gal "hello Aksh wld u like to join me for lunch.." and his frenz juz LOL...he was like shut up guys..but she replied "its okai Hrithikesh i am already joining another person for lunch and dankz for da offer" he mumbled...god whose face did i look at in da 1st thing in the morning..."his frenz take its easy kesh..u wan some ice water" he stared back..all proceed to the canteen..when he was sitting and having a drink...ahh...dere came his most fav darling Ashnita...one of da most beautiful gal but too bad guys..someone stole her heart..a very studious and frenly too..kesh wld neva listen to any advices unless it is given by her..he juz feel some close bind with her..he calls her "his sweet lil mom" she sat with kesh and asked..."hmm..which gal rejected to u" his frenz were like"wow" how did u noe dat...she said "come on guys its written all over his face" hahahaha....before he cld say what happen..dere came Ashnita sweetheart Arjunash da most humble guy in da gang..Arjunash and Ashnita are childhood frenz and now dey are da most sweetest couple..then came da most interesting character guys..lolz..dey are Dineshvan and Brendon Kumar. dey are known as interesting guys coz..Dineshvan is a serious guy...and his sacarstic words are really pricking at times..but he has a very good heart..not many know..and Brendon is a talkative chap..and da youngest in da grp..without him in da grp...it will be damn quiet..but he and kesh can be in da same room..both da guys are noisy..but both dinesh and brendon are close buddies..and da only person who can make Dinesh smile and at da same time annoy is Talshini..da most sporty and damn frenly gal...and she is Kesh's best fren..while everyone was sitting kesh asked "hey where is Talsh?" Brendon said "speak of da lil devil, here she comes" But who are da other two gals she is coming with asked Brendon..Kesh said da gal wearing da chudidhar is Aksh.."and da same gal who rejected you am i rite asked Ashnita" he said Ash...but i dun noe da other gal...let me check out said brendon..Talsh said" Hi guys had ur lunch? let me introduce to you..she is..ya i know she is Aksh..den Aksh replied..sorry my name is Akshana. Everyone said Hello Akshana welcome to the club..and Talsh continued..and she is Pramisha..everyone said welcome to da club too Pramisha..but dis Brendon being an extra..he wen to pramisha and said "hi my name is Brendon Kumar, u can call me brendon" she said hello..brendon..everyone was laffing at him including aksh..When everyone went get deir food...Kesh pulled Talsh aside and asked abt Aksh..."Talsh asked why are u sooo...interested in her biodata...dun tell me u like her." he said...no man...she is not my type...juz asked out of curiousity.." Talsh said u mean she is not ur type..u seriously need to go for an eye check up.." den dey were juz talking and when to get deir food...


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@Saturday, December 25, 2004

Think Before You Talk

well..well..."When My Heart Was Bleeding, Instead Of Doing First Aid..I Was Stabbed Just Directly In The Front" Guess i have to juz blame myself for being so foolish...anyway i din wanna blog abt dis issue...but i feel dat i need to pour it out...i have been told dat my words are hurting..and its nowadays very sacarstic...ok..pplz..u see i am born wif dat kinda speech..da way i talk...its not dat i hold something against u..coz Durga...ya dats me...i am a direct person..dun like to beat ard da bush..and sometimes..da reason why i am being sacarstic coz...if i am gonna tell u directly at ur face u wun be able to take it...its not dat i am mean...but i dun wanna hurt anyone coz i noe da pain of being hurt. Some are saying dat sometimes it hurts...but do dey noe how much i have been hurt by dem...i dun like and dun wish to tell coz i love to live my life to da fullest...and i juz dun noe why...Problems seems to be coming and aiming directly at me...for no reason...god...once upon a time in my life...my ex said dat my jokes are hurting...at dat point of time i laffed man...now and today i realise...wad he said is infact true...and to all those who feels dat i have hurt u by the way i talk and said something to u...wld like to take dis opportunity to say dat i sincerely apologise for da mistake i have done...and it goes to everyone...menaka, shamz, prem and even jag...ya jag i noe i have hurt u alot...its not i really am dat mean...its juz to make u realise...dere are betta pple out dere...no matter wad all are my frenz..and to me da reason i am still happy in life is because of frenz...so plz guys..juz dun think i am a sacarstic person...i am a normal human being and i have feelings too...and menaka i am sorry..."no matter wad i will be always dere for u.." dedicated to all my frenz..."When I Was Smiling At u..You Forgot To See The Tear In My Eye"


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@Wednesday, December 22, 2004

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.

All you can do is be someone who can be loved.

The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.

It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.


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@Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Fixing A Broken Heart

i cry and cry and cry till all da tears are dried up man...goshh..probab;y my tear dict is like damn dry...have been going thru alot..and i dun have solutions for dat..my heart hurts when i smile..whe my heart is filled wif hurt...god...wad did i di in my last generation man...dat i am going thru alot...ya..guess u people wldn't noe my emotional side...a side which i dun show often and dun like to show...da person who noes wads my lil heart is yearning and going thry...wld be shamz...damn..of she is not dere...i dun think so i wld be like here blogging..probably wld be chatting wof god..haha..serious she saved me alot of times...and i realli dank god and angles for sending her to me..shemini u are da best...and not forgetting my cuzin sis...she is my mother...ahh....i used to be in a happy family and now its shattered into pieces...and well not many noe...my heart is weak..and my emotional break down can cayse my heart to faill.and i dun wan it to fail coz i have so many things i wanna achieve in life....2003 it was worse...2004..god plz save me...2005??? i am worried...plz....god hear me atleast once...and i noe dat no matter wad my durgai amman is dere for me..and as well as my cuzins and frenz...but sometimes its not easy to get over being hurt...da pain is worse....ahh....i love to make people smile..and i am happy dat i am da reason dat dey are smiling....but who is da reason behind my tears...who???...i noe dere are people who are leading a worse life den me...but...diff people life is diff...humans...hmm...dey complain alot abt others...dey talk abt others...but dey forgot to look at demselves 1st...dere are people who say i am useless...stoopid and stuff...well i am proving dat dey are wrong coz i am doing wel in ITE a place which i neva dream i wld go....dere are people who say i ain't good looking and stuff...but i tried my level best to change my style of dressing and stuff...but still i do get dat "durga why ur face like dis...ike dat...." wah...and if da person who is telling dis kinda comments is ur own mother...how wld u feel...how wld u feel when she compares u wif other kids...even compare wif my own frenz and cuzins...god..my mum is da reason for my low ic..LOL....wad i yearn for i din get it frm da person whom i wanted to get frm...instead i got it frm da people i din expect...and dey showered me wif so much love....which i can neva be leftout amd life without dem wld be miserable...and dey are shamz and my cuzin sis...love u guys to bits...yeah...life is like damn man for me...dun noe where are my answers....*walks away* if guys wanna noe who is shemini...here is her pic...take a look
dis is shemini...lolz...kiddin

what i am feeling...




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@Sunday, December 19, 2004

well i was practically very bored derefore as i was surfing i passed by this farnie quotes..and tot of sharing down here..hope u guys like it..well u can tag me which u like da most and also on any topic which u wan me to talk abt..so here it goes...

  1. Marrying a man is like buying something which you have been admiring for a long time in a shop window. You may love it when you get it home, but it doesn't always go with everything in the house.
  2. I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life.
  3. You have two choices in life. You can stay single and be miserable or get married and wish you were dead.
  4. A woman is incomplete until she is married. Then she is finished.
  5. To keep your marriage brimming, with love in the loving cup, wheneva u are wrong admit it wheneva u are right shut up.
  6. Women complain about premenstrual syndrome, but i think of it as the only time of the month that i can be myself.
  7. Women are never disarmed by compliments. Men always are. That is the difference between the sexes.
  8. Bachelors know more about women than married married Men, if they didn't they had be married too.
  9. A bachelor's life is a fine breakfast, a flat lunch and a miserable dinner.
  10. The poor wish to be rich, the rich wish to be happy, the single wish to be married and the married wish to be dead.
  11. The nice thing about egotists is that they don't talk about other people.
  12. People hate me because i am a multifaceted, talented, wealthy, internationally famous genius.
  13. Always go to other people's funerals, otherwise they won't come to yours.
  14. The basic rule of a human nature is that powerful people speak slowly and subservient people quickly, because if they don't speak fast nobody will listen to them.
  15. Were it offered to my choice, I should have no objection to a repetition of the same life from its beginning, only asking the advantages authors have in a second edition to correct some faults in the first.
  16. Never Underestimate the power of human stupidity.
Well hope you guys enjoy it....


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hmm@

Escape Theme Park

well on wed...wen to escape theme park wif geetha sis, madhz, darshan, haranesh, my sis and sathish..had fun man...lolz...realli enjoyed...all da rides i wen wif madhz...geetha sis and i took turns to look after da kids...my sis was basically scared to take da rides...hmm madhz and i forced her to take da viking ride...wahahahah..u shld have seen her face when it was a lil higher....she grabbed da pole...she was like gona cry biting her teeth...LOL...and da sound she gave i tot she got an Asthma attack...hmmm....after dat she din dare take any rides..dere was dis ride where madhz and i took...it will spin and tumble upside down...when da speed increases...u will feel as though u are being thrown frm dere...damn shiok...we were shouting and screaming god name all...LOL..den one point madhz was saying he can see heaven n hell juz beside to each other....and in da other game...it was where like a spin...where da whole thing well spin and da seats u are seatimg will spin even worse...damn farnie...madhz was saying enga atha mupayye...all...dun noe wad man...i realli laff my arse out...god...one of da ride is da wet and wild ride...where its like a small boat..i asked madhz to seat at da back and i sat in da front...haha..coz i noe he is da one who is gonna get wet da most..*grinz* dere was two slopes..one was da small one..when we went for dat..not dat scary..and madhz got WET...wahahaha...lucky he gave his hp to me..lolz..den da 2nd slope...damn steep...was realli a bit danger..coz dere is like no belt u gotta juz hold on to da railing...god...when its like so high and suddenly juz when down...madhz and i screamed...wahahaha...and dis time i got wet also but not as worse as madhz..den he and i wen for da all da rides again to get ourselves dry..haha...played some indoor games and won some dolls for haranesh and darshan...one of da doll geetha sis gave me...lolz..i like it too coz its a dolphin doll in pink and black...ahh...hmm...den got out...wen to Mac ate fries...den wen to a bus stop...asked one lady which side to take if we are going yishun and she replied opp side...den we were like okies...coz madhz said its da other side and we din believe...when we listen to da lady and took as opp side...damn its da wrong side..and we only realise it when we like gonna reach changi road...damn...her...grr..den we got down...and we were like 5 adults and two kids...most taxi wun allow...den we were like praying to get a cab coz it was 6+pm...den suddenly dis taxi driver stopped...we din stop him at all...den madhz wen to ask we are like 5 adults...and two kids..den he said no probz..ahh..so nice..i like his service...coz when we got in he tune to da tamil section..den he offered us sweet...ahh..damn frenly...and we reached home abt 7:15...wah...damn tired...dats all...now juz rotting at home...was suppose to blog abt it long time ago...but too lazy..since i am soooo free now..so tot of blogging...yeah...and i am seriously bored now...my dad is at home..and he is like watching tv..and i can't do much...juz now when to meet madhz and punetha sis...we were toking and stuff...it has been a long time eva since we three meet together...haiz..at last..man...dats all...shall blog abt some other nonsensical stuff in my next entry...




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smiles neva last foreva@Thursday, December 16, 2004

well yest when to sembawang beach wif geetha sis, Darshan, Haranesh, Madhz..oh ya he is back frm Malyasia and came along sathish also another younger cuzin bro of mine well i think he is 16 or 17..but he is taller den madhz..arhh....we sat near da beach and ate for while..played wif haranesh n darshan...den geetha sis, Haranesh Darshan and myself we wen to da playground...and played wif the swing...wah nice..den while geetha sis was playing wif haranesh and darshan at the field madhz and i took all our things and sat on da field...ahh...windy man..shiok...played song competition and tok some stories...damn farnie...geetha sis brough a small radio..only can play cassette coz its walkman and radio together..hmm...when i played da only one cassette..wahahaha...AMMAN song...LOL...den madhz was disturbing some indian aunties who wore jasmine flower and came to beach...he and his song man...malligai pon mannan mayangum....wahahaha....ahh..missed his nonsense for 1 week man...yeah after da beach thingy..we left ard 4 den wen toNorthpoint Timezone...damn fun...i am a craze for arcade man..lol...den played so many games...den we wen mac and ate fries...u shld have seen da way haranesh ate fries...chooo cute....ahh...den left wen to geetha sis hse...tok...plan some outings...den left as it was like getting late...hmm..got back home...had to like beg my mum for money to buy food and at last she gave..but now today her son said he is hungry she immediately gave money man..and she keep on fighting wif me where is da balance money of yest..come on la..bought 3 packet food...how much u expect..sighs...my mom..hmm...does she really noe wads da meaning of mother...i seriously dun noe...now today we gonna go Theme park...hope it will be fun man..


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@Wednesday, December 15, 2004

I Hate my Life wif my Parents..God Plz Take Me wif u

well...met shamz in da afternoon...wen to her school to get a entry card..i hate da service..and da phone was ringing and ringing..no one paid attention to it..grr..we were waiting for someone called george..and i expected a chinese fella to come..to my suprise..he was like a mix indian..hmm...i name him george of the jungle. dun ask me why..juz name him like dat..den ahh...wen Dania..met PUNETHA sis..god..i mish her so much..juz love her..okies..u might think dat i may sound like a les..well i am not bothered..was talking to her and she was like practising threading on my hand..and dis shemini was helping her..i can only scream..hehe..den when to get some food wif her...den she went back to work..and we wen to eat in sakunthala's...ahh..nice food..yummy...okies...after dat when to VG bridal and shamz did her threading dere..after dat..dat was my 1st time in life dat i walked into so many jewellery shop..GOD...coz shamz wanted to get a bracelet...hmm...den after much walking..at last..she bought one...and i liked it alot...i told her i dun wan also..but in da end i din buy *winkz* after dat wen to get shamz punjabi suits for alterations and stuff....ahh...den wen to get a orange punjabi suit..den wen back to Dania to show punetha sis...and got an miss call frm my mum..ahh..call her back..actually my sis called me..den only gotta noe dat my dad is like waiting for me at home angrily...damn i badly wanted to go back wif punetha sis...arghh...den shamz, her mum n myself..we took a cab..ahh..was very scared n tense...damn...den dey drop me at my hse...and when back home..den i got back..my dad was in da room..den while i was changing he asked for me...so i immediately came outta da room...and u must have seen dat look in his eyes....god i tot he is gonna wack me man..lucky he din or else...dats it...dere wld be a gulf war man in my hse...he was like shouting n shouting...god...juz save me frm dis people..all becoz of my blardy mother she complained to my dad abt me dun noe wad all man...damn she juz dun noe da meaning of mother...damn her...i juz hate her to da max...oh ya shamz mum pinched me...and got blood and scar..argghh...well it was painful and it will be even worse if i let water touch it man...i have always wanted not get my hands or arms scarred..damn la..well though it was not done intentionally..hmm...lol..hmm...seems like i dun seem to be having a good time at all man...argghhh...my FINANCIAL STATUS IS VERY BAD....i need a job..which i can rotate wif my school schedule also...oh god...plz help me...well...dats all wad i did and wad happen today...lets talk abt da vasantha oli

VASANTHA OLI SHOW...

hmm...okies...well the show was nice actually was very nice.. da songs and da dances...well first met shamz and letch..den met meera n suba..oh ya my sis was wif me too...den we wen to da entrance dey asked for tickets i ws like wad da hell u din announce dere is tickets man...damn...it seems to be last minute thingy..damn cheaters...ahh..juz wen like so called back way..my dad a while..but i think he wen near da stage thingy...ahh...we were like standing amidst the orrukaranz...damn noisy especially dis two blardy blood suckin leech fellas...da way dey screamed...god...i juz stared at him...and dey assume demselves dat i was staring coz one guy is dark..and dey were practically comparing deir complexion...wahahaha...but dey lose to shamz..wahahha...okies relax shamz i can see da smoke coming outta ur nostrils..LOL...hmm..den was keep on staring..and dere was dis uncle who asked us whether are we singaporeans...and yesh he is one oso..maybe he got dat question frm his mind after looking at shamz..tot maybe she is frm ethopia..lolz...den he was telling us to go infront or else we wun be able to watch da show peacefully...and dere were dis two indian nationality fellas oso...but dey seem be to be like supporting us and staring at those two idiots..wahahha...we cldn't stand it..so we left dat place and walked in da mud...and went near to dis place where da screen was clearer..though we were standing for long..at last got seats...ahhh...den watched da show..and din realise da time was 11..den suba told its times up...den we got up and lucky its da last song..and called my dad...suprising he wen back home..and was angry why am i not back home..oh my god..i am so gonna run away man...ahh...suba n meera walked back home..shamz, my sis n i wen to 7-11 to get mineral water to wash shamz legs coz it was damn muddy...den we took cab...shamz..drop us home..den she wen back...home..ahh....SRILEKHA Parthasarathy Rocks....TIPPU rocks too...nice voice...god...even manmadha rasa Malathi has kewl voice..and not fogetting shamz bf Manicka Vinayagam..LOL...he even danced a lil choo cute..and shamz dis is for u vendam shemini intha kathal romba tholai shemini..durga sonna antha vaku palikum kelu shemini...heehehe...aightz..dats all for now...basically my life sucks...and if u see me smile its becoz of punetha sis and shamini....romba dankz..


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Bored@Monday, December 13, 2004

erm..well am practically bored..and it seems like everyone finds me behaving in a weird way..dun noe why..and i am least bothered..lolz.. okies..yest while surfing da net i found dis two poems..damn nice..so if u guys like it..juz dedicate it to ur beloved ones..as i am still single and loving it i am dedicating it to all my frenz and cuzins...so here it is..

Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can arrive just like the springtime
And melt away like morning frost

You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share

Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up to easily
It will tear your love apart

Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might

Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive

Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare

okies..da next poem is..

I Wait

I wait for you,
anxious to see your face.

I stand and watch,
looking for the first sign of your arrival.

I finally see you,
I take a second look to make sure you're really there.

My pulse races and I crack a smile,
this is what I've been waiting for.

You begin to approach,
you say, "Sorry, I'm late."

I say, "No problem."
But I think to myself, 'I'd have waited forever.'

Hope u guys like it..aightz AdiYoZ


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Life...sometimes even ur own treats u like strangers@Sunday, December 12, 2004

well...am bored..right now only jag is entertaining me wif his quest..lolz..i feel neglected and kinda bullied by all at home..even my mum is like now keep on picking a fight wif no reasons...and my sis...wah..i guess need to learn frm her wad is respect...guess i lost my respect..my dad..hmm..he juz go work in da morning..and at night will be back and keeps on shouting and nagging neva do dis wrk and dat...grr..as though i am a full time maid..come on..i am also a human..dun i have feelings..haiz....and oh ya my bro..he even forgot dat i was da one who gave him my phone and now when i am in da need of phone he is not giving..damn..and now punetha sis have a new job and its 12 hr shift..arghh i mish her alot...only those who are close to me will noe how much i miss her...sighz..rite now..most of da time at home..no money..nothing to do..watch vcds...do hsewrk..damn dats wad i do everyday.. i juz dun noe why..i feel so INCOMPLETE..and i seriously hate dis feeling...lolz..maybe i am juz going craze...or maybe i am not..i dun noe..oh ya..shamz meenz prem all gave jag a suprise b'dae party...and i din even noe dat i was playing a part in da gift...and when jag asked me..gosh..do u noe how i felt...arghh...its ok..juz dun noe wad to do...sometimes dis boredom can kill me..at least most of my frenz have something to do..and me...i dun noe wad to do...sometimes your own treats u like a stranger and sometimes strangers treat u like deir own...a dialogue frm K3G...ahh juz find it so true in my case...well may god bless me wif more happiness...




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hmm@Friday, December 10, 2004

ahh..got up did some hsewrks...watching tv...den my bro wanted me to give his samsung hp for servicing...and da nearest is causewat point..den called shamz but she had diff plans..den she send me msg dat she still got time to meet...ahh..okies...1st wen to geetha sis hse..played wif da kids..den ate...den wen back home got ready..wen woodlands..met up shamz..wen samsung service centre...dey cldn't repair da phone coz need to pay cash..oh my..i rather buy a new hp..den...juz wen to eat..ahh...LJS..after a long time..den saw chris da dj..well at my cuzin bro b'dae he was damn cute...but since he din see me he lost his looks...LOL...shamz..dun be jealous..wahaha..den was talking abt our life n stuff...den walked ard....waiting for shamz mum..den juz walked n walked...ahh...den wen to Mac to eat da ice cream..well at da moment shamz n i broke pathetically...lolz..sighs...god plz let me strike some money....hmm..yeah...den met shamz mum...wahahahaha..she put on some weight...guess we both have been doing some weight exchanging prog..well she said dat i lost alot of weight...ahh...in one way its good...yeah..den juz wen back home...she wen out...
something is seriously wif my parents...well my mum keep on complaining to my dad dat i have not been home at all...keep on going out..den he was like questioning me as though i am a criminal...arghhhh.....den juz din wanna argue..wad do u expect when i dun have much money...no vcds...nothing to do online..no job...damn..wun i be bored...da only thing i did i wen to my cuzins hse to play wif my nephews...and which is like a big crime i committed...dats how dey sounded...1st of all...sooner or later i am sooo..gonna do something to my mum...juz wait n c..

hmm..well is being single da best or being attached da best...

I think both is also good...but it depends on da age...i always tot single life is da best but when i fell in love..my 1st love...ahh i forgot da whole world man...i was in my own world..was damn nice..but when it came to da breaking...ahh..my world was shattered...after dat...tried to maintain a distance wif guys...but den...things seems to change wheneva i make a plan...though i have been hurt by love..my heart still desires for da right one to come..n he will come...juz maybe god wans me to come up in life...den he wld send my companion to me..i hope so...when u are single..u wld always yearn why aren't i att...or why dun i have someone who loves me...and when u are att...u wld always end up getting hurt..cry..hearts being shattered n wld always think dat u have got da wrong person...well..when u are doing something neva eva regret it...and when u regret whats da point are doing it....hmm...its juz a saying of mine..


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Its Holiday time man...enjoy..@Thursday, December 09, 2004

durgz dances *thana thananane thanane* well...hello pplz..yest had damn fn..met up wif some of my frenz after a long time..1st met shamz..den...met meenz n saras..after dat came suha..den we took a bus ride to ECP dere we met sydha..oh my...we had fun...1st we were searching for a shelter..den we sat...ate some chips...had some talk..wah...expect da unexpected man..."i tot single life was fun..but den realise being in a relationship is more fun" wahahha...dis was said by a fren of mine...LOL...well if u meet da right one den it is fun..den..after da talk..we tot of going for a swim..actually din had da mood...but after looking at da sea..ahh...juz wanna enjoy myself...meenz n shamz din brin xtra clothes..n saras din wanna swim...so suha sydha n me..we got in...den we decided to push meenz in da water..oh my dat was helluva fun..den keep pn pushing sydha n meenz...din bully suha..lolz...den shamz was so dry..i din like it *grinz* so i decided to push her..ahh...juz nice din get her hair wet..den played in da water a while...after dat decided to cycle..well suha n shamz dun noe how to cycle...derefore saras n sydha took da single cycle n meenz n i took da doubles...meenz partner wif shamz...n me wif suha...well had fun...den change partner...i took shamz n meenz took suha..wahaha...den wen to komalas...ate dere...after dat continue to cycle...n shamz was screaming her lungs out man...lolz...coz da way i cycle....wahahahhaha...shamz u are so gonna be my partner next time...hehehe...one point of time...i had to go up da slope...wah....damn diff man...i had a load at da back....LOL...kiddin..but we succeeded...hehehehe....den wen we wen down da slope..she was screaming as though dun wad oso...lolz...den wen to return da bikes...dne change...saras..meenz suha n sydha took cab..shamz n me..took bus...toked abt love n stuff...hmm..love can do wonders man...wahahha...den got back home..ahh...dats all for da day...

Today...oh my had fun wif my lil nephews...actually was watching some vcds at home as i was bored..den geetha sis called n asked wanna go out den i said ok...so my sis n i got ready...met geetha sis, her husband, my lil sweethearts Darshan n Haranesh...ahh..took a cab..wen to Jurong Point...dats where i got my hand injured..wen we took da cab...i was da last to get in..so when i closed da door..my hand was actually out of da door n i slammed da door *Ouch* my palm...god....i scream n y eyes had tears..i was controlling..it tyrn blue black..my veins nerves..bone...wah...damn...all were pain...i was like keep on calling all da god name..suddenly da mark wen but its a lil swollen..n a lil pain..damn..juz wen on wif da journey...wen JP..den did some shopping..dere was a children show..cartoon characters were dere...ahh saw batman, wonder woman, superman, ultraman, n etc..was fun..LOL....den took a cab back to ave 5 yishun to repair my phone..da lady said will take atleast 30 mins..so decided to g Northpoint....ate fries at Mac...den wen to Chip Lee as geetha sis wanted to give her mum's chain for some repair..hmm..den wen back to ave 5...took my phone...den took a cab..n wen to geetha sis hse...later headed back to my hse....to my suprise my dad was back home..he din seem to happy guess my mum complain...wah...she is being damn childish nowadays...den juz kept quiet..took my shower wen to pray..ate..den juz watch tv..ahh..now online...nowadays seem to be so boring...punetha sis is working 12 hr shift n i miss her..din tok, see her, disturb her..ahh...god...hmm...hey why not all tok abt single n being in a relationship...which one do u think its da best n why...?


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Had a great day...n i am juz "sooo...enjoying my BoredNess"@Tuesday, December 07, 2004

well...here i am blogging coz i am sooo...Enjoying My Boredness..n ya i had a nice day also..lolz..as i was damn tired after da prayers yest...oh..da prayers wen well..as i was saying..i slept yest ard 12+..i think so...den today i got up at 7am..but was damn tired..so went back to sleep..n woke up at 9am...my dad wanted to watch After The Sunset..so all got up..we to Northpoint...da time was ard 11+..ate..den wen to GV..but den..we wen dere at 11:35..but damn da movie starts at 11:20..arggh...nvm..we walked ard..oh ya both my parents strike 4D..lolz..i took for dem..hehe..actually i scribbled for dem..my cuzin bro took..well...derefore collected da cash..den gave my dad..my dad strike consalation..my mum i dun noe la...den my we wen inside da Chip Lee..coz dey wanted to get for my sis earring..ahh...den was juz looking ard..den saw dis ring..slim n sexy n nice...its something like wad shamz got..i like it so much ...den my parents bought for me..hippie...oh ya my dad gave me 10bucks..wah..for now..its a big amt to me..lolz...den walked ard..took a cab home..den my parents n sis when to coffeeshop to eat..i wen back home..do some hseworks..den met punetha sis...she got ready and we took da bus..den met sub n meera in da bus...meera was going for a doc appt..suba was accompanying her...punetha sis wanted to do threading so i followed her...wah..had fun in da train..damn was so farnie..one point..meera was telling how her mouth was when she brushed her teeth..lolz...coz..she was sleeping..half awake...her mum asked her to clean something wif da dettol..she said ya ya..den she wen to brush her teeth..da listerine bottle..n dettol..bottle..were beside each other..instead of da listerine..wahaha..she guggled her mouth wif dettol...ROFL...wahahahhaa.....we all juz burst out in train men...she said her mouth was burning a lil...lolz...den we were juz toking n toking..punetha sis n i got down at somerset..n dey both at bugis..wen to the beauty salon..was looking at some punjabi suit..planning to get one...ya..after da threading..wen to get some things..den met up wif meera n suba again at somerset...meera had to back to work..so she dropped at Marsiling...subz..punetha sis n i got down at yishun...punetha sis was looking for some polo tops..ahh..she bought two frm baleno...i like one of da top..very nice..so sexy..especially when she wore it..*winkz*..yeah...den we board da bus...subz got down..den wen back to punetha sis hse...played wif da kids...put back da files in da prayer room...den talk for a while..den wen back home..ahh..did some hseworks..took a shower...prayed..came online..boring..den wen to watch tv...now back...wah..am juz tired n bored...god..waiting for shamz to come online...lolz...oh ya..nowadays my sis is getting into my nerves...sooner or later i an gonna give a TIGHT SLAP...grr....she is pissing me off wif her damn ATTITUDE..yeah dats abt it....AdiyoZ


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my story characters...@Saturday, December 04, 2004

well..people.. i am gonna intro my story characters..so take a look at dem..hmm...my main characters are Hrithikesh n Akshana...do u noe how dey look..damn good looking n hot n deir character is cho sweet...ahh..

dis is Hrithikesh..isn't he hot n funky

she is da princess Akshana

da most humble guy..Arjunash

ahh...such a sweetheart of nash, she is Ashnita

dis is Dineshvan a serious yet lovable guy

she is Talshini..a playful n sensitive gal...everyones sweetheart..

he is such a lil rascal but he gets save always coz he is damn helpful n he is Brendon Kumar

she is arrogant..she talks without thinking..but her heart is like a child..only da person who loves her noes..she is Pramisha

well...hope u like all my characters in my story..dis is not a true story..itz written with pure imagination n fun..



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i dun understand why am i so bz *winkz*@

Oh my..it has been a long time eva since i update..da reason..i was bz wif exams..studying..can u imagine dat i studied..well da truth is i Realli studied...i myself cldn't believe..hmm..oh ya...was bz wif bajans..and so many things..juz dat i can't remember..now i am totally broke n badly need a job..gosh..i realli hate it when i am broke..hmm..tell me who loves it..meenz is back frm her alien island of books..lolz...met shamz n meenz on 1st Dec..actually plan to go orchard..n we were suppose to meet jag..but den it seems dat jag isn't coming..haha..maybe he feels too shy as three gals n one guy..hopeless...anyway..da plans changed as my dad wanted to meet up for dinner..derefore after deciding shamz n i wen to bishan..we were waiting for meenz to come..after a while she came..wah..meenz put on weight...especially her butt...wahahaha...oops...*sorry meenz i told it off* LOL..we were suppose to eat at LJS..too bad..it was crowded..grr...den we wen to KFC..ahh..we tok n tok n tok..meenz told something which was damn farnie n at dat point of time i was drinking..i got choke..and damn..shamz was like laffing her arse out..lolz..well long time eva since we three go out n make a mess...after eating we decided to walk ard..ahh..saw so many tops..n shoes..damn nice..n oh ya saw dis bag n dey had it in 4 colours..orange grey pink n yellow...since i am like crazy for orange for da now season..i said i will take da orange n meenz said she wants da pink..left was yellow n grey..grey was not so nice..so meenz n i tease shamz dat hers is yellow...n we have a deal..i told dat shamz no matter wad she wun carry da yellow bag..but den shamz said dat she wld carry if i buy for her..n deal is a deal..well gal..i am soooo gonna get for u da yellow bag...if dere is a budget probz..ahh..dun worry..meenz n i will pay 50-50..lolz..i dun think so da bag cost dat much..be prepared to carry da bag sweetheart..lolz...i heard dat prem is looking for bride...dei prem..u better not betray me..or else...dats it..lolz..ahh..i have chose some characters for my story..n dey look hot..seriously..gonna publish it soon..juz watch out..exams are over..rite now juz waiting for da results...hope n pray dat i did well...plz god dun make me do badly..coz i have already regretted alot for not studying propz..now when i am doing well i wanna continue..i wanna show my parents dat i also can make it one day in life..though rite now my parents aren't realli interested in me...dey now care more abt deir son n da lil rascal in my family..rite now da supporters..my frenz..my cuzins..n my two lil doggies...April n Bobby...nowadays..April is getting Cuter..i juz love her man..wahaha..when she came home 1st i din realli like her..she was a No 1 Bitch in my life..ahh..now she is my fav..also not forgetting my obedient lil one..Bobby...he is such a sweetie..ahh..guess dey much better off den some humans man..well..oh ya da bajan we did at da Balasubramaniam temple was grt...reali enjoyed..yeah..now in my free time i am juz doing hseworks..watching vcd..ahh...da movie Dhoom n Hum Tum Rocks...oh ya 7G colony is simply superb..an interesting true story...hmm...M Kumaran..wahh damn nice...well rite now..juz waiting to watch Giri n Main Hoon Nah..i think dats da spelling...hmm..juz need cash to save up some n spend some...Next Tues gonna meet up wif my sec sch babes..ahh..after such a long time man..woo..well..dats all for now..


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