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Todays Happening...@Thursday, May 26, 2005

A Taxi Driver Turn out To be My Angel

The moment I remove my blankets and look at my watch and it was 7:50am…my 1st reaction was like OH MY GOD….damn man..and I looked at my clock again for a check and yesh it was 7:50am I must be like ready to leave my hse any moment at dis time normally..gosh I was SUPER Late…and da best part it was Raining… argghhhh…Durga D/O Vairavan Thevar is late for exam for the 1st time..yesh…so I took my bath Super fast and left my hse immediately and when while waiting den I realise dat I forgot my pencil case…but den if I gonna go back home it will be late..already I am super late…den I was waiting for a cab for soo long damn….den I got a cab after much running here and dere…

The cab came…and da taxi driver put a board saying Hougang but I still stopped him and I told him “Uncle I am late for my exams and I must be there by 8:30 at Bishan” den he was like “hop in gal” den he said “I can bring u dere on time but I can’t give my full promise coz of da traffics”…I juz gave him a panick smile…den he drove super fast…he was pissed coz of da traffics and some cars…ahhh…he asked me wad exam am I gonna do..den I said “Cutomer Contact Service” den he even tot me abt da topic…hahaha…damn sweet..den I was like da time was 8:26am and I was still in his cab…ahhh…den he said “dun worry gal, I am very sure dere will be other students who will be late and da teacher will extend da time of starting of da paper jus for u and all da effort u put for ur studies wun go to a waste” den I smiled at him..den he came near bishan and it was 8:30am and my heartbeat was super fast..

I had exact 10 bucks and some coins and da taxi fare came up to $11.30 and den while driving near to my skool he asked me “gal do have enuff cash” den I said ya uncle.. “he replied “nvm gal u juz give me 10bucks and I will give u 2 bucks coz I am gonna charge u only 8bucks” den I said no uncle I will pay u da amt” den he said “nvm gal I give discounts to good students..once I stop da u are gonna run for ur life” den I smiled at him..and said dank u soo much..i reached skool 8:32am..i payed him and ran…den I saw other classmates also who were late..den I was like “hey dats wad da taxi driver said..” den we all climbed da stairs super fast and reached da class…and lucky da teacher incharge was my OFP / one of my subject teacher..ahh..she asked us to come in and seat…den I sat down and asked my partner whether she can lend me a pen and liquid paper…ahhh…she lend me her pen and liquid paper as she has another liquid paper…oh my…I seriously wld like to thank da Taxi Uncle…dank u soo much..u were like a God Sent Angel to Me for my rescue…dank u soo much and so sorry dat I din notice ur taxi number..

Yeah after exam..juz wen to Mac and sat down dere wif my cute gang…lolz…den went back home…to my surprise my bro was home..and da 1st thing came to my mind dat “I must leave da hse asap..” hahhaa…yeah..den juz changed…sat down watch tv..and yeah a while later my mum asked whether I can follow her somewhere…den was like No Problem I am free…den she laff…den we got ready…helped her to buy 4D…grr..i hate da queue…den we took cab and she wanted to da Buddha temple at Race Course road..den I was like wah..so far…den we wen dere…prayed..hmm..so quiet and peaceful man da temple…and den we left da place and wen to Causeway Point…my mum bought for my dad a shirt and yeah den walked ard for a while den wen to Swensons…wah…den my mum wanted fries and Banana Split for herself and Cappuccino..and I ordered Black Pepper Seafood Pasta….and Coit Tower ice cream..yummy…damn full…den juz walked ard and left causeway point..back home..ahh…was watching my Fav Movie Padikathavan in Sun Tv…I love da songs man…and den yeah juz bumming ard..

Nowadays I feel as though she and I have less things to communicate abt….i dun noe why..maybe we are juz out of topic..or…I juz dun noe da reason..hmm..she seems busy and neither do I wanna disturb her…sometimes when I am all alone and dere is no one for me to talk to..i wld be so eager to talk to her…but to my disappoint..she will be busy..i can’t blame her coz of circumstances…maybe I juz called at da wrong time…lolz…yeah baby…I miss those times we really talk like nobody’s business…but whateva it is..dank u soo much coz u were da one who ask me abt my revision, exams, and how did I do da paper…hmm…dankz..

Yeah today I juz wrote abt my day happenings..will be back wif more interesting topics…till den signing of Societyz Loneranger..AdiyoZ




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Wad a Topic man..@Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Marriage Controversy

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*will she say i do*

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*will da smiles last long*

Hmm…Societyz Loneranger is back for some action…well..today shall talk abt marriage..let me see..wad do I abt marriage..to me..marriage is a life long journey which a man and women take together till dey grow old..before u even think of getting married to da paricular person..think carefully..coz some decisions are not always right..There are people who are love marriage and some arrange marriage, some due to circumstances, and some I really wonder why dey got married..its not necessary dat juz becoz a gal and guy like each other it shld and wld end up in marriage..sometimes its juz different..its totally a different world from those courting days, those days you went dating and stuff…but marriage..u gotta look at the person’s face everyday, have conversation, be happy, live wif dem, sleep wif dem..my my…soo many things..

Not all weddings which took place is 100% perfect…but u gotta see da imperfections perfectly…but not many does dat…okies..let me tell this..recently I heard from my fren dat dis gal is divorcing her husband..due to…??? Becoz dey have been married and dey dun have kids…and da husband is blaming her fully..yesh she went for so many check up..but den later she realise after dis check up dat her womb is upside down..so dats da reason why she can’t get pregz…and now da couple is divorcing..let me ask this question is Marriage all about spending the whole life wif that special someone or abt getting a heir for dem…do u ppl think women are baby machine or something…let me tell women sacrifices da world for da man whom she loves..but man..sacrifices everything for da world even da women whom he loves…well I am not trying to point fingers at all men…so dun get tense…

I mean its like u got married to dat special gal coz u love her soo much and more den anything else..and not becoz she can give birth to your kid…what if u realise dat she can’t give birth even before she gets married to you…does it mean u guys will leave that gal…oh my….u noe a women dun even mind giving her life to the child she gives birth coz she noes dat her husband loves da kid soo much dat she dun mind sacrificing her life…hmm…I dun noe wad are people up to nowadays…and I seriously think dat a man who loves his wife more even knowing she can’t give him a heir is da best man..and I am very sure he wld love his wife like his own child…its more painful to a women knowing she can’t give birth compared to a man who will be upset dat he can’t have a heir for himself…

She will always cry in her sleep dat she is not able to become a mother, she can’t breastfeed, she can’t feel a lil fingers of her junior..she can’t feel da kicks..do u noe how much pain and hurt and emotionally down she will be going through..NO!!! not many care abt it..well even if da husbands keep quiet abt da matter..oh my dats when da In-Laws entry is….dey will put da whole lot blame on da daughter-in-law saying she can’t give birth..blah and blah..hmm..come on people try to put urself in da women shoes who are going through this kinda mess in deir life…I wld wan a husband who loves me..and not becoz I can give him a child…do u think dat da women dun wan a child for herself..of coz she loves to have a own kid, a happy family and stuff…but she neva shows neither tells what she is exactly feeling..

In da other end..da are people who give birth for da fun of it…I seriously dun understand why…dey give birth juz becoz dey dun wanna abort but later dey dump da poor lil infant at da void deck, dustbin chute, stair case..do u noe how much da child will cry when u leave him or her juz like dat…worse off is throwing da child from a high storey tied in a plastic bag…dats da most INHUMAN thing to do..Oh my God… dere are also people who give birth before marriage but still look after deir child but da father of the child and deir husband is two diff people…why…what if da child grows up and ask who is my father…wad is ur answer gonna be…do u noe wad are da worse things…

ª Giving birth to a child and not letting a child acknowledge u as their mother

ª Giving birth to a child and juz abandoning dem like nobody’s business

ª Giving birth and throwing dem from a high storey

ª Aborting a child knowing u are pregnant *it’s a sin to kill another life and nobody has a right to do it.

ª Leaving ur wife juz becoz she can’t give birth or get pregnant

ª Blaming ur wife fully knowing very well u also have a part in it

ª Blaming ur husband juz becoz its his fault dat he can’t father a child

Ahhh….i juz dun understand da nature of humans…my goodness gracious…but it does not mean dat dere are no good people at all…dere are still some angels ard…dats why da world is still going on…I seriously think dat everyone shld marry becoz dey love deir other half more den demselves, compromise wif dem, be loyal to dem, and learn to really give in a lil even sometimes its not ur fault…well dis goes not only to guys but also gals…

For love marriage..it does not mean dat after marriage ur love shld fade off…and see ur wife as juz a wife…but u gotta look at her like she was ur gf, fren and wife…and dis is also for women…dun look at u husband becoz he married u…learn to continue da courting and dating days…Marriage life wld be more lovelier…

For arrange marriage…it does not mean dat u got married to someone whom u dun even noe much dat u gotta be quiet and stuff…learn to appreciate dem and begin a new love story after marriage…things will be totally diff…and u will realise dat u have fallen in love after u got married…

Marriage is not a pastime hobby..but it’s a lifetime achievement..something which shld only happen once in ur life…signing of Societyz Loneranger AdioyZ…




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I love my way of blogging!!!@Saturday, May 21, 2005

Gays, Lesbians & Butches

Hi..Hi..hi..

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its a pictures of two gals kissing..

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a pic of two guys living in deir own world filled wif passion.

Societyz Loneranger is back for some actionz..hmm..lets talk abt Gays, Lesbians and butches ppl..let me tell they are also human being..so its like no point looking at dem in da street and giving dem a weird look..Lets talk Gays…well to all the Gays out dere, Hi hi hi..aightz..lets see…I have seen a lot of gays in Singapore…some really look cute though haha..well if only dey were guys..oh my…damn hot and sexay..hahahaha…yeapz seriously and I am not faking..its ok coz its like u choose to be like dat..but the great one above us..created us each and every individual to be different..yeapz..and now Guys and Guys holding hands in street…well after interviewing some of the people whom I know..well..they have said dat dey feel uncomfortable looking at guys and guys holding hands…hmm..ok..its quite normal to feel that way also…coz we were like not brought up nor experience it…but we neva even tot once when we look and comment abt dem…da hurt, pain and feelings dey go through..hmm..its not a easy..u must really have da courage and strength to face all this..aightz..

Lesbians and butches..okies..dis is not something new to me…not becoz I am one but I was from a skool wif dat kinda environment..hmm…actually when I 1st time met wif dat kinda experience I was pretty shocked..hahaha..well 1st of all to all lesbians and butches Hi hi hi..ahh..you see its nothing wrong actually to have feelings for another gal when u are a gal urself..yesh..those who are going through dat pace its becoz..they are lonely, leftout, no guys look at them, and dey feel its juz their world, and dey have all the rights to have feelings..well u see can’t force someone not to like dem…coz some gals..juz have da character, looks and attitude for any one to fall for dem..u know to be frank..when I was in sec skool I seriously had so many love letters…hahaha..well it was fun to be reading and replying to them..but dey din do any harm so why must we hurt dem wif our word and looks..yeapz.once upon a time gal and gal holding hands…and being too close in public was weird but now…its more like a normal thingy..coz as I said dey are also normal human being..some of dem its not becoz dey wanna be like dat but deir hormone changes are like dat..its body system people..we can’t do much abt it..yeah..

Well here its abt a movie review..have a look..

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Dats da movie poster and da title is "The Incredibly True Adventure of Two Girls in Love"

SYNOPSIS
One of the best lesbian movies made yet is finally on DVD! It's just as the title calls it...

REVIEW

This thoroughly enjoyable lesbian first love story is a startling film debut by independent filmmaker Maggenti. Randy (Laurel Holloman) is a white high school tomboy living with her lesbian aunt. Evie (Nicole Parker) is a beautiful and pampered black deb from the right side of the tracks. They meet and love blossoms despite their differences. But trouble brews for the two as both of their families undertake to break the lovers apart.

A long-awaited "wholesome lesbian comedy and romance" which ignores queer politics and prejudice and concentrates on the two young women's intense attraction for each other. Not as big city grunge as Go Fish nor as jaded as Bar Girls, Two Girls is a terrifically sweet low-budget romantic comedy that could be described as a "queer John Hughes comedy" -- when he was in his prime, of course.

If i get the chance or da dvd i wld wanna watch it..*winkz*

We are created da way god want us to be…so its like no point looking and staring at people who are not as normal as u are..u people might be wondering why did I come wif dis topic..well I speak for all..yeapz..dey are juz asking you people to give dem a chance to live as normal people in dis world..so why not juz give dem dat..hmm..well to all people out dere…look…if I have said anything wrong through dis entry my sincere apologies…yeapz..okies…I am done here…so will be back wif a diff topicz..u can even suggest wad u wan me to blog abt also..it will be my pleasure…aightz…signing of Societyz Loneranger…*walks away* AdiyoZ!!!





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What on the Earth is Happening!!!@Friday, May 20, 2005

Earthz Happenings

Love, Break up, Marriage, Divorce..

Do you know why the word “Love” is juz one word but wif four letters, well it means two bodies and one soul, and do you know why the word “Break Up” is in two words..well it means da seperation..broken up in two words..haiz..well if u are wondering where on the earth did I get that info..and let me reveal..its my own words and research…lolz..i noe some might find it lame..but do u think I care..

Why do u people love in da 1st place when u wanna breakup..and da best part do you know the word falling in love.. “falling is already a negative word..den why do people fall in love man... ahh..i noe u all might be wondering why da hell am I blogging abt dis..but..juz read..all dis are my feeling which I have bottled up for long..as u all know and don’t know I am single...hmm..okies I am not making an advertisement… by da way sometimes I juz feeling like falling for da person but den my mum and myself had a conversation..and dis is how it went..

Myself: ma I have a strong feeling dat I will fall for him

Mama: no durga..its nit time for relationship for u..

Myself: but why?

Mama: well by ur astrology thingy..u and love is too far and u wun have a relationship for now..and falling in love is not in ur destination..

Myself: ma..did u juz came down from India or wad..? grrr…

Mama: well juz listen and juz dun fall in love or get urself tangled in relationship all

Myself: *mumbling* well I juz dun noe la..wads happening..i think u quit ur job as mum and have turned to be a saint or a nun or dun noe wad..grr..

Mama: ya..ya..u wun noe..

Myself: anyway if all astrology is working den why do people get divorce still..ahh..*walks away*

Mama: *looks wif shock*

Well..look people I do believe in astrology too I din deny da fact..but sometimes its really too much…arghhh…u noe da feeling being single..ahh..yeah people might say I am single and loving it..like as though Mac Advertisement..haha..but da real feeling is..i dun noe how true it is but some who are single..feel irritated, angry, jealous and etc and etc..yeah sometimes its wrong to feel dis way but den looking at da other side its fair to have dis kinda feeling…yeah..hmm..i juz think dat I wanna stay single till my dad start to look for prospective groom for me…wahahhaa..typical gal..ahh..we shall juz wait and see wads happening…sorry guys I am able to date but not to be in relationship…wahahahhaa…*winkz* hmm by da way juz wanna ask…why do people get married when dey wanna divorce man..why is dat when dey are courting things are different and when dey got married oh my..and especially after a few mths or a year or juz after one kid…everything and everyone changes…ahh…I seriously dun understand human nature..dey speak one and action is one…human..maybe dey are juz like dat…look I am not here to condemn anyone..juz speaking wad I feel and if u think I am being lame..by all means u can visit other blog..yeapz..wad can I say..

My lips neva utter wad I feel in my heart..my eyes neva reveal da pain and agony I am in…my fingers neva type exactly wad I wanna say…ahh..i juz can’t keep on bottling everything up coz da more I did da more pain I have in my chest…my loneliness, depression an everything has been bottled up..do u think its safe to do that..i juz can’t talk it out..coz no one juz understand..nowadays da level of my patience has increased..seriously..only those who are close wld noe wad am I saying..ahh..

Hmm..i juz dun noe wads exactly da feeling I am going through. Do you think I need to see a psychiatrist…I need someone who can juz tell da mess I am going through.. sometimes I know dat I have some expectations which is over da board…but I am also a human..ahh…Falling In Love is already a difficult thingy but Making Yourself Fall Out Of The Love…Oh my..its not easy..haha..but I guess it is usual routine for me.. I think I juz need to keep myself occupied…Maybe I will ask my mum if she has da cash I wld fly from here to somewhere…I rather juz travel ard..When everyone needed someone I was dere..but when I need juz one…everyone is found to be nowhere…muahahahhahaha…when I juz need to talk..ahh…dats when coincidentally so many incoming calls, sms, interrupters, disturbance…ahh..den I will be like..ahh..juz forget it…my my….God I neva ask much but u din wanna see da lil I ask for…wad am I to u…a child wif sin..hmm..i guess dats wad I am..a devil in disguise..a sadist..haha..

I feel like screaming at da top of my voice..banging myself onto something…punching the wall…arghh…but I have exams…and I seriously need to do well coz I badly wanna do my Higher Nitec in Business Admin..and now it all depends on my results..gosh…I noe among u people put dere…some might think I am juz mumbling and grumbling ..but only I noe dat each word I wrote has a life for it…and has a meaning…I noe very well dat problem is something which everyone has and goes through..but come on…I can juz talk abt it right..dun tell I am dun have da right…and oh ya…dere has been so much of condemning abt me..hmm..i wonder why..and especially if its from someone close..oh my…u might be juz joking and kidding but..its hurting someone else…

I think my parents think I am invisible in da hse…yeah…dey noe well dat I am not working and stuff…so when I like once in a while wanna go out and ask for cash..dey wld be like start deir nonsense..by saying I am asking too much..and am like wasting and blah and blah…but plz have a tot I am 21 and yet no savings and stuff…wad can I do…and its damn freaking difficult to get a job..ahh..money is not a big issue…but when u dun even have a lil it becomes the most impt issue man…haiz…juz dun noe wad to…oh my gosh My Life Is Complicated..

I WILL MISS YOU

Oh abt today..after going to temple wif shamz..wen to tekka to eat and den wen to see one of my aunty who is working at a travel agency and over dere she gave me a real shocking news…da man who was close wif me, da man who I advise not to smoke too much, da man who loves to tease me and da man who always asking joking whether I wanna marry him,…yeah a man who always treat me more like his close fren..a man who advise me in my education..a man who said..its not impt where u are studying but to study and juz prove ppl dat no matter where u study and wad u study, u can also come to a big status…its juz dat times takes its place..but Mr Shanker..yeapz dats his name..da same times has taken u away from me..i only noe now dat u have become da oldest guardian angel after u have left da world a mth ago.. why din anyone tell me…ahh…I have yet to overcome da shocking news…u made a difference in my life and I am grateful for dat…hope we meet again in our next life as good frenz..i am gonna mish u sooo much…rest in peace…

I guess I have atleast poured a lil from my heart..let me emphasize “I poured a lil” so dis goes to say..dere is still much more left to tell…hahahhahaa…yeah..dun wanna tell much…Societyz Loneranger is signing of..AdiyoZ..



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Jus for u..@Wednesday, May 18, 2005

A dedication to my Babyangel..

I have tot abt dis over and over and I am juz penning my thoughts down..well I noe dat she is a gift whom I can neva replace anything wif…sometimes I wish she was juz mine alone..ahh..i do have a possessive side of me..but not in a bad way..yeah juz becoz I love her da most..i wonder if she really noes how I feel for her..well pplz..dun think I am a les or wadeva..haha..okies..hmm..as I was saying..her horoscopes says she is a perfectionist..but den sad part is dat da word its not even in her dictionary..lolz..

she might be da pest but she has her best side..and she is one of da rare woman I know who has soo much of patience..yeah..she lurvees…to irritate, bite and beat me…and I have patience only for her..hehe..hmm..i lurve her to bits and only wan her to be happy throughout..only I noe wads going in her heart and running through her veins..yeah..baby..if I have all da power I wld have given wad ur heart is asking..she might look strong and leading a happy life..but da truth..do u noe? NO!!! coz she does not shows her feelings out juz like dat..yeah..sometimes I wonder wad wld I have been doing without her..hell no man can’t even imagine a life without her..

she might juz think I am juz an ordinary person…but tell u wad I am not as ordinary as I look..wahahha…sometimes I get jealous when she is close wif someone else..but den I dun tell neither do I show it out or even take revenge..coz wadeva it is…its her life..hmm..da moment she came into dis world God created me to be wif her throughout..da moment God created he was amazed by his cute creation..i missed those scenarios she walked wif her pampers stuck on her butt..coz at dat time I was not even introduce to her..yeah..i was not given the opportunity to see her 1st walk, crawl and turnover…hahaha..but if I am gonna ask her to do it now..well do u think she wld say no..?…hahaha..she wun say No to me..probably she wld be like a NIKE Ad..JUST DO IT…wahahhaha…

I wld do anything to please her..sometimes she dun appreciate it..or is it I juz dun noe wads da meaning of appreciate..lolz..yeah..she is not a warrior but has her brave side..she is quiet but playful…and if I am lame..she is lamer..haha..yeah..i feel as though I own her..she is juz like my fren, my sis, my mother and even daughter..oh my she is all my relations..i dun need to look at her pic always coz her memory has been engraved in my heart…she might think I am sweet talker..lolz..but frankly..i am not..all those words and expressions are from deep down my big heart..she has her own style of dressing..neva copied da trend..neither anyones..style..hmm..a gal who is standing by da window and looking out for her prince charm to break da barrier…and carry her far away to a island of deir own..

i may not be a good writer..but I juz tell wad I feel..and always follow my heart..if dere is something which I wan…I only wan her as my friend foreva in all my life..and in exception if I am given da chance to be a boy in my next life..i wan her to be my love of my life..yeah..she noes very well dat I wld really take care of her..as though she is da princess of my heart and world..aightz..i have penned down all my tots…abt her..i dun wish to tell her name..coz she noes it very well..and yeah if I ad missed out anything..plz approach..lolz..and guys..once again dun think I am a les..lolz..coz..she is my fren..a fren whom I can neva take for granted..she is da light of my dark path..wish u all da best my babyangel..




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My Wonderful Classmates...@Tuesday, May 17, 2005

My IO1 Classmates..

Yo…here comes the societyz loneranger to blog abt…hmm…wad shall I blog abt..okies..i am not gonna blog abt today’s happenings..but my dearest class IO04071..yesh my class IO1..i am gonna blog abt each and every student in my class..let me tell you..i am very frank person..but I think twice before I said the truth..so juz bear wif me for wad I am gonna say..

I am looking my class photo and writing dis entry..coz I dun wanna miss out anyone..hehe..except for one student who is not in the photo..nvm..i will still write abt her also..here goes the list baby..

Ilyanah: a gal who is very friendly and yeah I noe since my orientation time..at 1st I tot she was a havoc gal..lolz..sorry gal anyway she is damn nice and cooperative and when it comes to work yeah..she puts her effort and gives a helping hand..and I must give her the Miss Gorgeous award..yeah well dun float babe…

Khairunnisa: the youngest kewlest hottest mum..lolz..yeah babe…u are damn sociable and I like it..dun care abt wad others talk and juz live her life kinda person..dis gal also I knew during my orientation..dat time I din talk to her much till we became classmates..and yeah..she is damn sporty..and I must give her the Miss Sporty award.

Marni: ahh…she is a bubbly gal..a simple gal wif a cute smile..haha..and I shld say she might look fierce but den..a down to earth person..and I must say dat she is friendly too..she might be smiling throughout but only some knows wad she has inside her heart of hers..well anyway I must give her the Miss Adorable award.

Sri Dewi: she looks like a mix Indian..well she is a malay gal and she lives in yishun and I only noe dat when she became my classmate. She is has da quiet gal look on her face..but den..haha…well she is not as noisy as me..a friendly gal..and she can be studious too..a good clubber..though I have not been clubbing wif her before..and yeapz she is sociable too..i must give her the Miss Beautiful award.

Siti Shahida: da 1st time I met her omg she was soo quiet..but den I realise she can be talkative too…and oh ya she sings and dance well..a hip hop babe shld I say..and yeah sociable and helpful too. To me she looks like a hipster babe..lolz..juz a kewl and funky gal..and I must give her the Miss Personality.

Roziana: a damn farnie gal..she is loud and of coz in a good way..verry friendly and yeah a studious gal too..if she is quiet..its either she is in bad mood or pmsing…lolz..other den dat haha..she is a nice gal. Da 1st time I met her in class well I tot she is arrogant..but no I was wrong..lolz..a cute gal..i mus give her the Miss Best Smile award.

Kai Hoon: ahh a gal who always calls me cool gal..lolz..i wonder why..hehe…a daring gal I shld say and yesh she is a person who speaks her mind..and if u really get into her nerves..oh my..lolz..well she is juz too cute..looks like a small skool gal type..haha..but sociable too..always looking into da mirror..sometimes I wonder is she looking da mirror to adjust her hair or juz look how cute she is..haha..i must give her the Miss Cute award.

Nursyahirah: hmm…a demure gal..she is like a beautiful book where u must read it where its full of nature and has a good ambience..haha yeah a humble gal and damn hardworking shld I say and a damn good friend..and oh ya she can really rap well..damn friendly person..well she sits beside me in class and I hope dat I have not been a disturbance in class and yeah she is helping hand too..i must give her the Miss Friendly award.

Esther: wah…a really quiet gal..i have yet to even hear a voice fully man..lolz..she lives in a world wif kai hoon..lolz..sometimes I juz wonder if she and Kai hoon are twin sisters…wahahha…she is friendly and has nice features too..yeah I must give her the Miss Quiet award.

Hazwani: well well..a damn bubbly gal man..really friendly and sociable and oh my studious too…lolz..she is soo noisy and in a good way too..if she is quiet well it means someone got her into bad mood..lolz..but she is helpful too and wad I like abt her is dat she does any work given to her in near perfection..yeah..and she is beautiful too..i must give her the Miss Bubbly award.

Joanna: hmm..a gal who lives in her own world and at times she can give me shock by being sacarstic..lolz..but friendly gal too..yeah..sometimes I juz wonder wad she has in her mind man..ahh..well I must give her the Miss Silence award.

Indayani: ahh my BSA partner…haha..she is really patience enuff to teach me..lolz..a beautiful gal..damn she got the photogenic look..i like the photo which was paste in her Locker..lolz..so sexay..hehe..well friendly gal and so far I think she is one of the best whom I have known since skool begin..and oh ya I wonder where she got her typing skills..lolz..i must give her the Miss Pretty award..haha..i think she deserves it anyway..lolz..

Rashidah: hmm..she is da person who looks arrogant but da truth is she is not at all..lolz..and she is also studious man..oh my…hmm..she is friendly and helpful too..hehe..yeah she has been quiet and only talks when its needed..hehe..hmm..she has a humble side too..hmm..i must give her the Miss Interesting award..haha.

Fadzlin: a gal who has beautiful features..and damn nice gal…she is soo humble and da homely sort gal..hehe..and yeah very friendly gal and I juz admire a way she does her work..like very orientated.. and neat too..hehe I must give her the Miss Obedient award.

Norwahidah: a bubbly gal..shld I say..a gal who lives in a world of dream like dat..well she loves to read and yeah..she is one of the good fren…and yesh she is soo sweet too..hehe..and well she is bookworm too..and strives to get good results..and I must give her the Miss Spontaneous award.

Nurhuda: ahh..a gal wif a hotty look..and yeah she can dance well…a very helpful gal and also friendly and sociable….juz can click well..and yeah she wears her skirt like hipster..lolz..kewl gal I must give her the Miss Funky award.

Nur Azilla: haha..my class dancer lolz..yeah she juz dances for everything..hehehehe..and yeah da only thing I noe is dat she lovesss to dance..and yeapz..hmm..i got not much to say..a nice gal I must give her the Miss Dancer award.

Faridah: ahh..well I got to know dis lil hot chick..during our orientation and yesh she is a frenly gal who really talks her mind..i like her frankness and yeah a nice gal indeed..and oh ya she looks so cute..lolz..and I must give the Miss Style award.

Wahidah Farhana: I will neva forget her cause of her laughter lolz..damn loud..i noe her also during our orientation..well a frenly gal..and sometimes I feel as though we have a lil distance lolz..i wonder why..hehe..anyway she is a nice gal..hmm..i must give her the Miss Laughter award.

Shahidah: well..she and farhana are like best frenz…lolz..and yeah a frenly gal who have dis shy look on her face..haha..i met her during my orientation too…wah..wad can I say..hmm a nice gal to talk also..yeah I must give her da Miss Shy award.

Xiu Jing: yeah baby…haha dats wad she always say and oh ya she calls me Thuka..lolz..and also twice like Thuka Thuka..wahahha..its juz cute when she does dat..a sporty gal shld I say and oh my she looks like a Chinese model..and plz dun float but I am juz speaking da truth..haha..well she is one of the best..i must give her the Miss Model award.

Bryan: ahh…a damn sweet helpful guy and my 1st Chinese guyfren..lolz..he is damn friendly guy and I and he can really put up a conversation well..and yeah we share some secrets too..wahahaha…yesh he can be bullied by me and yesh I juz lurvee to pinch and beat him..wahahha and I must he has neva shown his temper to me at all..lolz..and oh ya he is Mr Monday MC king..wahahhaa..well I must give him da Mr Nice Guy award.

Darbakh Singh: ahh da best guy in my class other den bryan..lolz..he is helpful, lazy and good guy..he can really make me laff even if I am down..ahh..a very good guy and also a guy who has good looks..well he might be younger den me 4 years but he looks older den me..haha..he can really entertain well..and yeah a joker to da max..and nice good guy..i am juz full of praises for him coz he has neva got into my nerves before..lolz..i must give him the Mr Best Guy award.

Faizal: ahh a guy who looks stern yet friendly..i dun talk much to him..juz abt hi and bye and some communication abt skool work..haha..but if need help yeah he helps..lolz..okies..i must give him the Mr Big award..lolz..he looks like teddy to me..hehe..

Sharill: hmm..a guy who reminds me of heavy metal music and machine guns..lolz..yeah he is quiet but talks when needed..sometimes its rare we even talk also..haha..yeah he is friendly too..i must give him the Mr Metalic guy award.

Wei Wei: ahh…a bubbly, friendly and damn nice gal and yesh she is hardworking too..a studious gal..who is shy when I disturb her wif her bf..lolz..haha..yeah she is nice gal..love to disturb her..hahahhaa…a sporty gal also..i must give her the Miss Nice Gal award.

Dilah: my bubbly fren..yeah she and I can really click well..haha..she is damn friendly and also has a sensitive side I guess..lolz..she is damn nice gal..haha..we both lovee to go Mac and end up finishing the food..lolz..a gal who everyone needs in deir life..haha..and I must give her the Miss Best Bubbly award.

Samantha: ahhh…da gal who is noisy, loud and a damn nice gal..at times we can’t get along..lolz..but she has proved dat she has her nice side too..wahahha..a friendly gal and yeah she is walking sweet store man..lolz..she has something to give us..hahahaha..oh ya..she is soo in love wif her bf..wahahha..and yeah she is helpful a gal wif so much of aims..and she wishes to be a hsewife coz she loves it….I call her Miss Tai Tai…hahahhaa..and I must give her the Miss Talkative..wahahahha…

Well to all my classmates..i have written wad I feel..so dun mind me being too frank..and if I have praised u..plz dun float too much..hahaha…okies…I guess dis is my longest entry and I really tot wad to write for each and everyone..i have been blogging for the past two hours….ahh..i will blog abt other interesting topics soon..anyway all da best to all my classmates..

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A day spent wif my babygal@Saturday, May 14, 2005

Gals Outing!!!

Weeeewit..well..i din go skool yesterday due tomy headache and cramps…ahhh…this term took soo many MCs man..hehe..den wen to buy some household things wif my mum..after dat juz go back home and yeah saw my bro and sis..ahh..i msged shamz whether is she free to spend da day wif me..i tot she had tuition and she wun be able to meet..but after meeting her den only I knew she had no tuition..yeah..we board da train going towards Marina Bay..and I asked do u noe where are we going she said she got no idea..so we both suggested town since its like been long time we go there..

we reached Orchard..and shamz wanted to go to Borders..ahh..we wen dere she saw her Two fav books..and each cost $38.95 holy gosh if I really had da cash I wldn’t mind buying for her man…oh ya one of da book was on top and of coz she cldn’t reach and needs my Help..*grinz* yeah after she saw..and when I was abt to keep back da book..it nearly fall on my head but I saved it and try to balance it on da shelf..but I juz had da feeling dat its gonna drop on da guy who was juz behind us..hahaha..if it only drop den it wld be da Headlines in Straits Times today..lolz..coz da book was heavy..

ahh…den we both got out from dere…juz walked ard and wen to Scotts Food Court shamz ate her Yami Yogurt..and I juz drank coke as I was not hungry.... we sat dere and talk and talk..after that headed to Far East Plaza..hehe..shamz was looking for red earrings..and guess she cldn’t find one which pleases her..lolz..coz she is Fussy…wahahahaha…oh ya I also din shut up and was giving comments…after window shopping over dere…we wen over to HMV..ahh…yeah juz walked ard..

den wen to Swensons….omg…I have been eating like a PIG!!! Oh yeah I confessed certain things..guess she must be shocked..lolz..only I noe how I feel my baby gal…den we juz sat dere..ate our ice-creams and fries..and talked den left da place..but dat fella din give my change of $0.05..well it migh sound pathetic…but come one its money after all..but den thinking abt it..ahh..juz nvm..we left…while walking back I discovered a strand of grey hair on shamz…wahahha…she is getting old…or is she thinking abt me toooo much…nah..shamz dun worry so much abt me and dun mish me so much…I understand how u feel *blinkz blinkz*…well though I did talked certain things wif u…I juz feel as though I o have some things juz bottled up in me…and its like sometimes make me go breathless..a pricked pain in my heart…I wonder why…well for now I wld like to leave it up to my angels above..take care of me..



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enjoying...@Thursday, May 12, 2005

Time to have some Fun

Oh my gosh…my headache is gonna make me split my head into two..argghhh…and becoz of dat and also my stomach cramps..i din attend skool…wasted..since its da last week I wanted to go skool..ahh..but wad to do…anyway..yeah woke up 6:15am..and da pain in my head was worse den my stomach cramps..so juz wen back to sleep..and woke up at 8+am….oh shamz, meenz, prem and myself were in a conference yesterday…farnie..and yeah dats when meenz told dat headache can be fatal too…ahh..god..pleash..i have some things to settle..den u can bring me along..aightz..juz wait a lil longer…lolz….i noe shamz gonna screw me for dis..i dun care..

Okies…let me say wad I did today…well woke up and got ready..wen to wdls civic center wif my mum..pay all da bills..ahh..den wen to causeway point to make a courts payment for dis installment plan thingy..den..wen to have lunch at foodcourt..my mum bought briyani for herself and I bought chicken baked rice…wah..damn tasty..i like it..yummy..yeah after dat its time to do window shopping..walked ard..den saw earrings and bags..tops… *waiting for my mum to strike lottery* LOL…yeah den I told my mum dat I need to buy a shoe…coz I dun have a proper one..ahh..at 1st wen to Bata…but din like anything over dere..den wen to Charles and Keith..ahh…too many..but when I chose da one I like..dey dun have da size…grrr..den I was like forget it…took mrt to Yishun. yeah..wen to window shop again..but ended up buying a jeans skirt and yesh a Orange Top…yuppies…I noe shamz gonna be like WTH??? Lolz….well I love da colour…and yeah she is gonna get a shock of her life dat I bought a skirt…hehehe…and den It seems dat today is a good day to buy gold *following da Indian culture* and yeah my mum wen to buy one for my god picture..was super duper crowded man..Chip Lee…wad do u expect..

den was waiting for my sis to come..fetched her from Northpoint…den walked back to the jewellery shop…and at last my mum bought one and left da shop…den as she went to buy 4D numbers..i wen to da shoe shop juz beside da Turf club..and yeah I bought a shoe…well if shamz gonna look at it..she will say *interesting shoe* LOL…and yeah den wen to Mac to buy food for my sis..and back home..and ya..was watching SunTv… interesting movie…yeah..den was too tired..juz did some hseworks…and den juz simply doing nothing..after dat my fren called and said he is under my blk and wld u wanna meet..so I said okies…well after two years I am meeting him..

When I met him he was like…err…Hi…lolz…shld have seen da reaction on his face..and yeah he said dat I am really looking good…well I dun get praises everytime..wahahahha..yeah was juz talking den got back home…oh ya abt yesterday…met my galfren and her guyfren at bishan mrt…hmm..dats my 1st time meeting dat guy..well he looks like a mysterious guy…LOL…yeah though he was too quiet…which is really not a good start for me…arghh…but I juz managed…actually was suppose to go out wif dem…but he had a look like must she tag along…den I tot nah…juz go back home…and yeah…after having our lunch at Pastamania…and oh ya we ate Ice Cream at Swensons….lolz…but den I was still hungry…lolz…only me and my galfren ate…her guyfren din eat ice cream but he wasted so much of food at Pastamania…*feels for the people who dun have much food* hmm…after dat we talked…we took pics through the help pf his hp…lolz…when he wanted to take wif my galfren he asked me whether he can put his arms ard her to take da pic…lolz..i was like ok…and yeah…den when he and I took..he was like pretty uncomfortable abt it…well..its all in da game…yeah…den I wen back home and dey carried on wif deir plans…oh ya now I got a partner who can Rock Climb wif me and do most of the outdoor activites…yeah he is my galfren’s fren….hippies…..hmm…den …after I got back home…Punetha sis asked whether I wanna go temple wif her…den I was like sure np…so Punetha sis, Madhan, Bhavani and myself wen to the Siva Durga Temple..at Potong Pasir…yeah had a grt time dere….den got back home…ahh…

Now I feel so lonely…I wonder why….hmm…maybe I am juz born to be Societyz Loneranger….yeapz..dats all for now…AdiyoZ


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The Happenings In Life..@Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Yesterday and Today..

Ahhh…wad can I say abt yesterday…it was mother’s day..hmm..actually my parents and my sis were suppose to go Swensons to have lunch..but when we went to Northpoint and saw da queue for swensons…ahh…my dropped da idea and said lets go to one of the coffeeshop behind the interchange…while walking we saw dis small restaurant like dat..well actually its more to a café but the way its design looks like dat…the café’s name is Sedaap Café..therefore we decided to have our lunch there..
Our Menu..we ate..Red Garupa Steamboat, Kampong Chicken, Sambal Kangkong, Seafood Tofu, Shark fin Soup and white rice..ahhh…yummy..ahh..but I was not dat full…hahahaha…my appetite..den after we ate…walked ard..went to return a vcd..den walked ard..bought some things..den left…came back home..juz bumming ard..

Today..Monday..ahh..i had access test..hope I did well..lucky I had enuff time man..hmm..bag was freaking heavy..den finished the sort work…No more BSA..ahh..gonna mish da pc I used..lolz..and SOT is done..at last..ahh..den break time..den was EFW..after dat can go back home coz there was no SW yesh!!! Kinda mish playing badminton though..hmm..yeah..now gotta really put all effort in studying man…no fooling ard and stuff..and yeah..after skool..met sydha while walking back to MRT…den was juz talking wif her..and back home..

Looks like I need to open up a club along with a cafeteria for people who are falling in and out of love…lolz..and my club name wld be called as Createsh Love Illusions.. hmm…sounds kewl though…hahaha…coz manyeah..nothing much to do so juz blogging…hmm…aightz dats all I gotta say for now..AdiyoZ



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@Monday, May 09, 2005

Happy Mother’s Day…

Mother..someone who can neva be replaced..She is da person who noes her children very well…and I wld like to wish all my mothers a Happy Mother’s Day..ahh..my mum, aunties, and shamz..and punetha sis and not forgetting Durgai Amman..i wished every mum and I got wished by my two lil angel nephews..Darshan and Haranesh…damn cute da way dey wished me..lolz..coz dey are only two and 3 and 2 years old…ahhh….wld like to wish all mothers and mother to be a Happy Mother’s Day once again…May God Bless this Angels who are send by him…

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My handsome nephew Darshan...

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My adorable dude..nephew Haranesh..



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happenings of life...@Wednesday, May 04, 2005

A journey of life

Welcome me after such a long time man…haiz…too busy..or shld I say I dun noe wad to blog abt…too many things in mind man…okies..juz one more week to go and dats it..skool is over..except exams. Hmmm wad can I say now..lets talk abt da happenings and feelings..

My Parents..

Well actually dey have deir good side..but dey show me deir other side more often den da good side..lolz..hmm…If there is one man whom I love and he is another woman’s husband..he is none other den my Dad…a great gift I can eva have..he might nag and scold me and even use harsh words and tone at times but he loves and dotes me da most..and I noe da fact very well dat he even loves me more den he loves his wife..*evil laffter* at times when he hurts me…ahh…I juz can’t take it man..but still I love him and he is da best..at times I feel he got split personality…wahahhaa..coz one min he will be fine..talking joking and disturbing…but den da other min..he becomes short-tempered and nags like nobody’s business..lolz…smiles..

A message for my dad..

Dad I noe it will be a miracle or shld I say a shocking thing for me to know dat u will read my blog..lolz..i noe u dun believe in dis all…hehe…nvm wadeva it is I juz wanna say dat u are da best..and u noe wad I think ur wife is a lil jealous dat u love me da most..wahahhaha…and to be frank I really miss those time where u trim my nails for me, iron my uniform, tie my hair, carry my skool bag, and da most impt…wheneva I am sleeping u come secretly in da room and kiss my cheeks and forehead and whisper in my ears “You are always my baby gal no matter how old u grow” ahh..i wish I can have those words heard again..

Hmm..now my mum..well I always have yearn for a mother’s love..i neva knew how is it like to be loved by a mother..i do have a mum..but yet to earn da love from her..well at times she is nice..bring me to movies, bring me to lunch and stuff..but we do have a distance between us…well she always made me feel left out when I noe very well sshe loves my bro and sis a lot…she always says dat I am da unlucky child..sway and blah…if only she realise…

A message for my mother..

Well mum..i noe its not possible for u to read also..nvm…anyway I really got nothing much to tell…but plz dun be soo jealous dat ur husband loves me more den u..aightz..

My Siblings…

My bro..well to be frank I hate him to da max…grrr…actually he is like da soft spot in him is only 0.01% and da rest..u shld noe…he neva even gave me a respect as a human being…argghhh…he neva had a trust on me…wheneva he needs help he needs me…and when his things are done…ahh…bid off bye..dats my bro..grr

A message for my bro..

I guess you have made my Bp high and also thankz for being a pest..hehe

My sister…wah..i dun need enemies outside..lolz…I have one at home..grr…she has a good side at times only…but most of da time…oh my…juz got no comments..she is juz da female version of my bro..dats all…

A message for my sis..

Ahem u noe wad..i guess I wld have been more happy if I was da only daughter..lolz..

U noe..being stuck among dis colourful traffic light of my life…ahh…I dun noe wad to do…there are juz too many things running in mind…but certain things are meant to be kept in da dark..too much of stress and depression…too much of tears shed…haha…life is like dat…we cannot always expect bed of roses..but why do I always step on da thorns…

Oh I forgot to write abt an important person in life and she is none other den shamini..

My best fren…

She is one of da best gift I can eva get or shld I say vice versa *winkz*well shamz I juz wldn’t noe if had not come in my life…lolz..she is one person who loves my entertainment..and listens to my stooped rap and stuff…haha…well wad I admire abt her is her patience and oh ya her tolerence for me…she has been my Friend, My sister and also love me as my mother..sometimes I feel possessive when someone new comes in her life and she is close to dem…but I can’t do much coz she has her own personal life…I love her sooo much…but ppl dun think I am les…I am a person who gives a lot of importance to Friendship…yeapz…I envy da way she dress, and her style…she always says dat I am her bytch…lolz..i noe sometimes I really behave like one…lolz..sorry abt dat babe…and she also claims I am her angel…lolz..i guess she has yet to see the other side..hehe..hmm…wad can I say man…she is juz best…I juz cldn’t find a beautiful word in da dictionary to describe dis angel of mine..yeah..she is da best…

A message to sham..

Well shamz I noe dat I have been rude, sacarstic and blah blah to u…sorry..i guess I need to see a doc soon…lolz…and yeah my IMH dream will be true..lolz..and u noe if I have hurt u plz tell me shamz…I am sorry if I have caused some trouble…*smiles* sometimes I really wish u cld noe wad I am feeling in my heart…I wished u cld u see da tear in my eyes when I smiled at u…lolz…but I dun blame u as I am a very good actress…wahahahhaha…and oh ya I used to spend time and lunch wif her alone…ahhh but now I gotta share…lolz…well yeah..u are my best fren no matter wad…and I love u da most…

I guess today’s entry is super duper long…shall juz end here…AdiyoZ




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