I think dat i seriously need to see a doc abt my condition..lolz..i am feeeling freaking lonely..depressed..angry..oh my!!! my temper is hitting on my nerves man..seriously dun noe why..i have not been blogging coz i was busy..yesh busy...i am either bored to the max or super duper busy..!!! hmm..well do u guys believe in astrology and stuff..actually i do believe for a certain limitation..yeah one point of time i followed my mum to see an astrologer...and do u noe wad he said..lolz..he said i am good gal...gosh dat is da most biggest lie...coz i am rebellious..actually not much..i have a good side of me man...and oh ya he said dat falling in love does not work out for me...coz for me is only arrange marriage...oh gosh...falling in love is sooo beautiful yet freaking shit hurting...but i am happy dat i can't go thru it and also sad dat i wun fall in love..i mean love does not work out for me..grr...i wish at times i wld be in love..in a relationship..spend da day wif someone who loves u more den his life...arghh...guess i gotta wait...but wads da point in waiting...some guys are juz not romantic as we dream of....lolz..anyway..i am not interested in a relationship..haha..do u think i am really not...lolz..forget abt it...

i think i am going nuts man...i am flaring for no reason actually i have my reasons..but its difficult to make people see da reason man...my one week holidays are juz gone wif da wind..so fast..had a grt time at Panguni...and yeah..now gonna make myself study man..i seriously wanna study and get my arse graduated...arghhh....i juz dun believe dat i studied today...lolz...actually i wanted to go and watch movie...but den tot its a waste of money for the time being..so shall juz save it and go home and study..oh my...haiz..oh ya my best fren today went out...hmm..hope atleast she had a grt day...somewhere in my heart keeps on saying she had a grt day..*smilez*

After the one week holidays back to skool...oh my...it was like suppose to be fun when u meet ur frenz and stuff...but it was total opposite man..all were so quiet...dun understand why also...argghhhh.....feel like juz screaming man!!!! today da 1st lesson was BSA..ahh...learn access...den suppose to be SOT but da teachers were not in skool..therefore we were told to go to another class..and yesh we did...and dere..da whole class seem to be in deir own world man...oh gosh...dey either seat in a grp of deir own or as in partners...neva think of those who are alone...okies...my classmates...those who read my blog...to be frank i am a very noisy loud talkative person..neva been quiet..but since i join dis class i feel so out of space...left out loney..blah blah and blah...i juz dun noe why man...oh gosh...in my 21yrs life dis is da 1st time i am soo quiet and to myself...looks like every1 has deir own grp or partner or fren...me i am in a world of my own..why..Why...and WHY!!!! and yesh people....i am not who u think i am...if u r good to me i will be da best to u..but if u bad to me..u will live to regret...i am not saying all this out of self praise but to let u noe guys...da real me..haiz...i noe dere are people put dere who talked behind my back and stuff...seriously if u gotta problem wif...talk it out straight to me..i am a very straight forward person...i juz dun wanna say or do anything...juz leave it god and my heart to make da decisions..coz i believe in god and wad my heart says...and yeah anyway...after dat 2hrs of free..freaking boring period...was break time...ahh...i juz dun noe who to go wif and seat wif...coz dere was no one..every1 wen deir own way...i noe..u might think i am lame...let it be..anway i went to da canteen...dere i saw joanna, xiu jing and wei wei...and i placed my bag dere...and when i wen to buy my food...i saw Yana and Rashidah also queing up da same stall...so dey asked me..whether can join me..so i said np...so we six of us were seating together...ate...talked awhile...and yesh...break was over...den its was EFW..den one hr gone...and da last lesson was SW...oh god...its was suppose to be a lesson where u can have fun and stuff..but it was da most freaking boring part of da day man!!! some wen to play netball..some played so called football...some were juz standing and giving post...some were missing...and i guess some noe very well dat i was not in a good mood...and dere was dis point of time where i really kicked da ball wif my temper even my shoe came flying..oh gosh...okies...gals...i dun mean to show my temper to u all...coz i noe dats not fair...but plz...have some class spirit...atleast some teamwork....to me Friends mean alot and i respect each and every of my fren...so hope u do treasure me also..

Right now....i am soo super bored...juz felt like throwing all what i have been feeling and going thru...haiz...and in dis case if i have hurt anyone...my sincere apologies...aighzt...people..

*You look at me and think, "She is soo Happy" but there is soo much behind this little smile of mine*

dis is a quote which i like alot...AdiyoZ!!!!