i cry and cry and cry till all da tears are dried up man...goshh..probab;y my tear dict is like damn dry...have been going thru alot..and i dun have solutions for dat..my heart hurts when i smile..whe my heart is filled wif hurt...god...wad did i di in my last generation man...dat i am going thru alot...ya..guess u people wldn't noe my emotional side...a side which i dun show often and dun like to show...da person who noes wads my lil heart is yearning and going thry...wld be shamz...damn..of she is not dere...i dun think so i wld be like here blogging..probably wld be chatting wof god..haha..serious she saved me alot of times...and i realli dank god and angles for sending her to me..shemini u are da best...and not forgetting my cuzin sis...she is my mother...ahh....i used to be in a happy family and now its shattered into pieces...and well not many noe...my heart is weak..and my emotional break down can cayse my heart to faill.and i dun wan it to fail coz i have so many things i wanna achieve in life....2003 it was worse...2004..god plz save me...2005??? i am worried...plz....god hear me atleast once...and i noe dat no matter wad my durgai amman is dere for me..and as well as my cuzins and frenz...but sometimes its not easy to get over being hurt...da pain is worse....ahh....i love to make people smile..and i am happy dat i am da reason dat dey are smiling....but who is da reason behind my tears...who???...i noe dere are people who are leading a worse life den me...but...diff people life is diff...humans...hmm...dey complain alot abt others...dey talk abt others...but dey forgot to look at demselves 1st...dere are people who say i am useless...stoopid and stuff...well i am proving dat dey are wrong coz i am doing wel in ITE a place which i neva dream i wld go....dere are people who say i ain't good looking and stuff...but i tried my level best to change my style of dressing and stuff...but still i do get dat "durga why ur face like dis...ike dat...." wah...and if da person who is telling dis kinda comments is ur own mother...how wld u feel...how wld u feel when she compares u wif other kids...even compare wif my own frenz and cuzins...god..my mum is da reason for my low ic..LOL....wad i yearn for i din get it frm da person whom i wanted to get frm...instead i got it frm da people i din expect...and dey showered me wif so much love....which i can neva be leftout amd life without dem wld be miserable...and dey are shamz and my cuzin sis...love u guys to bits...yeah...life is like damn man for me...dun noe where are my answers....*walks away* if guys wanna noe who is shemini...here is her pic...take a look
dis is shemini...lolz...kiddin

what i am feeling...