IT'S TIME TO BLABBER
Life in ITE is getting busier. Though it might make me stress and tired I am seriously enjoying the fun though lolz. At last my BZC Presentation is done. When I wanna talk abt BZC Presentation I got reminded of my fren SK’s blog entry..she was talking abt Ms Lee’s expectations and comments. I also feel that wad SK said is true, the teacher gives bad comments on the good ones and the not that expectation ones are getting better comments..lolls..anyway I find everyone’s presentation is actually good. Just depends on the topic and how they present it. Today I liked Syamsiah’s and SK’s presentation. I love their powerpoint slides.
Lets talk abt CCA. Now I have two CCA and am happy abt it. One is MIC Studio and the other is Bridge Leader which I juz joined. There is an upcoming camp. Ready to go for that. For MIC Studio I’m under the acting…sometimes I juz wonder am I in the right place or not.
Class Projects. PR Campaign is done except the Presentation. Arrrggghhh we are the 1st group to present. Really hope that things goes on well…Then comes the other big project which is the Event Management Project. Though I might be the Event Director, I have always played a part as a normal member too. The only thing saddens me is that not many people wants to participate and etc. Whatever I say, my fren Wen Xiang has something against me. Whenever he keeps on saying that the Director has not much power or when he says he must be the incharge, it makes me feel that I am not doing a good job or I am neither fit to be incharge…lolz..anyway its part and parcel of life. We practically can’t please everyone. But he has the nice side of him also. Where else when he speaks like that the other guy Fabian..ahh..he said I am a nice person..lolls..The dateline of the competition has changed..I need to submit report, and each department need to do powerpoint presentation and also reports. I really hope that this event would be a success..I juz leave it to fate.
Exams…oh my holy cow……ahhh…its nearing..and the studious nerd myself have yet to prepare or even revise. Damn.. I need to study and get better grades then previous exam. Atleast PR and BZC I know how and what to study but for EVM I am still wondering what and how to study..LOL!!!
Friday, 24 Feb 2006. It was really fun. I had to write an immediate announcement to make in the morning assembly regarding the competition. I only got the msg in the morning 6:45am when I was still on my bed…grrrr…but when I was on my way to school, I wrote the announcement on a paper in the MRT..while I was doing that, my HP juz dropped..This is wad I call Morning Embarrassing Moment (MEM) den once I got down at bishan rush down to school. Saw Mrs Lee, gave her the announcement paper and she was telling the councilor how to make the announcement and blah blah…
One hr b4 the breaktime, the booth was open and we all took a lot of pics..was fun..and then..it was the last lesson EVM. After that Ting Ha, Grace and Shi Ting and myself were waiting for Kelly so that we all can go home together. While waiting there were some boys from Dover ITE to do a survey. Then Kelly came and she also did the survey. When we were leaving the guy introduce himself as Johnathan and I and Kelly intro ourselves. Then he said he will add us in friendster..Hmm the morale of the story..lolls..Friendster really has made an impact on everyone on earth who noes how to use the PC..hehehe..So lame anyway…wahahahhaha..
Talking abt Friendster I have yet to receive and testimonials lately…so sad…haiz…*hints at everyone* Even my bestie is still thinking what to write in my testimonial!!! *Stares at her*
Then…The ABC Story…A was asking B “hey are u coming over” B replied “yeah but dun tell C” and den A said “okay” then A and B happily walked…lolz..but the best part ABC are frenz…and the other best part ABC are my frenz lolz..that’s the end of the story of ABC…I noe u people might be tinking I am lame..its okay..i shall take dat as my 2nd name..lol
There comes Saturday…ahh..the 1st half of the day was quite a lil bored…stayed at home..did some hsework..study a lil only…den watched two vcds…dat shows how bored I was…den met shamz, madhz and punetha sis….sat and talk..had fun…den shamz had to leave…do left with me, punetha sis and madhz..got back home..den we three went down again wif my nephews…damn fun…how wld it be for a 20yrs, 22yrs and 29yrs to play catching in the playgrd…actually to be frank…it was seriously fun…damn..i cld not stop laughing..yeah..den cycled for awhile…got back home…freshen myself…ahh…was watching movie…dats it Saturday is gone just like dat…grrrr…
Sometimes I feel that we are parting or shld I say drifting…or I juz dun noe if I’m juz dreaming.. Let me tell u all something… “In a relationship, be it Father, Mother, Brother, Sister or Friend basis, if we need them more than they need us, we will become more like a puppy or dog to dem.” At times it is true…haiz…
Sunday..oh my…wad a boring day…was practically rotting at home. Juz reading magazines, watching tv, bumming ard..blah blah…gosh… Then as usual it will be Monday..i am juz waiting for the PR project and presentation to be over and also the EVM…
As I was reading Sunday Times and Sunday New Paper…so much of news abt our ex prime minister, foreign minister and also the minister for culture. Mr Sinnathamby Rajaratnam who jus left the world on Wednesday. There was a state funeral for him held on Saturday and I think every Singaporean should actually be proud for all the things he did for Singapore. A man with determination and should also be the role model for all young generations. I really like the words he quote abt death. He said “ Now I am sleeping and if anyone cries after I am gone I will be happy that atleast I made an achievement in life and made an impact on others. Atleast I have someone who is sadden by my death.” I feel what he said is so true. Even if I die one day….if anyone actually really cried for me…den I wld be the happiest person infact coz atleast I did made an impact on someone and afterall someone is sadden by my death and misses me…
But in reality how many people actually think of the people who have left the world. The most, they would cry one the day the person dies and then life goes on blah…and would not have time…but we should not judge the world juz by looking at one side. There are people who still think of the people who have left the world. To quote an example would be me and a fren who I have lost. I lost him to bike accident on 26 August 2001. A fren who everyone loves. A man where every gal wants him to be the bf. His name is Suresh Kumar. But my bestfren and myself call him Hippo. The nick has got nothing to do wif his size, juz a cute name for the most adorable person. I have always looked upon him as my guardian angel. I would tell myself he is looking at u from above and I noe he is. If I have another life, I would want him to be my fren again. As my best fren and myself have lost him becoz he met wif a bike accident, now my bestie forbidden me from taking bike license or even ride a bike. Anyway I have always have an interest for bikes, and am sure one day I would own and ride one..
Coming to the conclusion of my blog entry…I think I have spoken more den I wad I should..but once again…my entries are my point of view and wad I feel. This is not to hurt anyone and if my entries have made u realize certain things..its good..if it had pricked ur heart den u shld noe wad to do..Adiyoz…
Scribbled by Breaks Da Hearts Of Many Guys.
PEOPLE IN OUR LIFE
A world full of betrayers, liars, cheaters, backstabbers etc, but the world is still alive without being destroyed is because of some good souls who always revive the world from the deathbed. I also do know some good souls and at the same time vice versa.
I didn’t want to write about it at all..but then I feel that I will be a lil relieved after writing. Event Management Project. I was voted by some of my classmates to take over the job as an Even Director. I am really happy that I have atleast made an impression on some that I am a responsible and reliable person. But at the same time, we can’t please everyone.
The project is really going on well in my point of view. The committee is being split into 4 departments which are Public Relations, Marketing, Production and Accounting.
To be frank all the 4 departments are really working hard and I wld like to take this opportunity to say thkz.
Even though most of them smile at me and nods to whatever instruction I say, there are some who feel that I am demanding and never give a chance for their feedback. The most funny part is that some say I am very bossy. In my 22 years of life this is the 1st time someone ever use that word to describe me. To be honest, actually it hurts to know that those who smile at you are the ones who are actually talking at the back of you. I am not saying everyone. If this sentence pricked your heart then you shall be guilty. This is not just a one person project but also involve the class. We are doing it as a class. Everybody’s cooperation is needed. Need to give and take, listen and respect. Maybe I have forced you people to do certain things, but if I don’t things won’t be working and demanding people is not my style of working.
I know very well with the help of my sixth sense, some of you are not happy with me. Its okay, I don’t blame you all coz I am neither an angel. I am trying my level best to make this event a successful one. That’s all I needed. Not anything more than that. If you still think that I am bossy and forcing you all, the least I cld do is apologise. But those who feel that what I am doing is right, I am grateful to you all. Though it might just be a small matter, it hurts that’s y. I am also a normal human being who have feelings. I just don’t know what else to write abt..i shall juz end it here with tears streaming down my cheeks.
Thanks for reading..
Scribbled by Breaks Da Hearts Of Many Guys.
Happy Valentine's Day
WOMEN
If you kiss her, you are not a gentleman.
If you don’t, you are not a man.
If you praise her, she thinks you are lying.
If you don’t, you are good for nothing.
If you make a romance, you are an experienced man.
If you don’t, you are a half man.
If you visit her too often, she thinks it’s boring.
If you don’t, she accuses you of double crossing.
If you well dressed, she says you are a playboy.
If you don’t, you are a playboy.
If you are jealous, she says its bad.
If you don’t, she thinks you don’t love her.
If you attempt a romance, she says you don’t respect her.
If you don’t, she thinks you don’t like her.
If you are a minute late, she complains it is hard to wait.
If she is late, it’s a girl thing.
If you visit by another, she accuses of being heeled.
If she is visited by another, Oh its natural..we are girls.
If you kiss her too many, she yells that you are taking advantage.
If she talks, she wants you to listen.
If you listen, she wants you to talk.
Oh God, you created those beautiful creatures called girls.
So weak, yet powerful
So simple, yet complex
So confusing, yet desirable.
Well ladies I know some of you might agree to wads written above but wadeva it is its my opinion. We women always blame the men if anything goes wrong and etc. But why don’t we give them a chance to explain themselves. When we call the males MCP they get irritated but when we call the females bitch they take it as a cool comment. I seriously don’t understand the human beings. By the way i am not saying all men out there are an angel or a gentleman..ahem..
Wadever it is….Coming to the point I would like to wish everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day! This day is not only celebrated among couples but for everyone. Be it u are single, brother, sister, parents, relatives, cuzins, nephews and nieces, lastly and most importantly frens.
Its not a necessary that u shld give a bouquet as a gift or choc, candies etc…it can be anything…if its made by urself ahh..its more memorable. Oh ya…u shld not only show ur appreciation of love on Valentine’s Day but everyday. So come on people show more love, care and concern to everyone…once again Happy Valentine’s Day To Everyone!
Scribbled by Breaks Da Hearts Of Many Guys.
On the 28 Jan 2006 Saturday, I had a great time. Celebrated my buddy Madhan’s 20th Birthday at Sembawang Beach. Had so much of fun and laughter. On that day itself in the morning I took the lift to go my cuzin’s hse. In the same lift was the sweeper. Ok shall be more respective. He is Mr Cleaner the reason behind every clean HDB flat in Yishun lolz. Well he and I took the same lift and he kept asking me some questions in Malay which I seriously didn’t understand but I kept smiling, laffing and nodding my head which eventually was the correct answer for wadeva he was telling me. I know I made a fool out of myself but its okay..normal in life..lolz After the beach party came back home and was watching my fav movie on TV.
Coming to a point to what I shall blabber abt this time..hmm..so shall begin my blabbers..I feel that as time flies I am more Byzantine or is it that the people ard me find it dat way. To be honest I am selfish when it comes to love and friendship but is it a crime to be like dat. I dun noe.. But as when I sat down and ponder I realize its not a healthy way to maintain the friendship or love by being selfish. I have realized that friends do not need to talk everyday or meet up every single day but am I able to withstand it. Guess I leave that to fate. My life has been breaking down in a staggering rate. It seems like I am falling apart. I am devastated. Err..wait a minute am I suffering from psychosomatic. I seriously dun noe. Hey but dun worry I dun harm anyone LOLz…
As I was watching tv..i heard him snore. I could have woken him up but I know he is sleeping soundly after a tiring day. As I looked at him, my thoughts when back to those days..I missed the days when I sat on his lap and he tickled me, when he carried me throughout not to make my feet feel the tiredness, when we hold hands took a stroll down the park. The time I slept on his chest, when we had breakfast, lunch and dinner together. I really missed all this..a lot of things have changed due to time. But to his eyes he thinks I am a princess but to me I feel I am slave who is under his control. Some times I really feel he is too disciplinary and over protective but to him this is part of being protective and showing his love. But I dun agree. I might be 22 but to him I guess I am still only 12yrs..i ain’t sure. He thinks I am fine wif everything but he never realize the emotional pain I’m going through. Maybe even I wouldn’t know if he is going through a rough patch in his life. No matter wad he will be my best daddy. As I sat down and open my remembrance box.. so many letters, gifts cute cards and etc.. all those were given to me when I was in sec sch some are even like 5yrs old man.. esp the letters they make me laugh whenever I read them. I really missed those times where my bestie wld make a card for me with no reason..and even write me an letter even when she is juz in da same class as me..lolz..those are beautiful memories. But now guess we have grown up so she thinks sms is more convenient..lolz.. There was this particular letter my bestie wrote..and let me quote a particular part from that letter..this is how its goes.. “Life is full of problems..tell me who doesn’t have? Even a new born baby has a problem thinking which diaper suits the butt.” Okay this part of the letter made me giggle..coz I find it cute and it made me realize life is imperfect.
I assume beautiful beginnings and endings all happens only in fairy tales. Each day is a new beginning of life. So we juz have to go with the flow. The month of February is here..which is known as the month of LOVE..hmm..we shall see if the cupid points the arrow at me..lolz..kidding..Do you all know why am I always cheerful…coz I make a comedy out of my tragedy…
How to cope as an insomnia patient? You might be wondering who is the patient suffering from Insomnia. Its none other then me. Yesh. I can’t sleep well. I have been like awake till 2am and den I knock out within an hour I’m bright awake. I dun noe why is my mind being disturbed. Many people has advised me juz close ur eyes and u can sleep. But I have tried all means juz cannot sleep. My last resort will be sleeping pills. But No I wld never go to that extend. I dun wanna take any risk. All I need is juz a peaceful sleep and for that I need to clear my mind. I’m not having a software program in my mind which I can delete easily. Its all the beautiful and ugly happenings of life which I can’t easily remove. I’m not a typical human being…I’m different. Maybe I’m not human at all.. So which is the truth? The size of my heart is just the size of my fist. It may look small but the weightage is even heavier then I tot or expected. Nah no point brooding over it. Guess I have really blabbered a lot Or more then expected. Hope there isn’t anyone who is against of wad I have said. If u have..i have no problem. After all, its life on Earth. Everybody has a say. Aightz..dats all for now AdiyoZ….
I Am Trying To Scream, But I Can’t Breathe.
I Am Trying To Dream, But I Can’t Sleep.
I Shut My Eyes And Hold My Cries To Myself.
Scribbled by Breaks Da Hearts Of Many Guys.
