3 days 2 nights at Class Chalet was fun. Interesting things and activities and all. Most of the time i dun noe why my metabolism rate was quite high i guess coz ikept eating and eating. 1st day juz ate, watch tv programes, chat session, arcade and all. We haf funny things such as Wahidah falling Khairul while sleeping. Myself giving interesting sounds while i haf knock out. WX slept beside edna while she din even realise coz at 1st it was Shi Ting who actually was sleeping beside Edna. Lol! 2nd day all woke up at different timing as some of us slept quite late. As late as 7am. yeah den we took our so called breakfast plus lunch. Some ate KFC and some Subway and some Burger King. Nareeza and Syamsiah came the 2nd day. We all played games like Blind Mice, Charades, Heart Attack and Monkey. We had activities such as Gals raping each other, BBQ and gossips.
Enjoyed but missed some classmates. 3rd day was packing up and checking out and all. Had lunch wif Rina, Trish and Sam at Mac. Den took the train. Coincidentally met kelly in train while going home wif Trish. Chatted. Back Home. Went for prayers den stayed at bro's hse.

Today is my Brother's b'dae. Went out wif mum to pay bills and did some gift shopping for my bro and den met my sis in law and went shopping again wif her. Now juz surfing da net in her hse.

I guess i am suffering from some kinda sleeping disorder problems. Coz i haf dis habit since i was born wheneva i sleep, i make some kinda weird sounds and noises. Most of the time some ppl said its like moaning and all. Dis is one of the main reason why i don not sleep early coz i wait for everyone to sleep den i will sleep in order not to make those kinda noises. I really hope dat dis problem will stop but it has been 23yrs its still within me..argghh..whoevea camped, or stayed wif me, sorry to disturb ur sleep :)

I met up wif my bestie da other day. Went for lunch at KFC. and did window shopping at Cineleisure, she bought for me and herself a T-shirt which says "Seductive, Flirtatious, Intoxicatingly Sexy" da shirt is nice and comfy. There is another shirt i am gonna buy soon which says "Daddy's Expensive Girl" lolz! Bestie gave me some kinda lectures and stuff..always nagging..lolz..dere are some movies i need to watch wif her. I badly wanna watch TMNT wif SANJU my twinster. and it will be his treat. from the movie tickets to popcorn and bestie if u wanan join by all means u can. For the readers information Sanju is my bestie's Boyfren. *winkz*

Currently in life am looking for afull time job and maybe i am fussy or choosy i dun noe which one am i. I can't seem to get a job which i like and where my interest lies. Still looking for it. For now i feel as though i am stranded alone in a lost island. I am either finding for something or even maybe finding for myself.

Labels: Lost In My World

First of all i would like to say a big thanks to all my frenz who said dat my ISF entry was touching. Now officially I am graduated and still thinking on wad to do in life.
Right now am juz enjoying my holidays and having fun but everyday I am still worried abt my exam results coz it was quite difficult and due to my memory problem I could only remember certain notes. For now i am planning to do a full time job and study part time but the problem is i dun noe where my interest lies and stuff am juz totally confused in my complicated life.

I was asking my bestie yell me wad to blog abt den she said juz blog randomly and yeah dis is one of my random entry. For the past few days i have been feeling very laidback. Too much of thinking of life, career, future, love, self-esteem. Too much to deal abt. Am juz taking it slow and steady. At times my loneliness is juz killing and one of the biggest problem now is money. I am really running low in cash or shld i say dat i am already bankrupt. lolz

The beautiful reason why life still goes on even if we all have so much probz to handle is becoz of wonderful friends and loved ones. They are dere rain or shine.
One if my friend asked me dis question "is wrong to be attracted to gals and is it wrong to attract gals?" well society does not accept it but to me it all depends on our body hormones. oh ya totally forgot my fren kelly wrote a small poem for me and its really sweet and dis is how it goes:

Ah... Durga the ah-amazing Diva...
The wonderful ooze of sexiness she possesses,
The sexy voice she produce,
The answer to Bollywood's next goddess
In other words, simply irresistible...

She is a wonderful friend,
Someone you can connect with,
A person whom you can depend on,
AND and and....
A person who fights for her rights and justice!
But beware, she does bite sometimes...
But she is still all fun-loving at hear.

Isn't the poem sweet..thanks kelly. Alritez lets go to the next issue. There has been alot of love affairs going ard. In my perception all the good guys have been taken but those remaining single ones are quite difficult to get them. In love, looks and age seems to be important. Haiz... maybe one of the reason why am still single is coz i keep attracting the wrong gender juz like my fren. lolz. and maybe like wad i seem a pretty manly look i haf. lolz. i can't do much abt dat coz its manufacturing defect. i too wish i look or dress more feminine but i did tried at times. *smiles* and da other reaosn is coz i am older den most of my frenz are..lolz.anyway am juz only 23. ahh juz prefer to live my life as i love. and oh ya below is an small entry which i wrote in a train journey from khatib to dhoby gaut quite some time back. Therefore jus enjoy reading it and veiwing some pics we took in sch before we grad.

Here is the travel entry:

Always wanted be a writer cause of the things happening around & the experience I go through. As I am traveling in the train, I see many different people. Their eyes tells a lot of things. Some are just stoning, some are really enjoying every bit of life. Some possessive couples, some couples who are actually betraying each other. Some married woman who are thinking of pregnancy and some divorced woman looking for a companionship. Some family who are already broken and some family who are breaking. So many different people but all of them are created by the same person whom we all believe is God.

Most of us blame the fate and just say that its their destination to lead a life like that but we always forget to have a 2nd thought such as why are we leading a life like this & not the other like other people.

We don’t take the initiative to change life and live it as it is. We don’t realize that people and life are to be appreciated. We don’t respect people’s point of view and even their circumstances. For instance lets take the homosexual, bisexual, gays and lesbians. They have so much love to shower and gif and even have their own dreams but due to the people surrounding them they just don’t seem to be leading a normal human being life. For another instance lets take the blind man who is singing wif his keyboard in the public and betta still some of it are his own composed songs. People don’t seem to appreciate him. They would just comment saying “why can’t he do a betta job then begging like dis. But if this people can criticize, they should probably bring the man to a recording theatre n make his dream more realistic to become a singer.

Why are handicaps outcasted as handicaps? Why can’t they be called as human being. Sometimes when they look at normal human being like us they rather be abnormal cause of the way we behave and treat people. Families who are broken or breaking seem bother about their marriage life den their children’s life. They don’t seem to think of the child future or feelings. Due to this the child grows up to be rebellious and a spoilt kid or worse join the bad group. Couple who don’t have kids seem to be blaming each other and worse still most of the blame goes to the woman than the male. If woman can gif birth without the help of man, then they are also called God. But somehow woman are still upperhand or should I say God’s assistant cause they can bring another life into this world. Aren’t the woman gender should be appreciated and praised. But looking at the now generation woman nowadays, they go for an abortion when they realize that they are pregnant knowing it’s a life that they are killing. In my point of view I feel that those woman who abort their child should be given a punishment which makes them realize that it is a crime to kill a life.

Many people might be wondering why am I writing such deep thoughts. But to be frank I see all this in different people eyes whom I am traveling with. I see happiness, pain, hurt, tears, betrayment, friendship, love, emotion and etc in all different eyes. I believe that my instincts are right and I trust my judgement. Sometimes I may be wrong but if anyone get the opportunity to be interview another person whom dey dun noe at all, they would realize that atleast one of the truth will be out which I see in my perception or should I say wad I see by my eyes and read through by my heart. Life has come to a conclusion that “Good people lead a shorter life than the bad ones. Happiness is given to those who don’t appreciate it at all and Sorrows are given to those who are suppose to be appreciated.

Thats the end of this entry. and here are some pics to glance through.

Labels: Hidden Feelings

To my ISF sweethearts. Two years in dis class and I have made wonderful friendship and bonding wif u guys. Da 1^st time wen I came into dis class I felt lost and lonely but u all made me like I am one of the family member in dis ISF family tree. There were conflicts, tears, fun, laughter, jokes, craps, lameness and all etc. We have proved to be the most noisiest yet the studious class. I am proud to say that u guys are my happiness wen I am sad and u guys are my pillar of strength wen I am weak. Here is a small entry for all of u. If I have said anything wrong hope u will jus forget abt it. And if u dun like da pic I put of urself I am sorry. Lol. Yeah..plz do keep in touch coz this two years journey can neva be trait for anything. I hope u guys will miss me too.

Mr Charming. The nosiest yet the gentleman. Da 1^st time I met him I found him really noisy and mischievous but as I got to know him well he respects people esp woman and he is still notti. A good soccer player n his team name is “Sambal” LOL!! I love the way wen he is concern. I am gonna miss his noisiness and da question he always ask “wen are u getting married

Mr Gentleman. Da guy whom I hated 1^st but turn out to be da best guy fren. Everyone disturbs his short tongue but to me I am fine wif it. I like da way he hugs. He is really good and very huggable. A good badminton player. I am gonna miss his stooped logic questions and stuff.

Mr Sweet Guy. The 1^st guy whom talked to me in class. He was very sweet and he is also our class monitor. A good runner and soccer player too. I am gonna miss his sweetness.

Mr Writer. He speaks and writes very well. Stands for his rights and gives all out for the love. He is more like a classic guy. I am gonna miss the way he dances.

Mr Silence. The quiet yet the silent killer. Everyone says he is horny but I ain’t sure how true but I know to a extend yes he is. He makes a joke n make everyone laugh except himself. A responsible person. I will miss his jokes.

Miss Babygal. She has got gorgeous eyes. Her sweetness can kill and very smart though she is blur most of the time. Very good in acting skills and dancing too. I will miss her babyness and her being blur.

Miss Voluptuous. She has got great body and can dance very well. She kills people wif her sexiness. Her driving is very cute and I am gonna miss her sexiness.

Da moment I stepped into this class

I heard full of blast.

I had no one at 1^st but u all showed

That there is everyone for me.

The bond can neva be described wif words.

Our education path together may be only two years

But our journey of friendship is more than anything.

I have walked the path wif u guys and will keep walking wif u all.

Its not the matter of whom we have known the longest but it’s the matter of

Whom has made the impact in our lives within the shortest period.

Lastly I will miss every bit of ISF and u guys rock. Miss and luv u all loads.

Finally am back after a veryu long time. I guess i will be da only blogging abt D&D and all.. I guess dis entry is gonna be pretty long therefore i request all readers to get an armchair, sit back and read. LOL!!