i have been wondering wad makes the changes in everyone suddenly..when dey dun have da special someone..they are seem to be soo attach to the friend but once they have found the special someone..oh my...they seem to be carried along..i noe some of my frenz might think i am hiniting at you..well i am actually trying to tell wad i feel..in anyway some people might think i am lonely depressive and etc..dats y i am talking like this...well this is all from my life experience..

From wad i noe i think i have less friends actually..and i really dun noe trhe reason...but i noe i have a special fren in life...and i have always want her to be my special fren..she was and she is still my special fren...but juz now i feel she is a lil further away from me...coz she is now attached...hmm looks like those who are attached are living in their own world..but let me get this clear..i am not blaming everyone who are attached are like this...some noes very well how to balance bought their relationship and friendship...i have realised dat everone has taught me something abt life...Feeling lonely makes me feel irritated...i have my tantrums thrown at others...damn i noe its sooo wrong...guess i need to make myself occupied...seriously.. There was dis incident where i noe dat my fren had met her bf yest so guess she is free i called her out for lunch..but to my suprise she said sorry gal i am going lunch wif my bf...i was really taken back.. coz as far as i noe her..she could have asked me whether i wanna join her and her bf for lunch...but no she din...its ok...maybe she wanted to spend everyday of the days wif him..lol.. or maybe i shld not have interuptted...i am sorry gal if i am pricking ur nerves..juz wanna say dat da pain for me is even worse...anyway i have learnt my lessons....

I did talk to her abt dis issue...which made me understand everything abt friendship and relationship...if i had not talked wif u i wldn't have realised dat i am in da wrong..so i wld like to say Sorry...i noe u are soo gonna screw me left right...wahaha..but i dun care coz no matter wad in da end u are my fren...i wld neva let go of you at all...even if u are letting my hand go baby...

Aightz now...let now...i seriously think i am gonna flop my accts exam...gosh..da teacher keeps saying i am gonna fail the paper..sometimes i feel she is right...LOL...anyway i really hope i can pass through coz after da exam no more accts..damn happy...and yeah life is getting pretty interesting...alot of things are happening...and i am pretty shock dat i am a good role model in someones life...hmm...INTERESTING!!! LOL i have got juz few more weeks for my exams...really need to buck up...and enjoy life at the moment is a NO to me..i am looking for a part-time job...so if anyone noes of any plz msg me...dankz...i am gonna keep myself occupied... i want to achieve something in life...become famous in a good way..help people who are helpless.. oh my so much i wanna do...but i have yet to realise wad are my capabilities, talent etc...damn.... My mum keep asking my photo guess she is gonna look for a bridegroom for me... LOL i am soo gonna get arranged marriage...but its soo not my type...haiz...

Falling in love is such a beautiful thing...but whenever i fall i end up hurting myself...sooner or later i think i am gonna suffer from love phobia...wahahahahh *kidding* alrightz...nothing much to tell abt...if there is anything u wan me to blog and elaborate abt..plz do tell..i will try my level best...dankz...Live Every Second As though Its Your Last!!!