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helloz@Thursday, August 24, 2006

Atlast i update..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS SHUO KE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RINA

Today we went for a field trip to DHL..well..quite a boring presentation dey gave..*Yawns* and den dey gave us a YELLOW cap..Wen we wore it we look like workers of DHL..so many workers yet only one or two good looking and da best part dey are married..sighz..and den back home..

Back to entry, 1st of all thankz sk for reading my last blog entry many times esp da 1st line..lol. I have many things to write but either circumstances or situation is such dat I cld not write.

I do not know if good looks sell well, as I have noticed many couples..wah..da gals are hot..hmm..and da guys are some ok and some not. Da best some single guys do not even wanna take a 2nd look at me..maybe becoz I look fat, wif new pimple due to da Stoopid weather and my nerdy look as well a boring back comb jet black hairstyle..haha..

Trishma asked “y not u go for a haircut” lolz..shall do dat soon..Things at home..oh my..i rather juz be cooped up in my room. So much happenings and I juz dun noe wad to do..

I know I have made a lot of mistakes or maybe I have done worse sin in my last carnation dat dis generation I am going through shit!!

Dere was dis tamil drama I was watching and one of da gal said “Neva shld we be born as girls” hmm..why? becoz da day we came to the world crying and till death u will be crying. We are strong headed but soft nature. Oh god..

I feel dat I shld quieten down coz I am over noisy..i wanna walk dis bed of roses full of thorns alone..and oh ya “Bestie asked me “Are you feeling lonely” wahahahhaa..yeah I am..not becoz I dun haf a partner or wad so ever but juz feel cast aside..everyday is going nuts..in class maybe I am da Hyper active but in reality?? I ain’t sure..

“The courage that I need to live,
the air that I breathe.
My world's become so empty. The days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste the purest of pain.”

A song lyrics..juz like wad I am feeling. Everynight wen I go to bed, and da next morning wen I wake up tears stroll down my cheeks. Maybe I juz forgot how to smile.

I dun wanna go on carrying nagging abt my stooped life or else u will get bored oh I might get comments dat I am always complaining in my blog..lolz..shall juz end here..maybe I shall put a full-stop to all dis and juz drift away from life..Adiyoz




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thoughts@Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Emotionally Written



I realize dat I have become more jealous and selfish and I noe its wrong to be like dat but wad to do its my character and I am not jealous or selfish for da wrongs things I juz dun wanna share my frenz, loved ones, my fav things and stuff..hmm..so much things happening ard me and I have been thinking a lot for da past few days till my heart is being squeezed so much dat its even painful wen I smile.

I know at times or maybe most of the times I am simply annoying but maybe I am juz like dat. I dun noe why at times I am being misunderstood and stuff..or even maybe I am so wrong in wadeva I am feeling..maybe everyone is right I am to be blamed but..i juz dun noe..head is spinning, heart is tossing.

I might be da bunch of joker or a clown in ur life but in my own world I am juz a sore loser..my tears are being behold by my eyes. Feel tormented dat my own world is being shattered to pieces..my life is juz like a broken piece of mirror even if u put back da pieces da cracks still remain.

I know those who are reading, some might think dis gal got nothing better to do and some might think oh shit did I do anything and stuff..dun worry coz dis feeling is not like yesterday and today but for da past dun noe how long. I feel dat I am drifting away from my loved ones, my frenz. Behind my smile dere is a mile full of pain and tears. For the age I am I dun noe wad I haf done so far to be proud of.

You might know da noisy me but u may haf not even realize da unspoken silence in me.
After all I am also a normal human being. Living a complicating life is not easy at all.
The reason why I am blogging dis entry is not becoz I wanna let ppl noe wad da hell am I thinking or wad so ever but juz to let down my emotions..Feel locked up in my own world. I am sorry if I haf hurt any of u in any way or if I haf been da most annoying pest in ur life..*smiles* dats all I gotta say..Adiyoz



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Pictures!!@Thursday, August 10, 2006

HAPPY 22nd B'DAE to Me and HAPPY 41st B'DAE Singapore

well well..have been so busy taking pics and enjoying myself..lols.. well on da 8/08 eve of national day..had a celebration at sch and fun too..got saboh by Zhi. and yeah den went to serangoon country club kelly's treat..had a great time..den went to toa payoh wif rina and trish becoz to buy longans..yeah rina wanted to buy for her mum..chilled at Mac for a while..den rina went home, followed trish to popular bookshop to buy skipping rope and stuff..as we walked to da interchange two gals from spa culture walked to us and have a talk wif use and da gal who was talking to me her name was Shakira..and am not lying..da best part she said i got sexy boobs..and she like dat..lolz..i cld not stop laughing coz trish was saying dat everyone was talking abt my ahem dat day..wahahaha..den headed back home

9/09 12 midnight by sis-in-lawa and bro suprised me wif a cake..oh my..i got shocked.. and yeah time to open da gifts and was really touched by all da gifts...aww..danx ppl. den in da morning went to KK Women and Children Hospital to visit my nephew..and its da same hospital my mum gave birth to me 22yrs ago..lol..den met my sis-in-law and her mum and bro had lunch at marshe den her mum and bro headed to NDP..before dat her dad picked dem up..knowing my b'dae he gave me money and kissed me..aww..choo sweet..
den my sis-in-law and i walked ard..did some window shoppin..and den headed back home..she went to meet her fren lavanya at wdls while i met trish and rina at khatib dey came over...a while late shuo ke came..we were watching da NDP together and making so much noise and teasing and laughing at everyone..*ROFLOL* yeah den took some pics at home..and send dem off till downstairs..and yeah dats all my b'dae and national day ended..officially i am 22 and i am very sure dis Iskandar gonna ask wen i am gonna get married and stuff..damn..
Lastly i enjoyed it alot but wish i cld have spend a day wif my bestie and my lovable cuzins!!!

Wishlist for my b'dae:
Birthday Card
Clothes
Mp3 player
ring
an outing at zoo
beach
bags
license
more love
being pampered
Play in da Arcade
Theme Park

EVE OF NTAIONAL DAY AT SCHOOL

zhi and me

where are u looking zhi

oh gosh water falls..argghh danx to zhi

ohh damn i am so wet

drying myself

Our Aerobic Dance

Da gal version of hulk
followed by hawiian dancers by da side

a pic wif hanis

stop war and have peaceweeewiiittt

Good shot

i dun noe who took da pic but its nice
all da 3 of us dun noe wad we are actually doing

peace

ting ha, shuo ke and jessica

nice pic wif yante

a slight diff in da pose *lol*

shazana n me

Nareeza and me

its hot man

friendsshocked

trying to learn how to use da functions

National Day Spirit

Rina wad were you trying to do


AT DA SERANGOON COUNTRY CLUB

edna nicely whacking her food

its her treat *KELLY da other national day gal*

who are u planning to kill

cut it eat it

i am enjoying my food

nice pic but i think my head looks big

after lunch

singapore top models

ladies outing

trish is juz waiting to jump in

lets juz chill

she juz dun wanna get up

kai hoon why u covered ur face?

whose hand is dat?

juz relaxing

da pool babes

kai hoon and shuo ke by da poolside

swimming pool babes


Rina buying 2kg of longans for her mum

da main reason why we came toa payoh *LONGAN*



MY B'DAE GIFTS

a gift by kelly including da photo

a chocolate glass frm Rina

self-made card by Rina

a box of cookies frm syamsiah and filza

a shiny blue pull over from my sis-in-law's mother

a top from my sis from john little

da second gift by sis *a top from hangten*

a batman cap given by my puppies

dis is how Trish gift was wrapped wif masking tape
i took 15-20mins to open it

cute baby bottle clock given by trish

da touching letters given by trish

da leo glass given by trish


words written on da glass

a flower stalk given by my sis-in-law

da magic spell gift by Shuo Ke

da magic spell card


MY B'DAE OUTING

da flower gal
*sanju's description flower+flower=flower*

a pic taken juz outside marshe

a shot at da fountain at HMV

posing wif da blue cow

da sister-in-laws

my bro's mother-in-law and brother-in-law

the bull


WELCOME TO MY PARADISE

actually dey were going back but
dey wanted to take like dey juz entered my hse

pose while dey go back

juz enjoying da snacks

advertising for twisties N hot & spicy potato chips

nanny nanny boo boo
cheesy womanstop biting da glass

da triplets bunnysmile ladies

twisties anyone?

trish is juz so excited to take da pic
*DA LEOS*

da chics from gangster mania

lets dance rina *wait i shall gif a pose for da pic*

aww dats shuo ke's piggybacker

aww..my adorable piggybacker

dats a nice pic of u rina

Have da peace

trish was doing da sentence to death style

nice expression rina

i am sleepy i wanna go home

The end of day..hope u all enjoyed looking at da pics coz i enjoyed taking it..c ya wif another entry!! Adiyoz


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