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Heart Breaking@Friday, March 17, 2006

Broken Family or Breaking Family..Which is the worse?
In my view both is atrocious and if u are one of the person who is being affected by it..ahh..den its worse. By the way hi everyone..dis topic is being written as one of my entry is becoz of my fren. Recently we met up and had a heart to heart talk..coz she called me and said she feels very depressed..so I was like ok..wads the problem and den she said lets meet up..

We met..and all I cld see is the pain in her eyes which is going thru. She asked me dis question “durga plz ans frankly.. “Broken Family is Worse or Breaking Family is worse”? I was like huh??? *Confused* but I replied.. both is actually worse but the issue is one has already happen (Broken Family) and the other which is happening (Breaking Family) den she said which is my family..I was again *puzzled* den I said explain properly..den she said.. “Durga my family is breaking..i dun noe wad to..i feel so suffocated” *she broke down* I hugged her..and said..cool down..tell me wad is exactly happening in ur family, and why do u feel that it is Breaking and she continued her reality story…Her parents dun seem to be talking at all and anytime they can go to the extend of divorcing each other. Financial is very bad for her family where the circumstances cum to sell her hse but her dad is insisting on selling it but her mum is fighting not to *wad da hell* (next time we must ask parents to grow up)
It seems nowadays Her Dad is not coming home regularly like everyday he does..he seems to be staying somewhere else which she feels dat her dad is having a second family..dis tot of her dad is having a second family is really building a strong instinct in her. I asked her how can u suspect like dat..den she said its juz the way he behaves and blah..i was like err..din wanna go in detail abt it..since the dad is not coming home..her mum has changed tremendously not for the good but for the worse..her mum has started to drink alcohol. *Damn man* she seems to be daily drinking infront of my fren and starts to blabber or wad so ever. *I got damn pissed* (how can parents be the role model man) her mum keeps on saying either she wants to commit suicide or she wants to divorce her husband. My fren wants her family to be intact together (tell me who doesn’t) but sometimes she feels its better for parents to go in separate ways.

Her dad seem to be coming home late and even shout at her for no reason but seriously speaking I also feel dat maybe he might have a second family or even..*I dun wish to comment abt it* Although her siblings are all grown up..dey dun seem to have the maturity at all..*No point growing up* she feels so suffocated abt dis whole problem and after quite long den she came to pour out sorrow to me.. I feel dat her parents need to go for counseling *like as though dey wld listen or change* First her dad shld be sincere to the only one family where he belongs. And he shld be coming home on time to check on kids and have a conversation and blah..*if only miracle happens* her parents shld be talking with each other and I seriously feel dat both of dem dun have a mutal understanding at all…when I asked her how long her parents are married and she said 26yrs..i was like oh okies..and I guess after the silver jubilee of marriage for 25yrs and in the 26th year dey forgot to understand each other..*oh my*

She said she feels lost and suffocated due to all the happenings in her hse..outside the four walls of her family the society thinks they are leading a happy life..but only when u really see thru there are so much of cracks in the wall..where any moment its gonna break and fall..
She simmered and cried and said she dun noe wad to do and she lost her sleep due to dis..
Whenever she sees a happy family she holds back her tears.. I seriously can feel wad she is going thru..and I really think she is brave enuff to be still going on coz if it was another person in her shoes things wld be totally different.. Anyway before I even blog abt her family I asked her permission and she said ok but she asked me why I wanted to blog..okies da reason why I chose to blog abt dis is becoz sometimes we feel dat we are living the most shittest life and da most atrocious one too..but think twice..dere are people who actually go thru more den u. and also if any parents do blog I guess they shld change their mindset to how to lead a happy family and fight back all problems and even if u are married for 1yr or even 60yrs..dun let the love and mutal understanding to be hidden away or u urself erase it away. Try talking things out and be a role model..

This is a true story and I am not kidding, da pain which I saw in her eyes made me tear.. I told her to pray coz I am da kind of person I trust god and myself more den anyone..and I noe very well that God never gives up on those who have sincere tears in their eyes and a shattered heart with a broken or breaking family..i said if u think if u dun have anyone..think again and I wld appear..aightz..people think abt wad I have written and if u wanna comment u can go ahead but plz dun be mean or wad so ever.. Life is not bed of roses but if we cld see the torn remove it and go ahead with the journey of life.


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