Emotionally Written

I realize dat I have become more jealous and selfish and I noe its wrong to be like dat but wad to do its my character and I am not jealous or selfish for da wrongs things I juz dun wanna share my frenz, loved ones, my fav things and stuff..hmm..so much things happening ard me and I have been thinking a lot for da past few days till my heart is being squeezed so much dat its even painful wen I smile.

I know at times or maybe most of the times I am simply annoying but maybe I am juz like dat. I dun noe why at times I am being misunderstood and stuff..or even maybe I am so wrong in wadeva I am feeling..maybe everyone is right I am to be blamed but..i juz dun noe..head is spinning, heart is tossing.

I might be da bunch of joker or a clown in ur life but in my own world I am juz a sore loser..my tears are being behold by my eyes. Feel tormented dat my own world is being shattered to pieces..my life is juz like a broken piece of mirror even if u put back da pieces da cracks still remain.

I know those who are reading, some might think dis gal got nothing better to do and some might think oh shit did I do anything and stuff..dun worry coz dis feeling is not like yesterday and today but for da past dun noe how long. I feel dat I am drifting away from my loved ones, my frenz. Behind my smile dere is a mile full of pain and tears. For the age I am I dun noe wad I haf done so far to be proud of.

You might know da noisy me but u may haf not even realize da unspoken silence in me.
After all I am also a normal human being. Living a complicating life is not easy at all.
The reason why I am blogging dis entry is not becoz I wanna let ppl noe wad da hell am I thinking or wad so ever but juz to let down my emotions..Feel locked up in my own world. I am sorry if I haf hurt any of u in any way or if I haf been da most annoying pest in ur life..*smiles* dats all I gotta say..Adiyoz