I am Fallin In and Outta Love

Story Continues

2009-03-22T04:25:00.010+08:00

Hello readers, before i continue with my story, i shall re-intro my characters as some of you all suggested i give an individual intro as my video was not much clear. Therefore sit-back relax and enjoy the story..Once again, all suggestions are welcomed :)

From top left: Charulatha, Dharmesh, Shridharani,
Bottom Left: Gautham Varma, Pranasha, Sumesh

Left: Pranasha , Right Shridharani

Chapter 5

Dharmesh waited at the station but, there was no sign of Dharani. He went to work. She was early for work. Morning!!! Greeted Pranasha, “Good morning” said Dharani. So how was yesterday night, any spark? Asked Nasha..Dharani explained to her what happen last after she went home.. Nasha was shocked and she said “Well I know why you did not want to try the top he bought for you but he did not know and you should have told him. How can I tell..what am I suppose to tell that I’m..she stopped there cause her boss walked to their table to give them their task.

Dharani said, we shall talk later..Nasha just sighed and went to do her work. It was going to be lunch time and Dharani did not receive any call or message from Dharmesh, so she messaged while she was about to type her message, she received one from Dharmesh saying “hi, busy? Did not get to see you today, is everything fine?” She was contemplating on whether to tell him or not..but instead, she replied “hello, ya had some urgent work to be done so had to go work earlier. I’m sorry about yesterday night, one day I will explain to you.” He on the other side, was wondering what was the problem..

It was lunch time, as Dharani and Pranasha went out for lunch, while walking she saw him from far, so Dharani pulled Pranasha and hid behind a pillar. Nasha went “Ouch..what was that for” Dharani while she rest her head on the pillar, closing her eyes and clenched her fist and said to Nasha, “that is him” “Who” asked Nasha. The guy walking with the Black stripe shirt with white pants, he is Sumesh.

Dharani, have you gone mad? Why are you hiding yourself, If I were you I would walk across him and show him that I am living a better life than he can imagine, said Nasha.

No..No..we shall go the other way, said Dharani. Oh hell no, we are going to walk across, and Nasha pulled Dharani and walked across, Sumesh and Dharani’s eyes met but Dharani was dragged by Nasha. The girl beside Sumesh asked, who is she? He replied “a woman whom I am trying to forget”

During lunch, Nasha asked, if it is bothering you, why not have a talk with Dharmesh and tell him about Sumesh. Dharani said if it was so simple, I would have..Well one day you have to tell him, and I guess the earlier the better. Or if you don’t feel like telling, I will tell Dharmesh, said Nasha. Oh no..please..somehow I will tell him. said Dharani.

Lunch time was over, Dharmesh got a message. His message ringtone rang as “You got a message from Shridharani” he immediately went to his desk to take his phone. The sms conversation:

Dharani: had your lunch?

Dharmesh: yes girl, how about you?’

Dharani: yes, by the way will be free on Friday, we shall meet up for dinner.?

Dharmesh: ohh sure no problem

Dharani: anyway just want to inform you, we will be meeting at the train platform this week due to my tight schedule.

Dharmesh: ohhh okiess, we shall keep in touch through sms. Take care, see ya on Friday.

Dharani: you take care too, see ya on Friday.

They kept in touch with each other through sms daily. Nasha asked Dharani, so have you thought about telling it to him. Don’t take too much time, cause I do not want him to find out first and seeing you in broken pieces. She smiled and told Nasha, “you are my best buddy babe” Nasha smiled and said “ahh as always “

Chapter 6

It was Friday, “wow..where are you heading to today after work? Dress to kill uh.” Said Nasha after looking at Dharnai. She looked at Nasha and said “you are always playful, am meeting up with Dharmesh for dinner, you want to join us? “WOW!!! That is exciting and oh no I am not coming, I do not wish to carry a torch for the two souls who are falling in love in the dark night” said Nasha. “Gosh you are so cheesy” hahaha laughed Nasha and said no am being truthful. So where are you guy heading for dinner? Asked Nasha. We are meeting at Esplanade but yet to decide where to have dinner. Any suggestions? Asked Dharani. “Hmm..hey Esplanade, there is a nice dining place. Its called ‘The Cosy Us’ said Nasha.. sounds interesting, tell me more about it. said Dharani.

“The food is really yummy and its affordable and gosh the most romantic part, is the ambience. Its more of a couple dining place. The are no chairs the floor is carpeted at each dining area. The table is like a Japanese concept but in a heart shaped form. The are cushions at each table for the couples to have a comfy seat. The whole place is dimmed and every table is surrounded by a few scented candles and the waiter and waitress walks with a tray in their hand which has a candle on it. Each dining area is built small and comfy so that the couples will not even feel the distance even when dining,” said Nasha.

“Wow, that sounds so interesting, and by the way how did you got to know about this place. Ahh, sometimes when I go for speed dating, some of my dates brings me different places to eat and one of them is this. Said Nasha. Speed dating ?? that sounds even more interesting. said Dharani. Ahh shut up, since you have someone, you don’t need to worry about that, told Nasha. Well nothing is confirmed, so keep me updated about speed dating okay, replied Dharani. They laughed off and carried on with work.

Dharani, received a message

Dharmesh: so today confirm right, 7pm at Esplanade?

Dharani: yes, we shall have our dinner at “The Cosy Us

Dharmesh: The Cosy Us?? Where is that, I was not even updated about this place Dharani: “Lol, no worries, you meet me at the mrt station, we shall go from there.

Dharmesh: okay see ya at 7pm

Dharani: ok see ya later

Shridharani & Dharmesh

Chapter 7

She was there at 7pm, but he was late 10 mins, when he rushed to where she was waiting, she was not even angry, she just told him “finally you are here” She offered him a piece of tissue as he was a perspiring at his forehead. He took the tissue and he took something from at the back of him and gave it to her. “oh my, this is really beautiful” so are you late because of this” she asked him. He replied, oh not really, it was pre-ordered but a small delay due to the words. It was a 3 red roses in a small bouquet, where in each rose on the petals it was written in white, Shridharani I miss you. It was so beautiful that she kept holding on to it so protectively. She told him, thank you so much, it is really beautiful.

He smiled at her and said, you are welcome and what a co-incidence we are both wearing black. She went “oh ya..” he looked at her and said “Dharani you look much more beautiful like a red rose in a black long sleeve chudditar. (Indian traditional costume)

The silver embroidery near the neck line is simply nice. She looked at him..”jeesh you do observe a lot and thanks for the compliment. They went to the restaurant “The Cosy Us”

The waited for the order to come, till den she was asking him about the words in the rose petals. “So tell me how did you manage to do the words on the petals” He told her, oh I asked the same question to the florist” She gave gave him the ‘I am going to strangle you look’ He laughed and said ok, “there is a new computer laser system, where you can print what words you want on the rose petals without harming the rose. So I found it innovative and gave it a try. She was like it is really nice.

Their food came, wow, mm..yummy, so how did you know about this place said Dharmesh. She replied “Speed dating” He nearly spit his drink. You went for speed dating? He asked innocently, she laughed and said “hahahaha no not me, it was Pranasha who recommended me. Oh Nasha..I see, so how is she, send my regards to her” he told. Ya sure, anyway what’s wrong in me going for speed dating asked Dharani. He told her “oh no nothing is wrong, I was just curious. By the way you curled your hair, asked Dharmesh, “yes just the bottom of my hair, is it nice? She asked, he told her, yes

Dinner was good, they walked around, and took a cab home, he got down with her under her blk. She was like “hey thanks for the wonderful dinner and for sending me back home. He told her “its my pleasure” she smiled at him and said “not forgetting the bouquet, it was the most sweetest surprise, I feel bad that I did not get you any gift. He looked at her and said, if you want to give me a surprise, you wear the top I gave you. That will be the surprise for me. She was shocked. He waved his hands infront of her face. He asked “are you okay” she said ya I am fine.

Chapter 8

She asked, do you want to come home we can have a chat, he shrugged his shoulders and said, no problem unless you mind. She said “have a seat, make yourself home, I will be back. He went to the kitchen to got a glass of water for himself. While she was in the room, holding on to the top he gave her in her hands with tears streaming down her cheeks. Finally she made her decision, she wiped her tears, she changed to black pants and wore the top, she walked out from her room.

She came out of her room, wrapped in a black shawl, to where he was sitting. He looked at her and said, I thought you are going to wear the top and show me, nevermind you can wear it one day when you really feel like wearing it. She stood right infront of him, took of her shawl. When he saw her, he immediately stood up. But she knelt down and cried. Her body was full of cuts, scars and cigarette butts mark. His eyes was filled with tears, he knelt down, and hold her by her shoulders and asked, how did this happen? She cried as she asked “so have you got your surpise or are you shocked,” He lifted her head by her chin and asked who did this to you? She replied my husband, Sumesh. He pushed himself back to the sofa and asked “you are married?” she told him, “I was” he went closer to her and wiped her tears, tell me from the beginning what happened Dharani.

Sumesh & Shridharani

They sat on the ground. Sumesh and I were Poly mates. He was a nice guy when I met him. He was smart, he was a quiet guy but sweet. We fell in love after a fight, and we started to date each other. Everyday he had something to surprise me, but that day I saw a different side of him, it was break time, but I had project work, so it was a pair project and my friend Gautham, and I was one pair. Dharmesh cuts in “Gautham” he was a good friend of mine during poly days but now we lost contact.

Ok, and then continue, As I was doing a project with Gautham, Sumesh felt left out and he became possessive. One day Gautham was pinched my cheeks and said you are so adorable, Sumesh saw that and he punched Gautham and he slapped me. I felt embarrassed and upset that because of me, Gautham got hurt. He was so possessive, when I told him I can’t go any longer with him like this. He pleaded with me so much that I felt for it. In a blink, I realise we were getting married. He was over possseive, short-tempered, but his sweetness won me. 6mths we got married, he became obsessive. My previous work place, was more of male oriented. He suspected me daily and tortured me 1^st with pinches then she scratched me with pen knive. But always after torturing me, he came crying to me and said sorry. I thought I could change him.

But things went different. He was totally changed. He started smoking, when began to question me, he burnt my arms with the cigarette butts. All of the above I forgive him. but the day I will never ever forget and forgive..

I was excited to tell him a happy news, when he came back from work, I told him, “Sumesh, come here, he came near to me and I asked him to touch my stomach, he gave me the blur look. I told him, its your child” he took his hand away, he pace up & down. He asked me, Whose child is it? I cried and told him its our Sumesh. He did not believe , in the moment of anger, he pulled my hair and slapped me, I turned around and knocked my womb against the corner of the table.

She started to cry even more..Dharmesh hushed her by holding on to her and laid her head on his shoulders..

Dharmesh asked “your baby??” She said that was the last day of me and Sumesh and my Baby. We filed for divorced and and officially divorced 3 years back.

We might be separated but the scars he has left on me has made me a less confidence person. That is the reason why I don’t wear short sleeves.

Now I am standing here with no one, just me. I am sorry I did not tell this to you earlier. When the 1^st time I met you, I knew we can be good friends but as days went, I started to fall for you. But I do not want to hide anything from you. I’m sorry, said Dharani. He looked into her eyes and said, I am not bother by your past. You are my Shridharani now. Your past is a nightmare, forget it and I will help you to forget it. He wiped her tears and laid her head on his lap. He hushed her to sleep. He said, I am here always for you. To me you are always my beautiful Dharani. She fell asleep on his lap.

“Everyone has secrets, but sometimes certain secrets should be said in order to continue a relationship and some must be hidden in order to save a relationship.

Dharmesh

Dharmesh has a secret. But he is wondering to tell Dharani now..or should he wait. Would she able to take another blow? Lets keep wondering.

My Story, My Pride

2009-03-09T01:52:00.004+08:00

I am not writing this because I need something to be blogged. But this story which I imagined and captured every still by my eyes. As I was traveling in the train, this whole story came to my mind.

I would like to tell all readers, this is based on my imagination and nothing else. If it has affected you in a way, pardon my apologies.

Title: Love You Till The End..It’s A Promise

The Hero – Dharmesh-
The Heroine – Shridharani

Support Hero – Sumesh, Gautham Varma
Support Heroine – Charulatha, Pranasha

The Cast: All of the cast are Models in Real Life, I have changed their name for my story. You can find their pictures in Indian Modelling Website.

Just as how my story is imagined when I was traveling in the train, their love story also begins in the train.

Chapter 1
They caught each other’s attention while they were on the escalator. While he was going up the escalator, she was in the opposite direction, going down. He was in his air-force uniform, while she was wearing a baby blue long sleeve chuditar (Indian tradition costume).

Days pass, weeks went. One day he picked his courage up and waited for her at the platform knowing she will board the train which he alights normally. Two days went, she never seem to appear. He was heart broken thinking that he would never see her again. But not losing his hope, on the third day, he waited, and he saw the walking beauty coming down the escalator. She saw him, standing with his arms crossed and looking at her. She was shocked. She thought to herself maybe he is waiting for someone, so she walked on the other side and waited for the train. He walked behind her and approached where she was sitting.

The 1st question, he asked, why didn’t you come for the past two days? I was waiting for you. She was stunned. Anyway, I’m Dharmesh. I know this is kind of weird but either one of us has to intro ourselves 1st, don’t you think so? She smiled at him and he was looking at her with the question mark face..ermm once again I’m Dharmesh and you are..

Ohh..i totally forgot to intro, I’m Shridharani. Sweet name he told her, she said thanks. Atleast now we know each other’s name, maybe we will get to know each other soon. She looked at him and said..yeah maybe…and she continued by the way, why were you waiting for me? He told, just for this opportunity. He smiled and told her, I got to go now, shall meet you here again tomorrow. He said bye and rushed off.

She was smiling to herself. As she went to work, her close colleague Pranasha caught Dharani smiling to herself. She went nearer and shouted “Caught Ya” Dharani was shocked. She asked what are you smiling at in the air? Dharani immediately said “no I was not smiling to myself, just doing my work”. Pranasha, told her “don’t lie, I saw you. So what’s the occasion? Dharani told her colleague whatever happened today.. Pranasha jumped with excitement and said “Oh my god, oh my god, this is love at 1st sight, I am so happy for you.” Dharani said Shh..this is not what you think, maybe he is just trying to be a nice friend. Pranasha said, whatever it is, I think this is love at 1st sight. Dharani said you and your nonsense and they got back to work.

The next day, this time she came a little earlier and waited too see what is happening. The train came, and he alighted, he saw her sitting exactly the same place, he approached and said Hi Shridharani, how are you? She smiled and said I’m fine. He asked, are you waiting for anyone, you seem early today. She said no, but when he looked into her eyes, he knew she was lying. He told her, where he was working etc, so she exchanged her job identity to him. She looked at him and was speaking inside her heart..Would he give his number, it would be so much easier to contact” it seems more like he read her mind cause he asked her, would you mind if we exchange numbers, it would be easier to contact. She looked lost, he waved his hand infront of her face and said “ hello, are you in the outer space?” she was like erm no..sorry what did you ask? He said I asked whether are in the outer space, she laughed and said no not that question, he was like ohh..sorry I asked whether do you mind, if we exchanged numbers. She nodded her head and replied, okay. They exchanged their numbers; he immediately called her to check whether she did save his number. He smiled and said just being precaution. The train came, he waited for her to board the train and he left to work.

At work, Pranasha asked, So dharani how is you love story going on? What was today’s episode? Dharani replied rubbish..what love story, She told her what happen today. Pranasha was happy for her friend, she shrugged her shoulders and said I don’t where this is going to lead to but it will be a happy ending. Dharani just nodded her head and thought to herself that her friend is crazy.

Chapter 2
During lunchtime, Dharani’s Hp rang, a message asking” taken ur lunch?” she smiled to herself, the message was from Dharmesh. She replied “yes and how abt u?” This time her phone rang and she answered, “Hello…said a voice, and she recalled and said Dharmesh? He said “yes, am calling from my office line”

That was their 1st conversation on the phone…

Everyday they began to meet each other at the train station. One fine day, he took up his courage once again and asked her “So Dharani, there is a new movie out, do you want to watch it with me? She looked at him, and went “hmm what movie?” He said it’s a love-comedy based story “The title is Secret Love. She said sounds interesting..he asked her so that means you agree to come with me to the movie right? She smiled, ya should not be a problem. Okay let’s fix it Saturday, 6pm show. She smiled and nodded her head.

Both of them were falling for each other secretly, but they either do not want to declare or they just do not realise it. They were each counting down the days, and finally it was Saturday. Before she leaves her home, she called her close buddy, Pranasha and told her she is having double thoughts to go for the movie. Her friend Sha encouraged her to go for the movie. Maybe its all for a good beginning. If anything emergency, better call me. I will be there in a jiff said Sha. Dharani told her thanks and went to meet him.

There he was waiting leaned against the wall, with his arms crossed, wearing a white long sleeve shirt with his sleeves folded above his wrist, with a dark denim jeans. He saw her coming towards him, wearing a baby pink ¾ sleeve chuditar with a small clutch in her hand, with a hair let down, and her wavy curls blown in air.

She approached towards him, and said Sorry, am I late? He smiled at her and no not at all. He told her, I must tell you that you really look beautiful. He smiled and she blushed and with her shy look, she said thanks.

While they walk to the theatre, she said you look nice in this white shirt. He smiled at her and said “thank you with a glee on his face”

The movie began, and she kept laughing a lot and they really enjoyed the movie as it was hilarious. He admired her laughter, the way she hold on to his arms at some point of the movie as she could not control her laughter, she realized that it was a little embarrassing for her, she took her hands away. Continued watching the movie.

After the movie, he told her I’m really famished, do you want to grab a bite, since she was hungry, she said ok.

They went to the nearest restaurant, a simple yet a beautiful ambience. He told her that the food there is really yummy. So she wanted to give it a try. While waiting for the food, they were discussing on the movie they watched, the funny moments and etc.

Chapter 3
The days went, they met often. Time gave them the opportunity to get to know each other. But somehow, Dharmesh always wanted to ask Dharani a question which he actually was reluctant to ask at 1st. One fine day, when they met for lunch, he asked her, Dharani, would you mind if I asked you something. She stopped whatever she was doing and looked at him with a surprise in her eyes. As she has no idea what he is going to ask her. He looked at her, and he asked, why is it that you always like to wear long sleeves? She looked at him and chuckled. She said “because I don’t own any short sleeves..”

They just laughed and took it as a joke, suddenly out of the blue she asked, how many ex-girlfriend you have. He took a moment of silence and he answered, none. She was shocked. Thinking in her heart, such a guy, yet he is single.. He asked her, so did any guy managed to lock your heart? She smiled at him and said no.

They went back home. Both of them was thinking, whether to tell that they are fond of each other or should they give themselves more time..

She smsed, Dharmesh and asked whether will he be free on coming Saturday night? He said yes, and asked what was the occasion, she told him, it was the moment where I came to this world. He was like oh my its your Birthday. I am free, so what’s the treat, he asked. She said not much but a few dishes cooked by myself. He was even much pretty excited. That’s cool he said. Okies count me in. SMS me your add, and see me there. She smiled to herself and said alright. Immediately she called Pranasha and asked her to come over too. Pranasha was excited to meet Dharmesh and she said of cause I’ll be there.

The following day, Dharmesh & Dharani met at the station in the morning at their usual spot. He walked to her and said “Heyz,Goodsy Morning” She was like Hi Morning to you too. Hmm..you seem very happy today..any good news? He was like uh? What can give you more happiness than looking at your face everyday in the morning. He said” She was like “Jeessh, where did you learn such a mushy line? She laughed. He said nowhere, just felt like telling it to you. She gave him a shy smile. So how’s your birthday preparation going on he asked, well its fine. Ahh that’s good, hmm what gift do you want for your birthday? She said “just your presence will do” He looked at her, they exchanged a smile through their eyes. Her train came and spoilt the moment. She said bye to him and board the train to work.

Pranasha was eagerly waiting for Dharani at her cubicle. Once Dharani sat at her desk, she was smiling to herself. “Caught ya, said Pranasha. What are you smiling at? Ohhh I know, you met him before you came to work right? Dharani innocently asked who is the him that you are referring to? Pranasha stared and said, Dharmesh, who else will I ask.
He is coming for your Birthday right; I am excited to meet him. She just giggled. Nasha went closer to Dharani and asked, what gift do you think he is going to surprise you with? Dharani shrugged her shoulders and said, she have no idea. I just asked his presence to be there. Pranashe sighed and said “If I were you I would have asked for “Prada, Gucci, LV, something like that. She laughed. Dharani said well you know about me.

March 21st, Dharani’s birthday, she was turning 27. She invited a few close friends to her house for a small gathering. The few close friends were no one else other than Pranasha & Dharmesh. She invited both of them to her house for dinner.

Chapter 4
Dharani’s doorbell rang, she ran from the kitchen to the hall, when she open the door, Pranasha screamed “SURPRISE!!!” Dharani was so delight to see nasha, and welcomed her in. Nasha gave a big hug and one stalk of rose with a present to Dharani With that she continued her conversation asking “where is our HERO?” Dharani asked “Our Hero??” She laughed off and said I got no idea. There goes the doorbell again. This time Nasha went to answer the door and when she open, Dharmesh screamed..”SURPRISE”..and there he was standing in shock while Nasha was laughing off. She accepted his surprise and said “Thank you, but the birthday girl is not me, please do come in.” He was embarrassed and he just smiled and walked in. The moment he saw Dharani, he could not take his eyes off her. Nasha snapped her fingers infront of his face and said “Hello..are you there?” He laughed and wished Dharani “Happy Birthday”. She shyly smiled at him and said “Thank you”. Oh ya, I forgot to intro, said Dharani. “Dharmesh please meet Pranasha and Nash this is Dharmesh.” “Hello” said both of them

They sat while, Dharani, prepared the dinner. Dharmesh bought a cake and came. So it was a small celebration among the three of them. After cutting the cake and having their dinner. Dharmesh walked around the house. He asked Dharani, you are living alone? She said yes, I lost my parents in a young age. I was brought up by my aunt who passed away 3yrs ago. So now am just living by myself. He said “oh I’m sorry” she said “its ok” Nasha asked, if you are bored at home you can always call me up for company. Am always here, Dharmesh joined in and said “Me too” Dharani replied, Thanks guys.

After playing some card and board games, Nasha was tired. So she told Dharani she was making a move. Dharani hugged her and said “Thanks for the gift and your presence. This is such a memorable day.” Nasha smiled and told her, “anything for you my friend.” Nasha asked, “Mesh are you going to stay a little longer?” He said “yes” and she was okay. “Better go home safely. Do want me to come down with you to get you a cab” asked Dharmesh. Nasha replied “oh no, its okay, I will be fine” At the door, when Dharani stood there, Nasha whispered in her ears, “he is really sweet, this is your chance” She smiled and left.

When Dharani sat at the sofa, Dharmesh stood up and gave his surprise gift to her. It was wrapped in a purple box with rose petals deco. She was shocked and she said “Thank you very much Mesh.” He told her to open his gift. She shyly smiled at him and opened his gift for her. It was a beautiful black cap sleeve silky blouse with shimmering red floral prints on it. Dharani was very happy, she told “its very beautiful mesh, I really like it a lot. Thank you.” He smiled at her and told why not you change to this top and show me now. She was stunned. She told him “Mesh I really appreciate your gift but I can’t wear it neither can I keep it just like that. I’m sorry.” He was heartbroken. He asked her “why can’t you wear it? Is it the colour you don’t like, or the design or what is it?”

She was down to her tears, and told him, “no it is a beautiful top, but I just can’t accept it. He kept asking her what is the reason. Suddenly her voice changed to a little harsh tone and said “Please don’t force me and try to understand Mesh.” He was taken a back. I’m sorry Dharani, I always saw you in long sleeves and traditional costumes. I thought you would look even more beautiful in this top. I’m sorry. He told her. He continued, anyway its getting late, I shall make a move also. When he was about to walk to the door, she held his hand and said “I’m sorry Mesh” He tapped her hand and said “its ok” He stood at the doorstep and said Bye, Happy Birthday once again. She waved and said Bye and he left.

She closed the door and squat down behind the door, held on the the top he bought for her and she cried.

He walked down the stairs and was wondering, why she did not want to wear the top. What was the reason.? He started to think what is stopping her..

The next day at the office..

*The Next Chapters to be Continued. Hope You'll wait with Eager :)

Its a Sunday - Movie Day

2009-01-18T19:24:00.006+08:00

Hola to all!!! Its blogging time. 1^st of all I would like to wish all my hindu friends, Happy Pongal, okay for da rest of my non-indian friends Pongal Day is also known as a day to celebrate harvesting day and a respect for all the farmers.

Well coming to some detail infos on wad has happen so far..hmm let me explain..

On Monday, 12/01 went to my sis sch also which is also my sec sch, .Margaret’s Sec to collect O’level results, as I was sitting in the canteen with my bro & dad, I had so much memories in me..

*Flash Back..Those were da days where my grp of friends we will meet a lil early b4 sch start and haf breakfast together, crap, chit-chat etc..it was such a beautiful care-free life which I enjoyed every moment. Till now if u ask me which period of my life I love da most it will be my sec sch life.

Coming back to dat day..*runs to present, my bro had to leave to work and leavin me and my dad as my sis went to collect her results, da canteen was so noisy dat my dad commented looks more like “fish market” dis reminded me of my sec sch principal, Mrs Caroline Lee who has passed away in a sudden death a few yrs ago at 2004, she used to tell da whole sch dat da market will be a better place..lolz..dats how noisy we were but we were always disciplined :)

I told my dad dat dis is da life, every student would neva ever forget. To you it might be noise, but to dem, it’s a beautiful music which will always be playing in deir mind.

My sis has chosen her path to build her future through ITE, all da best :)

Following..next will be..

Tues 13/01: I accompanied my sis to Bugis to buy her b’dae clothes, oh my Bugis was damn crowded even though it was a weekday further more it was Tuesday only. I guess it was da CNY season, so most of the youngsters were shopping dere.

Walked ard, saw some nice printed T-shirts but din have enuff money to buy for myself..soon next time. Just bought da jeans and top she liked as it was my dad gave her da cash. Met my sis-in-law who came from tekka, walked ard wif her at Bugis for a while, and ate dinner, den took bus from Bugis 980 wif her and dropped wif her at Thomson and Kir & I took 855 from dere.

In the bus 855, a blind man’s actions really touched my heart. The bus was super crowded. I & Kir was standing near da bus driver, and da blind man was sitting at the seat behind the driver, but he occupied only one seat and the other was empty. He turned his body direction to us as he sensed we were standing near him, he asked us whether we wanna seat. I smiled to myself and say, its ok thank you.

Every other normal human being should learn from him seriously. Be it bus, or train, Our people seem to be ignorance even we they see pregnant, old, handicap people. Haiz..i wonder when will dey learn their lesson.

The next day..

Wednesday 14/01 My colleagues and I were having lunch and dats wen my another colleague actually dashed out, so I asked my Exec, why is she rushing out, den she said dat her mother was admitted in hospital suddenly. So I was like ohh ok..

But when my Exec told me the colleague’s family story and my exec reaction, I was a lil taken back. She told me, da colleague’s parents are staying in two diff nursing homes. So I asked my Exec, why is dat so, it dey were not bed-ridden etc, she told me No, its juz dat my colleague is the only child and since she is married with 4 daughters, she is not able to take care. When my Exec emphasize on the fact dat, “true wad only daughter how to take care”? when she said dis I was seriously shocked. I asked my Exec, in dat case if u r also only daughter once u r married off u will also put ur parent’s in a nursing home? She kept quiet and din answer.

My another close colleague, asked me dis question which is worse “Living separate from your daughter, or living separately from your spouse in two diff nursing home in your old age” I told her dat living separately from da spouse is worse.

To me, da daughter came as a third member in deir life after marriage, during courting days, marriage, living together and starting a family was wif the spouse. Being separate from him & her during old age when u need each other’s companion the most at that point of time is worst.

Respect your parent’s da world will respect you.

Two quotes on family which caught my eyes:

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. ~Desmond Tutu

To us, family means putting your arms around each other and being there. ~Barbara Bush

Den da rest of da days were like normal..

17/01 Saturday

Yest was my sis b’dae and she has turned 18..

Happy Birthday Kirthi!!!!

Bless you wif happiness, be short and sweet always..wahahahahhhaha

The world is not as beautiful as it always seem to be but, be a strong person like mum and come up in life. Even if it takes a slower time compared to others, its okay, take ur time u will reach what you have aimed for.

Sat was my paternal grandfather’s death anniversary also, same day as my sis b’dae. Went to my cousin hse for da prayers..den headed back home, after dat it was full time TV Marathon..

Then Today 18/01: Was bored, my dad gave me & my sis money to watch movie, so we used up da time went to watch Danush Movie Padikathavan. He looked handsome & sweet. He might not be da BF look a like material for some gals but to me he looked nice since da movie Devathey Kandein.

B4 the movie start we had some time, so we walked ard Northpoint, den headed to BK for a Hershy Pie and den went to watch the movie.

The movie is abt Fight, Love, Revenge. The comedy is really farnie, the couple who was sitting infront of us, esp the Guy he really laughed his lungs out..LOL!!! Da actress Tamana..gosh she looks SO FAIR!!!! Da song scene she is like da outstanding complexion man…some sgs are nice..overall it’s a good movie.

All dressed up for the movie..

Huggable Me :)

Da Movie Ticket

Hershey Pie

I look chubby...oh my..

Even though its a lil blur, i like dis pic

watcha looking at..?

Kir is having a Bite

I dun noe if Kir is showing how she cuts the pie or Advertising her Ring

A shot of the shorty Kir

After dat went to buy donuts from Donut Empire at Northpoint, took some pics at Interchange while waiting for the bus, den headed back home.

Us at the Int

Do we look alike???

jus feel like annoying her..wahahaha

Twinster wif a 7yrs gap..haha

Wazzup

Smile Ladies

Yummy!!!

Half a dozen

Da clearer/brighter pic

My Fav 3!!!

Right now just listening to songs and blogging.

Quote of the day: “I think I've discovered the secret of life - you just hang around until you get used to it.” ~Charles Schulz

Now its time to end my entry here, Remember Life Is So Beautiful :)

My Small Life In A Big World

2009-01-10T15:11:00.004+08:00

As I watching the show Super Singer in Vijay Tv, the guest appearance da great director Balu Mahendra told a sentence which was so beautiful.

The saying goes like that

“If Only Beautiful Humming Birds Can Sing, The Whole Forest/Jungle Will Be Filled With Emptiness”

It is a beautiful line which is trying to say that everyone has talent. There is no one born without talent. It is BIG World, Take Every opportunity like its urs and use it.

Its 2009, and 1 week and 3 days has passed, its still going on well.

Well coming back to Super Singer, it was the emotion round. All singers have to sing 2 songs filled with two diff emotions. Oh my I should say some really had the xtra power in the voice and before Balu Mahendra left from the show he said this which I kept smiling and nodding my head, this is wad he said

“Every Moment In Life Is Filled With Emotions, From The Time We Fail Our 1^st Homework/Class Test, To The Time We Lost Someone In Our Life Involves Emotion”

I would 100% agree on what he actually mentioned. Be it Happiness or Sorrow its two diff emotions which we go through everyday. We are the mysterious human being cause we would neva know in which emotion will we be in. Well that is mankind.

I have a wardrobe which is 13yrs old and it is one of my fav thing in my whole room, I am gonna be separate from it soon. Some might wonder its juz a cupboard, why such a built up emotion for it. Well like I said it has my happiness, my sorrow, it noes me in & out.

I have yet to get separated from it, but when the time comes which is like anytime actually..I was pretty surprised and shocked that shamini felt the sadness for my cupboard. Hahaha..hmm interesting, when I asked why does she feel sad, she said it was one of the entertainment when she comes to my room. *Smiles.

I am looking for a part-time job just for sat & sun, if anyone noes a place please do msg me. It can be tuition or even store job, I don’t mind.

Below is a few pics taken of my cupboard. Have a glance and if you have any thing to say, please do tag me. All comments & compliments are always welcome :)

The Front & Side Shots of my Cupboard
The Inner Side of My Cupboard
This side has more attached emotions wif me as, i haf a few pics of babies who were thrown away under the block, dustbin & void deck by irresponsibe parents. A poem for mother which i found in a magazine pretty long years ago.

Finally The Last Pic, I am Gonna miss you soon..

Well dis entry is not abt complaints or sad issues, its all abt emotions..

Remember one thing “You Know What, Life Is So Beautiful”

Happy New Year Everyone

2008-12-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

When it comes to a point where you can't speak nor pen it down, the best way is to compose a song.

I am an author, by my own. I am a singer for my own music label

This is going to be a long entry or at the most it will keep you entertained as there a lot of beautiful pictures. Those of you who are viewing my page and your pc is lagging, my apologies for the inconvenience as it is overloaded with pics.

Without further a do, 1^st thing I would wanna say is “My Heartfelt Warm Wishes for The New Year 2009. Wish everyone, good health, better wealth and happiness throughout. Once again Happy New Year”

My NY resolution is “to be happy and make everyone happy”

05/01/09 was my sis-in-law b’dae and was really sweet that her mum cooked dinner for us and went over to celebrate.

I took bus 855 from Harbour Front and holy cow the journey was super long. But I enjoyed the ride alone, I felt like a small kid looking outside the window for any suspense or thrilling actions.

Played wif my lil princess and my brother is back from India and he bought Saree for me & my sis and for the wifey and mother-in-law.

The saree was beautiful, please see picture below.

New Year Countdown at Kamlesh Anni hse was Wacky and interesting. Had loads of fun serious man. The food, the fun, the chats, the games, the dance…wahh I can still feel every moment.

I think everyone should make a point to atleast gather once a mth, and haf a fun day out or home, enjoy every single second you can spend with your loved ones. Once you lose that opportunity you can neva have it back. Vuew the pics below.

Okay I would like to turn the time backwards for a while to update on some impt things.

Ayyappan Poojais was a splendid moment, with pious & devotion, happiness and etc everything went well, every moment was a blessing. Some of the pics are below.

Xmas party was happening at my workplace. It was held at Marina South RiverBoat Restaurant and since I was a veggie at that point of time, my boss ordered a Veg Main course jus for myself, gosh you should view the pics to see a clearer pic

My Main Course & Side Dish

We had some performances, lucky draw, gifts exchange, photo taking session. The presents which I received from my colleagues was very sweet.

My Claims Dept

I received the lucky prize of the gift exchange from my boss…weeewiit it’s a dining voucher for 2 pax at my dream café “The Secret Garden” hehehehe

Still looking out for the best one to bring out…hahahahhaa

Met up with Shamz & Meenz, a gals nite out, went to eat at Komalas at Pennisular Plaza, walked abt the Raffles City, bought a ring for all 3 of us from accessorize shop. Pretty nice ring, and am waiting for more upcoming days to spend together.

Well, to take a look back at 2008, many things happened, surprise, shocks, sad, happy, etc, but wadeva it is “Life Is So Beautiful”

2009 will be a much better year for me and as well for all others too.

Updated Life

2008-12-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

Welcome Myself Back In Words After A Long Time...

Too much things to say but too little words I have. Instead of beating ard the bush I shall go straight to the point. I wonder how long this entry will be but am sure I will not bore you.

Family - This is a priceless bond. My dad dotes on me like I am new born child, my nonsense sis is waiting for her O's Results. Of Coz I Miss my Mum alot. My Little princess Hiroshini is becoming more adorable day by day. My cuzin Meera is officially married (ROM). Next year is the traditional wedding and I need to lose weight in order to look slim n sexy in saree. Below are a few pics taken and esp of my princess.

The Most Sexiest Pose of 2008

Work - Life is always tuft in here, but wad to do we have to do a living to lead a basic life. But it has been a little better than before so am glad. Just hope everything goes on well.

Vaaranam Ayiram - A beautiful movie, a superb combination of the director Gautam & Suriya. Each cast did their own role perfect and i should say Suriya looks hot plus I should he is dedicated actor. In this movie you can see a Suriya in diff looks and of coz the heroines, Simran, Sameera Reddy and Divya Sapdana looks gorgeous :)

I enjoyed watching dis movie wif my two sweethearts Meenz n Shamz, practically we were like drooling at Suriya at every aspect of the movie but not only his look is appreciated but his acting too. After the Director Maniratnam, I like Gautam Vasudev Menon's direction. The movie Khaka Khaka is one big example and now Vaaranam Ayiram and I look forward to his movies in future too. The songs in this movie is jus simply beautiful, soothing, rock and you can immerse yourself in it.

This below pic is beautiful song scene, and i love esp this line "ennodu va veedu varaikum, en vittai par, ennai pidikum"

Friends - Below pics says all abt friendship. My circle of friends may not be super big, but i have friends who have big hearts. They know who dey are. Life has been good wif this people in my life and i hope to meet more new friends, recently i have a friend, name Gayathiri and I met her thru Facebook, but end up the world is small coz we haf met in my hse itself before..haha..nice knowing her and of coz not forgettin my sec sch friends whom i met up recently, had so much fun talking abt embarrassing moments n unforgettable incidents. Therefore whoever wants to be my fren do let me know, i will give you direct admission if u r the trustworthy one whom i can trust my friendship on :)

Love - To keep this hush we did not whisper a word to anyone. Do you believe that "all your sorrows will disappear when your loved one stands by you just by holding your and saying I am here" to me I believe it is true coz when i met him, I held on to his arm and rested my head on his shoulder, he held me close and whispered "don't worry ma everything will be alright". I smiled and close my eyes, as I heard the doorbell I stood up and alight at my bus-stop and that's where my imagination stood froze.

I believe one day I wld meet my special him and when the day comes...hmm..when it comes i shall say..

Financially I may not be stable, Educationally I may not be a Phd holder, Beautifully I may not be a Super Model, But..But..I am The Most Happiest Gal Coz I make Atleast Someone Happy and looking at Their Smile makes my day :)

Broken Heart

2008-09-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I stepped into dis page of mine. Too many things have occupied my mind dat I did not have time to do other things much. Have always hoped dat dere would be atleast a spark of light in my life but I guess as much circumstance has made me walk in to the much darker side of life.

I knoe some mite think this gal has nuthin else than complain..yeah I do wish dat I also do haf some great things to blog about.

I guess I realized that I am living in a selfish world. I wish I could just explain everything n every single bit of my feelings in words but I tried finding and I could not seem to get any. Living a life for yourself and living for others is two different worlds. I guess I am categorized in the latter.

Everyone told me that everything will be fine soon and things will get better. I used to believe that if we struggle in life now later we will enjoy. But now I have totally lost hope in all and have put up my hands on air and surrender. I am scared that one fine day my brain cells might just explode n die while I am sleeping.

Life should have thorns in order to reach the petals, but what if the path has only thorns there isn’t any petals to be found. What to do? The best medicine is a mother’s lap for me to lay and cry out my problems. The saddening part I can neva haf that opportunity, unless my goddess Durgai Amman gives me that opportunity which I noe one day she might.

When you are physically tired, u can cure it by resting and relaxing. When you are mentally tired, what is it we can do? Knowing me for too long yet you cannot see the difference in me, is actually quite saddening to know. Do you what is the worse? You can show empathy and sympathy on others but if you yourself is upset for your own dats really heart wrenching pain.

No matter how much I fight, struggle and battle in the War or life, I seem to lose and see failure in the end. Someone told me its okay to compare yourself with others but if the comparison gets worse, then our thoughts will be running even more. Yeah indeed it is true but can’t really help it though.

All those around me are much educated in life, good job, a complete family, fantasy, dreams come true etc..Of coz I would feel very inferior compared to them. Coz that is human nature.

I used to have a lot of dreams but now am only left with nightmares. The hilarious part is, after reading this entry of mine, then there will be some coming and ask, “hey why, wat happen” *laughs out* in the back of mind I would think where were you when I needed you? But I know its not fair either cause each individual have their own personal life.

Lastly all I would like to say, thanks to all who has been there for me and bless all who is leading a good life.

Turned 24

2008-08-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

I know I don’t blog often but that does not mean I will not blog forever. Normally the usual style, I blog abt wad happened before then I will state abt what is the latest issue. As for this entry, I am gonna say about the latest issues followed by the back dated updates. Let’s begin…

*Warning!!! Overload of Photos!! Beware!!

17.08.08 (Sunday)

A slow day shld I say.. In the morning went over to my brother’s house to see my Lil Princess. She is just looking cuter and prettier day by day :) After spending sometime, accompanied my bro n sis in law to Little India to buy some things and headed back home. In the evening watched the Variety programme called Dhool 2008 at Vasantham Central, well it’s a dance competition. I should say in today’s performance, AeroCratz dance moves were mind blowing. Hats off to the guys to have put in so much effort.. Their co-ordination, costumes, song, style and moves were just superb. My support is for them. I hope, dey do continue doing deir best.

16.08.08 (Friday)

Officially the last day of the month of Aadi. Its just like now you see and now you don’t. But the service for God is always a pleasure to the heart. Bajan’s Poojai’s, were too good to name..gosh we really enjoyed the whole mth :)

In between, there are too many things happen dat my mind is blocked for now to think what has happen. Therefore shall go directly to my day..

09.08.08

Happy Birthday To Myself and Singapore!!!! 1^st of all I would like to thank the Greatest Women, my Mother Shyamala who has given a life to me and brought me to this place we all call Earth. During our b’day everyone wishes us but its very rare you see people who thank their mum for giving the life.

Till the age of 23yrs she was physically wif me, and now she may not be right beside but I can always feel her presence. I seem to miss her more than I can even imagine about.

I may have turned a year older but my heart is always a yr younger.

12 midnite, my sis surprised me wif a small b’dae cake, Madhz n Punetha sis sang the b’dae song on loud speaker :) On my b’dae din really have an exact plan, but jus had a wonderful breakfast wif daddy, den of course my day can neva start without my lil princess Hiroshini, went to see her. In the afternoon made plans wif punetha sis, shamini, bav and kir to go tekka to eat as most of them were fasting for Aadi. My bro drove us to Anandha Bavan located opp Mustafa centre.

After tekka, headed to cityhall at Padang to watch fireworks and it was really beautiful. Lastly ended the day wif Ice-cream at Swensens.

This year my dad gave me a gold chain, my sis-in-law bought me a top, kir made me a card, my bro gave me a hongbao, my sis in law mum bought me a Punjabi suit and Merci Chocz, my fren Kelly gave me a Puma bag, Punetha sis and shamz gift is on the way.

Happy 24th B'dae Durgz

Its Feedin time

Bestie feeds me

Sistaz

Relax

The Beauty of Fireworks

Kirz/Durgz

Bavz/Durgz

Durgz/Shamz

Nitz/Bavz

Gotcha a Probz

The D's Darsh/Durgz

The Daddy & Princess (Aww she looks soo cute)

The Daddy & His Angel

Us at Padang

NEL Train Galz

Ladiez in the Station

Proudly Sponsored By Adidas

Posin

Shamz/Nitz

She still can pose while she wacks the food

Anyone wanna a lift

Smilez

Wazzup

Ms Colgate 2008

03.08.08

Happy 21^st Birthday Trishma, once turned 21, the age will rise faster, I am not sure if that is the case for everyone but for me and for some whom I know the age increases faster. But who cares, juz enjoy everyday like its your 1^st day on earth J

Went to buy gift and headed to Trish hse. Met Ijah, Aini, Rina and Sam under the blk and went to her hse, later came Kelly, SK and Shi Ting. Wahhh after a long time a bunch of crazy people. Lolz..had fun, dinner, guest book signing, meetin new people..all was good.

Once again Happy Birthday Trish!

Peace

Well..for this entry dats all I gotta say. The pictures are too much, I haven’t got all pics yet..once I get the rest I will upload also. Hope it was an entertaining entry.

The Big D is Back

2008-07-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

Back In Action

The Big ‘D’ is back..Hyez buddies, how haf you all been? Me ß I was a lil busy for some time due to work load but dats not an excuse not to blog right?? Well lets get down to action..

A summary of this entry: its gonna be filled wit pics, questions, interesting survey, reality, our nation, frens, latest things and life.

1^st of all was my classmate’s wedding and its was a special date shld I say, coz she got married on the 06.07.08. Met trish at Khatib and den took train, went to Bukit Batok and met Rina and went off to the wedding. Could not meet Kelly at the station itself as she was late btw she was neva earlyJ anyway carrying on, met shuo ke, isk, ida, zie, sha over dere all my classmates. The bride came, took pics, and the bridegroom came and took some shots of the couple, ate, chat and left.

The Bride's Backview - her suit is beautiful
The Groom makes his way

The Bride has to cover her face till da groom comes and looks at the shy bride

The Bride n Groom

The Cakes -Yummy

Trish, Rina & SK

Kelly & Me (I am so full of smiles)

Shuo Ke, Me, Isk

Rina, Me, Shuo ke (from left to right)

Me and Ida

Trish, Zie and Rina (top left to bottom)

Trish, Rina, Kelly and myself spent some time at Mac at BB. Kelly gave us our lil scrap book made by her. It was really creative and sweet. Chat, did camworing and head back home.

Work was a lil busy as one of my colleague as well as my schoolmate resigned and another colleague went for a one week holiday, therefore was handling 3 people’s work load. Though was taxing, it helped me to be occupied.

Us Posing wif da book made by Kelly

Met Bestie for a dinner, at PS. Ate finger food at Café Cartel, walked ard, she did some shopping and I was juz doing some walking..lolz..

Latest Things is, bought a small sofa set and dining table, it is pretty compact jus for the 3 of us. My dad and I bought it at a sale at Furniture Warehouse.

Okies it’s the NDP fever going ard as I see a lot of reds surrounding and yeah it’s a sign to say that my B’dae is nearing and am getting older by year but am always younger by heart.

Reality wise..lets get this straight, Singapore has become a much expensive place to live at. Rice price has gone up, groceries prices has gone up, petrol price has gone up and now its Transportation price gonna be raised by $0.30 if I am not wrong of the price. I really got no idea how the middle class family like me gonna live up to the expense.

Come on politicians, we got to see the bigger picture, if you tend to raise the price for everything, then you should raise the salary of all the workers be it govt or pvt. No point juz raising yours alone. As SG is getting much expensive more n more people do not wanna live here and they are migrating. There is no point blaming them anyway.

Now as a dutiful daughter, do I see the household things, house, or transportation? Its gona be a REAL expense. I have to save every cent or shld I say I have to be scrimped.

I really need to breath.

Recently went for medical check up, for insurance wise. And I found out that my body is lack of water and…and..and…I have GAIN weight. Goodness gracious..ok I know it’s a typical gal’s reaction but come on. Seriously I love to see myself in the mirror but for nowadays I feel disgusting looking at myself coz I look like a pig stuck in a human’s body. Fine except for the nose, ear, tail plus complexion part.

Alritez..haf to go swimming plus gym to tone up muscles..looks for partner??

Life has been not bad I shld say, though I have lost plenty of things and have gained one, understood a few and living wif the rest.

There was a reality show at Vasantham Central for the past nine weeks and it was about The Battle of the Sexes. Men Or Women. Well continuously watching it, and in 9 shows, only one show women won and the rest men won but that does not certify that Male Genders are better off. It’s a world of Equalism I believe. The last episode which was for today and topic to battle off was Who are Better Friends? Guys or Gals? When it comes to friendship, I believe there isn’t a border that guys are better frenz or gals are better frenz. Both are equally the best and equally the worst for some.

Each Gender stands out for one of their quality to be frenz for everyone. Friendship isn’t based on what Gender you are but what kind of Friend you will be. Guys and Gals we all need each other for one or another reason but the most important is Friendship.

Now lastly as I was blog hoping, I saw a pretty interesting survey at a friend’s blog. So I am posting the survey results. Pretty awesome ans..

The rules are:
1. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
2. Using only the first page of results, and pick one image.
3. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into Big Huge Lab’s Mosaic Maker to create a mosaic of the picture answers.

The questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food? right now?
3. What high school did you go to?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. What is your favorite drink?
7. What is your dream vacation?
8. What is your favorite dessert?
9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11. What is one word that describes you?
12. What is your user name

So here is my result! :

My Answers :
1. What is your first name? -> Durga
(The picture is associated with the Goddess Durgai Amman)

2. What is your favorite food? right now? -> Fish

3. What high school did you go to? -> St.Margaret's Sec Sch
(I typed out SMSS. The picture was a shot taken during sports day)

4. What is your favorite color? -> Orange
(Pretty Interesting Pic)
5. Who is your celebrity crush? -> Patrick Dempsey
(Grey's Anatomy - My Perfect Husband Material :>)

6. What is your favorite drink? -> Coke.

7. What is your dream vacation? -> Europe - (Always wanted to save up enuff juz to go for a Europe Tour myself)
8. What is your favorite dessert? -> Blueberry Tarts

9. What do you want to be when you grow up? -> Writer

10. What do you love most in life? -> Dad
(A beautiful pic)

11. What is one word that describes you? -> Sophisticated (A Complex pic i shld say)

12. What is your user name -> Durgz
( Dis was the only result and a memorable pic, unforgettable friendship)

I'm Back

2008-07-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

Officially Written on 3 July 2008

Welcome Me Back....

Life...

Its Time To Speak...

Coming back to blog after a long time makes me feel like I juz woke up from coma. It’s a feeling like you know what happen around but you juz can’t figure what really happen when and where. Talking about that, looks like for quite some my memory is getting from bad to worse. I just seem to me losing my memory bit by bit. For eg: I would take my handphone and put it for charging, but within 5 mins I would try to recall where is my handphone and walk ard the whole house screaming and accusing my family members that they hid my mobile. Lolz.

There is a lot of events has taken place but the sad part is that, I can’t remember the dates but I have pictures to tell about. The last entry was about mother’s day and after that my mind got blocked.

Now we shall give a lil updates about me and my home. 1^st of all my house has become even more quieter as before coz I dun haf any more puppies or should I say I do not have any cute companions jumping when I come back home. Sighz..

Next is my other niece naming ceremony. She is named after the goddess also and her name is Shirodhini. I do not have any pics of her yet though.

The interesting thing in my life is that I have moved from one job to another. My previous job, my designation was a Medical Admin Assistant. Though the job was a lil boring and getting scolding and nagging from people, one new exec came and changed my whole life into a mess, she was biased and really treated me as low as possible. She even looked down in me and say that I am not fit to work dere and da only place I am qualified is a Call Centre since my telephone skills are good as what she says. She juz behaved like a Perfect Bytch..arghh but somehow God isn’t as cruel to me coz I got an opportunity to work in another company which is way much betta by facilities and people, job and pay. Finally I left that hell job and went to my new job and my designation is a Claims Client Care Associate. I am loving my job though it is a lil taxing sometimes. But after all it’s a job I love and da people too. But I miss my ex colleagues too. Since my workplace is at HarbourFront, Vivo City has become small Lolz..

Some Random Pics...

Whateva it is meeting up wif friends was what really makes my life juz go on..and dat was when I met up wif Rina, Kelly and Trishma at Bugis. Though it was not exactly as what we planned but it was fun. A small dinner at KFC and I bought a new shoe, we walked ard for a while and took some pics.

Coming to celebrations was my nephew birthday and he has turned 5yrs old. Oh my years flies man..my cuzin sis called and asked me and da rest of us for a dinner at woodlands. Yesh we had a wonderful meal and den I gave the b’day boy the gift he was waiting for, Wrestling figurines which comes wif the WWF ring anf etc. He really loved it. But the b’day boy was sad the following week coz he didn’t cut a cake. Therefore my cuzin sis asked me to order a cake and I ordered a Spiderman cake and we had small mini celebration at home. That was a sweet celebration.

The next was Father’s day. I don’t really understand why Father’s day is not given as much importance as Mother’s day though. Haiz…but to me its my Hero’s day so I ought to make him happy as has always made feel like I am da princess.

To everyone their dad is their hero just like mine. I held his hand and learned to walk, he taught me how to be brave, and he taught me how to be juz me. He is my Hero, My Teacher, My Daddy, My Best Friend and My Guardian Angel. Labour pain is gone through by our mother’s but the hardship of bringing us up is my our fathers. But they have neva complaint because the love dey have for us has made them forget their pain, hardship and etc. Finally Happy Father’s Day Daddy!!!

My brother and sis-in-law, my sis and my dad went for lunch at Changi, and den went to Northpoint for Swensens and walk abt. My dad chose some tops for me and my bro paid for it. The tops were niceee..

The last celebration, was Thana’s 21^st Birthday Bash. Met sham and aisha wif my sis and went to the party at Yishun Safra. The food was nice and there were some nice eye candies and yeah Suprisingly I open the dance floor wif Thana as some of the guest who came din want to..but who care as long as it made my darling Happy. After dancing and den headed back home.

After a week or two I guess, met wif shamz n thana darling for dinner, had some window shopping done by the two ladies n I was more like deir shopping guard Lolz.. Had dinner at Thai Express, sooner or later dey gonna make us the Thai Express Models. After dinner, Thana wanted to buy a shoe which she has been eyeing but in da end it was shamini who bought shoes from Charles & Keith. Ladiesss…we took some crazy pics and yeah the pic says it all..

Now coming to nearly the end..Met wif Shuo Ke and Trishma and had a small chit-chat session. SK went to start Isk bike for a while, after dat headed to LJ at Hougang Green and dinner and chatty talks. Those were the time where the 3 of us sit at coffeshop and haf prata and a lonoonnggg chats..but now it’s a lil diff but we miss those chats. Now we got the opportunity back and I hope there will be more to come.

Finally my entry has ended. But this is not the end..its juz beginning..oh my gosh wad a dialogue.. anyways I will try to keep updating..though promises can’t be made..Hope you all loved the pics even though the entry was pretty, much long.

Aitezz..signing off Adiyoz..

Mother's day

2008-05-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

Blabbered on 11 & 12 May 2008

Happy Mother’s Day To All Special Ladies and Especially to My Mother.

Last year I gave my mum a special treat at swensen’s and made her the most happiest women on earth. She called many people and told proudly dat her daughter’s brought her out and etc.. Dis year, she mite not be around physically but her presence will always be filled in the house and my heart. When I saw, all the children bringin their mum out and giving gifts and etc I wished I was given the opportunity once more. But that does not stop me from giving her gifts…I bought her a pink rose stalk and a beautiful card. Although I prefer making a card but the one I bought for her was simply beautiful. I bought D.I.Y cradle and got it fixed up and place it beside her.

Umbilical cord bond does not just end at the day of labour. But it continues forever. That is what we call motherhood. No matter what, or where she is, her love, care and concern is always etched in our heart.

Hey Mama Wishing You A Beautiful Heart Felt Mother’s Day Wishes.

On sat when to watch vijay’s new movie called Kuruvi wif dad n sis. The songs are beautiful and Trisha looks awesome. Vijay’s acting is perfect, Vivek comedy is hilarious. The sound impact is superb. I love the songs and the scenes plus the dance choreography.

After the movie when to eat Chicken Rice at dis famous shop at yishun, behind the interchange. My dad went out, so left wif me n sis, went for a mini shopping for Mother’s day and yeah got some stuffs and headed back home.

Sunday..was a simple day..juz went for breakfast and my dad bought a hp for himself as his phone was spoilt and he gave me a Mother’s day gift also, which is a new HP!!! Hippie..I wanted to get a new hp since my phone got lost but den..after being a good gal..*winks..he bought me da phone which I have been eyeing for sometime. It Sony Ericsson W380i. After dat headed back home and my lil princess came over to my hse for a while and we went to my bro house for a lunch. Ordered KFC. Din haf much appetite to eat though.

Later at nite, met punetha sis and gave her my mother’s day gift, had a small chat and went back home..

Sunday was gone..

Last time people use to talk abt my face, that I look ugly and etc..as I changed the way I dress up and did try to take care of my face, the talks came lesser though at times I have people who still do talk abt it..and now ppl have start to talk abt my weight. It seems I have gain weight A LOT. Well as far as I consider certain issues are quite sensitive to talk abt esp weight and looks..and esp to ladies. I know that I dun look superb or wad so eva but dat does not mean I dun look good at all. Before you even talk abt others, please look at yourself and then think before you even wanna say anything. Sometimes a Word can hurt more den a Injury.. Anyways..i do know that I have to lose some weight..Will put in the effort to lose atleast a lil not for da sake of ur sayings but jus to make me happy..

That’s abt it..

Signing Off Durgz

Adiyoz

U Me Aur Hum

2008-05-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

A quote from One Tree Hill Season 5 Ep 15..
"If You Don't Ask For Something, You Just Can't Expect That To Happen"

Written On 4 May 2007.

Okies before I go on telling what has happen so far, my 1st announcement is My baby johnny is back after being lost for 3 days..*smiles...

Well on thurs it was a public holiday as it was Labour Day. Therefore I would like to wish all Labours A Happy Labour Day.
Now going on..My another sister in law gave birth to a beautiful niece on May 1st..ahh i haf a 2nd new lil niece..wait actually she is da 3rd one..anyways..after visitin my sis in law and her baby, met shamz together wif my sis to watch U Me Aur Hum..we went for the 4pm show..ahh..i really dun like to watch in Jade Theatre and I hope dat for everyone's convenient please show all the hindi movies in GV also..it will be betta..

Abt da movie..It was SUPERB..seriously everyone acted their part very well and i haf neva like Ajay Devagan but only in the movie Hum Dil De Chupke Sanam and now dis movie..he really acted well and the script is pretty interestin..it was nice watchin..and oh ya while watchin dere was dis kid who was runnin here n dere and makin noise..i seriously feel that parents shld not bring along young kids who practically too young to watch movies in theatre and can't keep still at all..grr..

After da movie went to Bugis Pastamania had our dinner dere and headed back home..below are some pics and oh ya not all pics are uploaded yet coz my bestie shamz is havin all da pics and she dun wana gif da pics feelin jealous dat i look nice in da pics..LOL..*smiles at shamz*

U Me Aur Hum
Sometimes The Greatest Journey Is The Distance Between Two People.

The Chemistry is really strong n sweet

The Sexy Kajol..weewiitt

No Matter how long the journey is I will held you in my arms close to my heart.

He says: You look gorgeous, beautiful, sexy and a
bit heavy but I will still love you.

Kewl..

my sister and myself

My nephew's annual sports day was held at Chong Boon Sec on Sat..da time was 3-6pm so i guess u can IMAGINE the weather and how sun tanned wld i be now. Well it was really fun being surrounded by kids esp when dey are so naive..aww..But seriously da weather was a KILLER. Some young gals who came to support their niece and nephews were seriously dressed totally not for the occassion. I felt they were attendin Tyra Bank Next Top Models..LOLZ.. Oh ya da so called food which was sponsored was a pathetic two bondas and one vadai..like WTH..anyways below are some pics taken for da day.
Below are some pics taken on dat day..

my lil nephew's team gettin ready for da comp

my lil nephew doing his kangaroo hop

gettin ready to start da competition

On ur mark..1..2.3..Go

gettin ready to take grp pic.
2nd row da boy in da middle is my lil nephew

Grp Photo. Top Row frm Left the 4th boy is my nephew.

Proud to be Winners

da upcoming models..damn cute kids

My lovely nephew da elder one Darshan

My Little nephew Haranesh showing off his medal

As for today..totally a TV/Movie Marathon day..I was practically glued to the tv..coz of some old movies which are really excellent movies dat u dun get sick and tired of watchin it again and again. Yeapz..dats all for today..i seriously wonder why Mon-Fri da days run super slow and Sat-Sun is really fast..sighzz..aitez..here am i writing off..

Signin Off Durgz
Adiyoz

Speaks out

2008-04-27T16:22:00.000+08:00

SPEAKS OUT
Written on 27 April 2008. 10:34pm

My mum's b'dae was on the 24th April. So I have a lil dedication for her and plus some other shocking news..please read on to know.

Hey Mama, Happy 51st Birthday. I noe my wishes and gifts all will reach you but there is something which i have done for you and here it is. Its a short song written and sang by me. Please pardon my voice :) hope you will love it. Mish you loads.

Here is the song Title: Right Here Beside Me

I woke up in da night

Saw u lying by my side

I neva knew that was the last time

I held u in my arms

Holdin close to my heart

I wish you catch your breath

For one more time

(Chorus)

Hey mama I love you

I miss you so much

All I ask you were here wif me

Come on mama look at me

Give me ya blessings

I wish that miracle do happens

So that you will be…right here beside me again.

I noe that I hurt you

Many times dat I realise

I wish I said sorry

At the right point of time

The regret dat I have

I din make u smile at me

When I tried my best to

You were gone in a gleam

(Chorus)

Hey mama I love you

I miss you so much

All I ask you were here wif me

Come on mama look at me

Give me ya blessings

I wish that miracle do happens

So that you will be…right here beside me again

Now that you are gone away

I am stranded on the ground

I wish that your presence

Will always be around

Though u may nt be here now

I promise you one thing

You will always have a place

In my little heart.

(Chorus)

Hey mama I love you

I miss you so much

All I ask you were here wif me

Come on mama look at me

Give me ya blessings

I wish that miracle do happens

So that you will be..right here beside me again.

Below is a short sample of how da tune is for da song and its sang by me. The song is actually abt 3minutes plus but i ain't sure why it can be only played for 1minute plus. Yeah anyway i dun think so u wanna listen to my voice dat long..haha. Therefore pardon my voice also. Thanks.

Thats the end of the song I really hope you would love it. Anyways though you may not be around physically I know that your presence is always there. I feel as though you are juz there but we can't see you. I always feel that you are going to work, coming back, watchin tv, sleepin in my room etc. I know you are right here beside me.

Miss You Johnny Baby

My baby boy, little buddy, best man, baby, friend and my lil johnny. He went missin on 25 April and till now he is not to be found. I really love him so much dat i juz can't seem to accept the fact that he wil not return. But somehow many have said that he will come back and I really hope it is true. Miss you Johnny Baby.

I am not sure why is it that whoeva and wadeva I love the most does not seem to be wif me for long. It goes for everything. Sighz..Juz not fated to be I guess..

Met up wif my bestie to meet my sec sch mates for a dinner. While travelling in the train, shamz told me a conversation which made me laugh and realise abt some ppl.

She went for a driving theory test. There she met gal and dey intro demselves.. below is how the conversation went. Though it is not super exact, but somehow its da same..

Gal: Hi
Shamz: hello
Gal: whats ur name?
Shamz: Shamini and urs?
Gal: buvanesh
Shamz: what time is ur test?
Buvan: 10:30 (i think dat was da time my bestie told me Lol)
Shamz: same time as me..
Shamz: so which sch u studied
Buvan: Northland Sec. u?
Shamz: St.Margaret's sec
Buvan: Ohh.I noe someone from dere. My cuzin Durga devi
Shamz: Oh which batch?
Buvan: I guess must be ur age.
Shamz: *wonders..flash back. errm is she fat or slim
Buvan: slim, da durga devi is boastful, showoff juz becoz she topped her PSLE.
Buvan: you know she neva entertain ppl who come to her hse, and she din even cry for her mum's funeral.
Shamz: thinks...and she answered but her name is durga no devi at da back.
Buvan: ya ya durga
Shamz: Devi is her mum's name.
Buvan: ya
Shamz: Shyamala devi is the mother's name right?
Buvan: yeapz..how u noe..(I think she asked)
Shamz: Well Durga is my best friend. and btw she is not dat type of gal.
Buvan: oh ok..*stared blankly at shamz..and den.OH MY GOD! Oh SHIT..
Buvan: Please dun tell her wadeva i said. Thanks.
Shamz: ok
The end of conversation. I guess.

1st of all let me give a small explain. Buvaneshwari is her full name and she is few years younger den me. She is my mum's sister's daughter. When i heard dis conversation, 1st thing it was hilarious and 2nd she totally got no idea of me. Well me boastin ard for being a top student in PSLE is like wth..coz it happened 11yrs ago and yes of coz at dat point of time which was 1997 obviously i would be proud becoz it was something which i din even imagine abt and it was worth the effort of studyin like nerd. I neva knew i actually boast abt it till now. LOL. and den me NOT entertaining her when she came to my hse. Its becoz da 1st time she came was for my mum's funeral, I can't go and tell her "ohh buvan, welcome to my mum's funeral, so hows life been and etc rite" goodness gracious. Lastly me not crying for my mum's funeral, hahaha dats HILARIOUS. Only I know the Truth. I dun need to go ard and justify myself. Too bad buvan if u eva come across dis entry plz..all i can say is grow up not in size or height but maturedness.

Anyways enuff of dat conversation n explanation. Met my sec sch frenz..walked ard VIVO to find a place to eat..and dat point of time we all realise we neva change from sec sch till now..we gossip here n dere, lost our sense of direction, cannot make a quick decision but it was fun. All of us in different angle of life and meetin up juz for some fun and relaxation it was sweet. The gals who met up, Myself, Shamz, Kamini.S, Suhasini, Sheila, Kamini Charles, Sajetha. Had dinner at Thai Express, chatted, after a while headed back home.

Thats for now the update. Some pics will be posted later.

Adiyoz..Signin Off Durgz

Random Thoughts

2008-04-17T15:00:00.001+08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS

Written On 17 April 2008 4:12pm

The Writer Is Back…

Helloz ppl, b4 I go on ranting and stuff I would like to wish all my Indian Frenz Belated Happy New Year. I hope dis year everything will be going on smooth for all. As for me the new start is not so good. 1^st my bracelet which neva came out b4 broke and had to go for repair and da other sad thing is my dearest Sony Ericsson K630i got lost.

Sighz I hereby declare one minute of silence for my HP. To be frank I am a lil sad for my hp to be stolen but the fact which makes me even more upset are the photos in my phone. I stored nearly 500 pics and 100 songs in it. I badly wanted to post my latest pics which I took wif my lil princess Hiroshini. But a “Big SIGHZ”..all is gone now and my sim card, though it was a prepaid I have been using it for nearly 4-5 years and I love da number..

Currently am using my bro’s Samsung Hp and oh god I feel like as though a lost soul trying to figure how to use dat phone. Lolz..juz waiting for the right time or my daddy to say “nevamind I’ll buy u a new phone” but it doesn’t seem to happening..haizz…but I will buy a new phone sooner or later. All those who were in my HP contacts plz come and pvt msg in msn and give me ur num to keep in touch.

Many things have been happening, words unsaid, feelings unknown, emotions unseen. But dey seem to say Life still goes on..yeah I noe dat but sometimes when it comes to reality wise not always dat quote works though. My mum always use to say that “Life Is Not Bed Of Roses All The Time” but den I always tot to myself why can’t I even see the petals. Anyways juz have a few random pics and a collage of my lil princess. Aitez after viewin plz leave a tag :) Adiyoz

My Lil Princess Hiroshini

Shots Wif Shamzy

She is tryin to force herself to smile

Finally she smiles

she is learnin from me how to give model pose -still under training-

givin a pose

Aww..soo shy..

da orangy light pic- I think i din like her shampoo smell. Look at my expression

THE ManU FAMILY

my bro is juz too stiff..i think he felt as though he is taking a pic wif a Celebrity

Oh My he is smiling..and I love those t-shirt pillows

Finally he is a lil relax..

Gorgeous Sista-In-Laws

Shots Taken at Sam's 21st B'day

da gal holdin on to the sunflower is Samantha

Best Friends Foreva(BFF) Trish, SK and Dur

Kelly n Myself

Rina n Myself

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

SIGNING OFF: Durgz
Date: 17 April 2008

P.S I miss you

2008-03-23T17:15:00.001+08:00

Hey mama

How have you been up there? Has everything been good? As for me, I have so much things to say to you. I always thought I am an independent girl who can withstand anything even a storm but I realize I am or have I become an insecured lonely girl. I don’t know if people believe this or not but guess what I always feel your presence right beside me whenever I feel lonely or left out. It has been 5mths 23 days and I still have the whole scenario in my eyes. Every time I think of it or if not the scenario itself comes by, tears juz start flowing by itself.

You know everyone has been claiming that I must be responsible, role model etcc..but why is dat not even one person actually realize that I am lost and I need someone to lean on, I also need you the most. I am really feeling tired, devastated and lonely mum. Everyone says I have changed. Have I changed for the good or the bad. Have I myself changed or has the circumstances changed me. I have so much things in mind to be done mum, many things..I use to write so many stories, but none I published, now when I want to write and publish it to tell the world that I am a writer, I can’t even write a single word.

I can’t do things which I use to do. To people’s eyes, yes I am working, earning, surrounded by loved ones and good friends but am the most loneliest person. I feel I am missing something but I don’t really know why and what is it. It seems like nowadays I seem to lose my temper n get agitated easily and stuff. When I have done soo much it does not seem to be appreciated at all. I feel like I am just useless for everything.

You taught me to have confidence and faith in myself but I lost it mum, totally. You know when u were around, you were the one who always have something to say abt me but now it looks like everyone has many things to say abt me. My emotions and feelings are tormenting me every single day.

I know people mite thing I am crazy or even turning into one psycho, coz I do really see you mum. When I watch tv, when I walk, when I am sleeping, I really do see you n feel your presence. I know very well its not my imagination mum. I want to bring out my talent mum but I don’t know what it is. All I can say is that I am in a total mess. I am writing this letter is to let you know that I really do need you by my side. Please show me some signs to tell me what are my talents n to put my effort in it. I want you to show me some signs to go for my ambition, I want you to show me signs to let me know that you are guiding me throughout. I have never done this but now I yearn to do this mum, I want to hug you tightly and lie on your lap and cry out all my bottled up feelings. Please mum would you give me that golden opportunity. I know its impossible, but I also know you can make it possible by your presence which only can be seen by my eyes.

P.S I miss you.

With Love

Your Lonely Daughter

Durga

August Rush

2008-03-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

The Writer Says...

Happy 54th Birthday My Dearest Oldest Young Daddy!!!! One Two Thre Blow the candless..Well well 11 March was my dad's b'day therefore we went down to coffeeshop and ate alot..Gave him in da moring itself two gifts. One was a shirt and da other was a Polo Shoe. Below are some pics taken..my bro din give me da pic i and my sis-in-law feeding my dad..gggrr..nvvmm

my bro n daddy. and i think his tattoo looks nicee in dis pic

my sis kir and daddy

da grandad feedin da lil princess

Bestie and i went to watch August Rush on da 7 March. It was a beautiful movie which is compiled wif love, friend, music, passion, motherhood and family. The combination of music in dis movie is Superb. Two thumbs up! after movie walked ard Northpoint. Took some pics in da middle of nowhere of Northpt, since she owes me gifts which were pending from xmas till v'day, finally she bought for me and infront of me. The gifts are 1 small pink bolster which says Princess, a photoframe wif love and a perfume from Body Shop. Plz look at da pics below for more details. After dat we went back home..

my fav pic in the movie
(Keri Russell, Johnathan Rhyes Meyer)

Freddie Highmore
(known as Evan Taylor/August Rush)
Terrific Acting !

haha another perfect one

too upfront but da pic is niceee

a sudden shot

We glow even in daylight

This are da 3 gifts she bought for me..

zestini perfume from Body Shop

da framed filled wif love

my favv..a pink bolster which says Princess..
ands it really damn cuddling

On da 8 Met up wif my cuzins and went to Pizzahut at Causeway pt for lunch. After a long time, we went for a good lunch cums wif jokes and window shopping. Overall it was fun. Below are some pics we took on dat day.

he comes in a package..Buddy plus Brother

aww..cho sweet

juz giving a pose for madhz shots

she is always dere to look upon me

3 different style of advertising for chicken soup

P.S. I Love You

2008-03-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

The Writer Says...

Wad can i say when u watch a beautiful movie wif da goody company..wahh..went to watch P.S. I Love You wif bestie and seriously its a beautiful love story and well acted by all casts and yeah it touches ur heart deeply. Though the book is really well described and etc..da movie is too good to be ranked. But those who watched the movie, you should read da book too. After 27 dresses this is da 2nd movie i really enjoyed n even teared. A sweet husband, real good best frenz, a mother who stood by throughout, a guy who understood her as a good fren and another guy who told her stories at night treating her like a child. Wow! wad else u can ask for..Those who neva watch it..plz do go..

P.S. I Love You..and I really mean it

such a sweety pie husband is really rare to find Esp In SG ;)

he was really charming n hot

u wld only realise who r ur true frenz when u r going thru hardship

Pictures taken while travellin in da train going towards orchard

my fav pic..simple yet sweet

a zoomed pic w/o even being zoomed by camera

she was tryin to seduce me..but she failed to do so as i was engrossed in taking pics

her face looks closer to da camera though we took from da same distance

weeewiiittt

da goody & da Mischievous

da lighting makes da pic more whiter and sham still looks in a shock

Nice..

Pictures taken after da movie while going back home wif all da love mood brought from the movie..

Trust Me We R Not Les

Laid Back

we look like we ain't ready for da shot yet

she is always dreamin abt me though I'm dere

Am Hidden In U

Perfect Picture

V'day Special

2008-02-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

The Writer Says..

I noe it’s a lil late but am not bothered. Wishing all Happy Valentine’s Day.

This entry might be long due to the pics and da days as well da event. 1^st will be Vday, den followed by family fren’s wedding and a visting plus outing.

Okies dis yr is still da same as last, I will be celebrating a super post V-day outing wif my bestie.

13 feb went for a small shopping juz for myself..and here it goes..

tot of buyin a top for myself..either dis sweet baby purple

or dis sexii red top..

Final decision was dis top
On dat day itself..

After work, met up Kelly, Rina and Trish for dinner. We were suppose to have dinner at Swensens but looks like all da couple in town head dere coz it was damn crowded and dere was a long queue waiting to be seated. Therefore, we had a sudden change of plan and coming to a decision, we all head to Paragon’s Fish & Co. They were smart enuff not to have any ala carte items and only deir V’day promotional meal set, which consist of the meal, a cupid love potion plus desert of a chocolate. Lucky we gotta perfect seat, though it was for six seaters.

Except Rina, da rest of us ordered da same meal. Yeah da food was fine, but I prefer da Fish & Co at the glasshouse..haizz *memories*

After our meal, yeah we had our bit of Fun!! Took funny pics, actually trish n kelly were taking mine and rina’s candid love shots LOL!!! Once Kelly has updated plz view as for me I only have a few shots of da sweet couple/frenz, Kelly n Trish. We exchanged our gifts and yeah, all were sweet and nice. Lastly we asked for our desert chocolate and yesh da cheeky waitress gave us a small box saying its actually a choc for couples but its ok. When I open da box..aww..dere was a pair of chocoloate which says One for You One for Me..sweet rite..

After da night, we head back home, was really shagged but dat din stop me from taking a few vain shots of me.

Before we start wackin..*Yummy*

After we wack..

Rina

Trish

Kelz

da choco desert i mention..

awww...

i feel shy as u feed me

haf a bite Kelz

wazzup pplz

da Big D

watcha looking at

Innocent *winkz*

smilez

phew..

hmm..wads my next pose???

a gift i bought 4 myself, a purple top and D initial blink blink chain

A self made card wif a wrist band beads plus 3 hearts by trish

A chain wif my Initial by Kelly

A self made card n lollipop from Rina

The next will be da family frenz wedding which was held at Nee Soon C.C which is near by hse..lucky. The food was nice, the crowd was good and yeah took some pics here and dere. There were some singers to entertain and Vasantham Star Singer Dinesh was dere too. Manage to take a shot wif him though he was tall..*blush*

Juz wanted to try a diff hairstyle so da wedding was a good opportunity, derefore took da chance and straighten my hair n curl da end of the hair, was nicee..so mite be planning to make it as permanent. *still considering*

da golden manicure done by me

my curls

weewiitzz

da weddin deco

cutie pies

da pretty sis-in-lawz

Da Lovable Couple

da proud grandad

Wazzup..(kewl bro)

Daddy's Princess (Lovable)

Sathish and myself (Sweetz)

Dhinesh and me (cutez)

waited for my prince..but den..

Tired of waiting..Haizz

Tradi Sistaz

da Urban Gal..

The following day was Sunday, plan to visit bestie’s mum wif cuzins and yeah her dad cooked. The food was yummy though I could not take da spicy food. Den we went to causeway pt to have a drink and chat and ate a lil. Pics are below..

as we were travelling, madhz was testin his phone flash

Chocolate Ice-Blended. Damn Shiok

da black carrot cake

Junior Roti John

white carrot cake

Nita sis n me

Buddy

Kirthz n Nita Sis

Sangz and me

Lastly kinda miss her a lot..wishing you a special Valentine’s day..She use to give me cards and gifts but dis time I gave her flowers. I know she appreciates it. Love you loads.

da simple flowers given wif much love to her

Da Bond I Am Missing Most

Long Entry

2008-02-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

The WriterThe Writer Says..

Everyone before I start pourin da words out of my heart, I would like to Warn you all that it might be a long entry, therefore please keep a glass of water, some tidbits to keep you going :)

1^st of all to some who juz glance through my blog instead of reading it, u can shoo off..Lolz if ya know who I am hinting at.

Random Pics

duntcha wish ya galfren was Hot Like Me

Hips dun Lie

juz being shy

She smiles for no reason

purple eye shadow

Cho Sweet

Alaipayuthe

DA FUNNY FACES TAKEN IN ONE SHOT

da next Space Woman
The writer continues..

Lets start from 5/02, which was on Tuesday, after work, when I was traveling back home, something caught my eyes. The train was crowded. Practically a few of us were like squeezed..dats when a construction worker came and his shirt n pants was like dirty and muddy but that din bother me much. When he got a seat to dats when he took off his shoes and yeah pple got a shock, 1^st coz it really had a bad smell and his sock was like really dirty. Serious I ain’t exaggerating. Come on you are traveling with many people, have some thought abt others. Here is a pic of his socks. Din wanna take his pic, as I do ensure of public’s identity also.

da construction worker i was talking abt

seriously in da pic his socks look white, but da bottom part of it is yucky

Next is 6/02, Wednesday, It was the half day which many people were waiting coz da long holiday starts den, since it’s a half day, I wore my new purple straight cut jeans and light yellow top. As I was waiting at da traffic light near my hse, dere was dis few people waitin to cross the road, and at da same time n place were some cyclist waiting for the light to change. I mean Bicycle is a form of vehicle and please ride it on da road other den keep ringing da bell and blockin other ppl way. *Pls look down for at the pics. Da moment I got in my office, my colleague said “wow u are looking so Hip today” LOL! Made plans to meet bestie to watch 27 Dresses. I was given Hongbao of 10 bucks from my company. Met bestie at orchard, and walked to Cineleisure to book our tickets. Since we had ample of time before the movie starts, we went to Swensen’s to have our lunch and yeah, da meal, da environment, da people and da accompany was too good to explain. U can view my bestie having a huge clench for thirst. Wahahahaha.

while da traffic signal changes, she waited..

da cyclist who blocked my way while i walkin at da pedestrian.

Da Big Drink

I'm Thirsty!!!

Rush to movie, due to the long queue for the popcorn. But din really miss much of da movie. And yeah she made me hold da drink n da popcorn but she din hold da door for me to come in and I dropped by shades..haha. finally sat and enjoyed da movie soo much, The storyline was simply superb, nice acting and yeah da actor/actress brought justice to the character. Katherine Heigl the most desired woman by men, a survery done in Hollywood. She was really damn beautiful and I liked her dressing and yesh not forgetting actor, James Marsden, super hot n sexy.

Wen dey 1st Met..1st impression is da best impression *smilez*

Him..soo sexii n sweet

Her..Ain't she Gorgeous

Da Closet Of 27 Dresses

After movie, we got out and walked around orchard lookin for a florist cause it was bestie parent’s weddin anniversary. But we could not get any. Den we had to walk back to swensens to buy Ice-cream cake, for the celebration. Since we were tired, tot of getting ourselves McFlurry Ice-cream. Juz outside Lucky Plaza, but the guy who served me instead of saying da machine is out of order, he kept pointing in. I was like huh? He either tot dat I am Deaf or he is Dumb. Den he said proceed inside to buy Mcflurry as machine outside is spoilt. Stoopid.

While walking and eating da ice-cream, an idiot who pass by us juz looked at us n said “da way u are eating ice-cream is so nice” grr, I told my bestie if he wants some I can throw it on his face. I mean come on, if u r planning to get our attention, pls dun be so stoopid to use such corny line.

As she was tired we sat infront of Paragon, and continued to take candids of her and lookin at all kind of people passing by.

always on da phone, serious conversation

In her busy conversation, she caught her glimpse of me..

and dere she goes continuing her story..

Pretty Feet!!! * She totally ignored me as she was a busy woman handling calls..i had to take a pic of dis.

Finally when we walked back to Swensens, ahhh dere was a manager who served us and his name is Jeffery and seriously he was such an eye candy for me. Sexy, hot and yesh he had a good customer service ethic. Ahh..*holds on to my heart* lolz.. after buying da cake we walked to Somerset and took some pics at the escalator, at da platform and yeah bestie had to take da opp train as she was heading to cityhall, while I was going home. While waitin for my train, 2 Bangala guys approach me. I tot dey were up to something but instead dey asked me which side to take to go orchard. Since it was da same side I told dem nvm, u can take da same train as me. I even said dat u can actually walk to orchard from somerset. But since dey haf already purchased da Standard Ticket Card might as well juz stay and take da train. Dey told me thanks and etc..as I board da train dere was dis expatriate who sat like as though he owned da train and da worse, though there were some ppl who werr standing, he placed his IPOD on da seat next to him. Wad da hell, plz dun tell me ur stoopid Ipod needs a seat alone. Might as well take an ezlink card for it also. Grr..

A seat for an IPOD!!! Ridiculous

The Best Pic..Though my head looks big..

Juz posing

dere's always a zoomed pic of us..oh my..look at our cheek bones..weewiit

Juz to make her happy, I had to go short..haizz

But originally I am da taller one *winkz

Simply Adorable

Again half her face is missing.

She moved..dats why da effect.

CNY Holidays oh my… I felt as though I was retaking the movie I AM LEGEND. Lolz..so quiet. Most shops closed. Was really boring, juz stayed home, went to play wif nephews and etc..so yeah dats how I continued my holidays juz rotting at home. Saturday went for threadin at Orchard/Somerset where I literally became a LostSoul until I got guided by my bestie over da phone. Oh my..haiizz..den went to Tekka to meet dad n sis to get some stuffs and gosh it was Crowded..I mean it was Sat and holiday was do u expect..Sunday was my another sis-in-law, my cuzin bro’s wife, 7mth Bangle ceremony. The food was nice and da deco as well, juz wore simple. After dat went over to my bro’s hse to play wif my princess and den watched tv and etc, After dat head back home and was soo lazy to start work back on Monday. The holiday mood was still running on my head.

Da relaxed Pose

I look as though am wearing contact lens

Darlies!!!

Billa gal version..My Name Is Durga..

A Different pose for a Change

Traditional Sistas

V’day is coming, yeah I do know its like da lovers day but to me it’s a day where all loved ones celebrate together.

Bestie’s mum, Laksh, Lolz was admitted in SGH due to Interesting diagnosis such as Missin me too much and dancing Break dance at home Lolz yeah hope she gets better.

Am totally shagged and I am like practically dozin off while typing dis entry. Yeah dats all for now enjoy everyday. Adiyoz

thurs-sunday

2008-02-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

The Writer Says…

Things are not just as it seems, but just living with it. Friday had to do OT due to some xtra work arrghh..

Saturday, I was totally bored n lonely, so went for a shopping. Thought of getting a jeans for myself but too bad dere was da colour, da was da jeans but no size. Got some other stuffs for myself n a cute lil dress for my lil princess Hiroshini. After roaming abt 2-3hrs, headed back to my bro hse and played wif da pinky gal, she is really damn cute..

Later part of evening had to get ready for my friend Sydha’s daughter naming ceremony. Sometimes people will say “if u attend ur friend’s wedding or their child’s naming ceremony that shows u are getting older” Lolz.. got ready met shamz at khatib, went to lavender to meet Suha. Oh my after months I am meeting her. It was really catching up wif her. Den we three headed to the function, which was held at Singapore Futsing Association Building. Da one opp Jalan Besar. Suha knew the place well coz 15yrs ago she was living dere and was telling us her childhood memories.

It was not difficult at all to spot my fren in da crowd as she looked outstanding. Her daughter who is named AFRAH, looks way much diff from da 1^st time shamz n I met her. The function was pretty interesting as the culture, style, dress was diff from other culture and stuff.. The dinner was served abt 9pm, and it was like men in one queue n ladies in another. The men queue doesn’t seem to decrease at all in our observation. We din eat dere as it was too crowded n etc.

Suha’s parents gave me n shamz lift to komalas da one near farrer park mrt. The service was super shitty. Serious. I was pissed. But yeah I was really hungry. After dinner, head back home and chatted wif shamz for a while, she was too sleepy already, after a while I headed to bed. Den da next day, Sunday, was a lil slow n boring for me. I woke up, had breakfast, watched tv, n headed to khatib wif madhz n punetha sis, after chattin n hanging ard, headed back home. Da weather was soo shiok dat it dragged me to my bed Suprisingly I knock out n woke up at 7+ oh my…now I am bright awake.

Dad n myself having some silent war, I dun wan some things to repeat again, I hope everything will be back to normal. Plz dun make me feel the guiltiness again.

The month of Feb is here, which is also known as da mth of love. *smiles, Valentines day is nearing, u can feel the air filled wif love. As for me I’ll be working n after work I have been invited by the singlehoods for a dinner, which is yet to be confirm I guess. Must check wif dem again.

Well dats all for now..

Below are some pics I took from Thurs at work till Sunday at home..Check it out.

THURSDAY AT WORK

normal pic

i love dis pic of mine *no reasons

can u see my protruding forehead

LJS Chocolate Pie..Now u See

Now u dun't
FRIDAY AT WORK

smile it off baby

wonder wad was i thinkin

act cute seh

i luv ya

love ya

jus being lame

jus pose

something interesting on da net

seriously working

smile at work(after office hrs)

chinese new year deco at khatib, trees being surrounded by coloured lightings.

da red one

da green one

the blue one

SATURDAY LIFESTYLE...

reflections of life

if only i can turn da clock around

Posing

me den n now

laughin buddha n me

can u see my hidden professor

me n Mr Professor

big foot (new sandals)

da simple me

wazzup ..

AFTER FUNCTION...

juz too happy taking pics in da train

da Favourite Indian Gals

she is not too happy

sorry i place da camera too close but i can see my dimple *smiles

My fav pic

she is preparing herself to kiss me

i'll be ur pillow for u to lean on for u r comfort

my photography skills is juz too good!

a pic taken by bestie, but my eyes look sleepy..sighz

dis pic is nice but her other part of da face is missin

jus tryin to be cute..which naturally i am

I dun like it wen u wanna touch my nose..
SUNDAY...

Being Bored

Juz me at My Crib

Incident, Bestie, News, Quotes

2008-01-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

The Writer Says...

By my experience I can say that it won’t take long to differentiate a Singaporean. An incident happened yesterday made me embarrass and at the same time Irritated by our fellow Singaporeans.

Incident which happened: As I was waiting at the traffic junction for the signal to change, it was crowded, once the signal change as I start walking suddenly I just fell on the ground as my ankle twisted I guess. But not even one single soul, helped me out or even approached me and ask whether am I okay. Be it whatever the race is, not even one. I had to get up myself from the middle of the road and start walking. There was a guy who stood beside me waiting for signal realise that I fell but didn’t bother to offer to help but he had the cheek to walk a few distance and turn around to look if I have got up or got hit by a car.

This incident yeah it was embarrassing but it made me realise the true colours of Singaporean. As I was traveling in the train, suddenly a though came to me like a flash. I don’t think Singaporeg terrorist attack, war etc. Probably if I come across such a situation I can only view that all of them just trying to escape for themselves and not looking out for one another. Why is there a needs for tight security and stuff. The reason why I say this is because if Singaporeans can’t even help one another in a daily life, do you think they will bother helping out durin

Wadeva has happen and whoeva was there at da incident, please look below..the pic says it all.

Note: In the population of Singapore I will not say all Singaporeans fall in such a category maybe there might be just ONE who has the heart to think of others.

Met up bestie because she wanted to check on School of Management which was opposite National Library which is also nearby my working place. The fees to pay for per module is like giving away my 2mths salary in full payment. Lolz. The security uncle looks scarier than any other. We were attended after waiting for a while. After listening to all the different courses, and the fees etc, I told my bestie instead of myself studying I am going to build a school for those who can’t afford to study. Then she asked me where I got the money and location etc. I mention that just pick a small building and setup lightings and etc then pick four people in random and get them to be customer service officer. She immediately mention she will be one of them so that she can recruit cute guys. I knew that would be her plan and in any case if I am going to give her a job there I would place her in the back room. LOL!!!

Once we left the place, we were wondering where to eat and after much decision came to Pastamania and ate there. We walked around and she wanted us to get something similar and something which we would use. She suggested handphone pouch but I don’t use them. Then after walking around we went to the Diva shop and got ourselves a so called couple ring lolz, the female version. Then we took train back and took a few shots of the ring. Photoshots are posted below together with other pics with quotes written. Enjoy Your Stay.

This picture was taken while i was traveling back from work to home. I guess he does not really knows how to wear a snow cap. He wore till it covers his eyes and forehead, i wonder how he board da train. When he was fast asleep, i took a snapshot juz to show our fellow Singaporeans funny sense of fashion n style.

NEWS UPDATE: Below are some pictures which are actually articles that caught my eyes while reading. Its from the my paper.

Now let me start from this article which i find it ridiculous. A girl caught sack becoz of her "Cute" wallpaper. Well I agree that her wall paper was more like hinting her boss But, to get sacked for a wallpaper is Ridiculous. Below is the pic of the wallpaper, its not clear therefore i will write below the pic what it exactly mentioned in it.

I got character.

Many people got no style one. Me, I got character.
See-ah. I don't simply take instructions from people.
I think first lah. Don't like it, don't take lah.
With boss also like that. I don't care. Sack sack lah.
I not afraid one. Then, when got no mood to work,
I just go for teh tarik. Don't like? Not my problem, what!
When boss make noise, I tell him to fly kite.
Money so little, some more got so much work.
Where can? Some more got so many bosses.
Big boss, small boss, woman boss. One say one thing.
Listen until you pengsan. You can died like that.
I tell you sometime not fair. Client also another kind.
Always last minute change this change that.
Ganrantee one. Make my life difficult only. Then.
Kena work until 5 to 6 pm. Who can tahan like that?
Something koyak in their head. I not joking.
Don't know advertising but only talk big all the time.
Then some more when the thing tak jalan, they complain
we all no good. Then who kena? Me lah! Some more who?

After reading the wall paper, my 1st impression the boss might got irritated 1st because of the English..Oh my, but there was this part of the article saying we can't put wall paper with words or quotes or sayings which provokes or hints the boss or others working with us. The reason it is the company's pc and not our personal one. Well I think we should be allowed to put whateva wall paper we want to put Except Terrorism, Vulgar Words and (RA) pics. The reason why we put our own wall paper is just for our relaxation. Not many understands that.

This is an article of MACAQUES holding on to each other due to the cold weather in Qianling Park, South-West China Guizhou province. The look damn cute yet pitiful.

I agree with the article below. N-Level, Ite Students and some O'level students are being prejudiced. Wheneva we go interview or even introduce ourselves to others saying our highest qualification is such, they give us such a look dat we have to look embarrassed. Let me say my point of view, no matter what paper education anyone has, or academic results, please give them a chance to prove their talent. Skills do come hand in hand compared to a academic result.

Hahaha, when i read this small article, i just smiles to myself. This is so true. The article is abt "Singaporeans do not seem to like to say THANK YOU". I totally agree. In a poll of 10 only 2 will say which is also rare. Words like "Thank you, Please, Excuse Me" is very rare to hear. But words like "Wah Lau, KNNB, B****, F**** U, CB" can be heard in more than once in one sentence itself. Tsk Tsk..

This is a picture actually an advertisement for healthy heart. I like the words in it. To have a true peace of mind, indeed you have to look after your heart.

This icon is so abt me at times!!! I admit. But only at times. *smiles

So anyone wants an application form???

Dun Mess With The Best

True indeed.

Accept this, its a Fact

Believe It???

Dying to live betta

2008-01-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

The Writer Says

Whenever I want to blog, my laziness just stops me. Two weeks I have been sick, lazy, learnt and experience many things.

Hmm..I really got no idea where to start from. Well lets say abt the 1^st meeting I had to attend with my boss and a company I am dealing with. 9 people in the meeting room and I am the only Indian the rest were Chinese. Well it was a little weird. 4 of them were from the company I was dealing with and the rest 5 were from my own company including my boss and me. I was the only one who brought just a notebook and a pen and the rest from my company came with a file and big list as in what to discuss and etc. But as for me I answered all questions like I had the answers in my finger tips. After meeting, we all went to Nanxiang Steamed Bun Restaurant. I know what some might be thinking. The best part I don’t know how to use a chopstick. *pls don’t laugh. But the waiter was too sweet that he came to me and ask whether I want my utensils to be changed. I just gave him a smile and said yes. Oh my interesting food and service. The experience just made me laugh.

Been totally weak and sick but I was a workaholic. I had to finish some work in time, and didn’t bother to take a MC till I pass my work and yes I did it on time and took MC last Friday. My sinus is really bad that my nose is bleeding. I guess my body is too heaty.

Though I can’t participate in Thaipusam, I went with my cousin sis and my lil nephews just to watch other Kavadis. This year there were fewer Kavadis and more people. Youngsters were terrible, ladies wore like they were competing with each other as whose sari is the best and yeah some looked like walking jewellery. Men, holding on to their gf’s hand but looking at another girl. Using of vulgar language like a common thing at a pious place. Haiz. A few Kavadis were beautiful and they really sang well and nice to see in between on all the hooligans and barbarians.

Been having neck strain and split headache often and the cause I am really not sure. Been taking drowsy medicines just to get some sleep but the suprising thing, the effect of the drowsiness does not seem to work.

Planning to have a haircut but still contemplating on what style to do.

Had some misunderstanding with my best friend, Shamini in an e-conversation. Sometime we just have to accept the changes or else we won’t be able to take it when reality hits us. But for now the sea of our friendship is calm *Smiles*

Last week I had to go to Ritz-Carlton to collect some medical claims from their HR. I took a cab from my work place as I reached Ritz, one man bowed and welcomed me. I was like some royal queen dropped down from an unknown place. I walked to the bell boy asking where was the security room for me to change my pass. He accompanied me and asked where am I working and etc. As I walking to the security room I was greeted by many people, “Good Morning Maam” Lolz dey must be thinking I am a big shot. I reached the security room and changed my pass as I wrote my name in the Visior’s book, the bellboy asked “so Miss Durga, how has work been and I juz looked at him and replied work is fine Mr Kalai. He smiled and he accompanied till the HR. When I went in, there were 3 Indian girls waiting to be interviewed. They gave me a look like “wah who is this big shot where everyone is welcoming her”. LOL!!! One of dem even said that I might be the one who is going to interview them. ROFLOL. Well it was a real nice and funny experience for me.

Lastly just want to say that I Learnt about being independent and yeah am trying to get comfy with it.

Truth Abt Life

Truth Abt A girl

I dun noe if my eyes is closed or open. Nice pic nut lighting cannot make it.

I like this pic among all.

I think i look evil here.

Trying to be Celebrity of the Day. Lolz

A funny experience

Blueberry Pastry from Four Leaves. A taste which i love the most.

A few pictures taken during Thaipusam.

Alone

2008-01-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

This writer has many words and thoughts running in her mind. That’s why she is always scribbling or blabbering something. So what can we ask from her today???

Ask and It Shall Be Given..Really? Maybe..

As she stands near her window looking outside, kids running under her block reminds of her childhood days, when a group of friends gather under the void deck for a chat reminds of her school days. She believes every moment has a memory to look at.

Ever since she knew the knowledge of life, she has been going through the path of thorns. As day by day, everything remains the same, something is different.

Everyone seems to know her surface, no one seems to know the deepness. Stranded alone eyes weld up with tears looking for someone to held it, but she seems to forget she can wipe it off and carry on with life. All her dreams have become a nightmare. All her wishes has been washed away like left over dishes.

Even her fake smile is fading away.

The Writer Is In Her Own World.

Note: Random pics taken from the start of 2008 is posted below.

Changes

2008-01-06T11:39:00.000+08:00

The Writer Says...

The saying of "i'll be always there for you, i'll be your shoulder to lean on" all dis seem to be bullshit. The truth is, when you really need someone by your side there seem to be no one around. Only when i am walking on the rough patch of life, i realise the real them in everyone.

Whenever i always yearn for someone to talk to, someone to hang around with, i have some doubts. Does the other party think the same or do they think like, there she goes again calling me when she is bored and stuff, doesn't she have anything better to do? *laughs* well this is what we call world. Face The Reality.

It's high time that I lead my life by myself. I should learn how to do that.

The World Has Changed, Life Has Changed, People Have Changed & I Have Changed.

Bye 2007 Hi 2008

2007-12-31T23:07:00.000+08:00

The Writer Speaks Her Thoughts...

The journey of 2007 is going to end in another 1hr 15mins. To some it was an awesome year but for others it was a year of rough path. As for me, there is always a saying life cannot be always a bed of roses. Therefore I walked on the thorns more than I slept on the petals. It does not mean that I didn’t have a good time at all. Yes I did but I can count the number of times I smile than I cried.

I have lost many things in the year 2007. I have lost the bond whom brought me to this world, I have lost what everyone should have which is Confidence, I have lost whom everyone should trust: Myself. I don’t wish to keep on saying my plight to others.

“I want to be remembered as the girl who smiles even though her heart is broken, and the one who can always brighten up your day even if she couldn’t brighten her own”

I do not wish to have any new year resolutions cause sometimes when it does not work out it gets depressing.

I would like to take this opportunity to apologies to people whom I have hurt knowing and unknowingly, thanks to all who have tried their level best to make me smile, Its alright to those who have ignored me from their life.

Lastly I would like to wish everyone, from the oldest human being and to the lastest child born in this world A Happy New Year of 2008. May you all have a fabulous year.

Goodbye 2007, Welcome 2008.

Letter For Mum

2007-12-20T09:47:00.000+08:00

She sat down in her room, took a pen and a letter pad, she began to write a letter..

Dearest Ma,

How have you been? Have you made some new friends? If I have to say that I am fine too, I guess you would know that I am lying through my teeth. Ma there has been a lot of things happening in my life. If you were right beside me, you know very well I would have cried to you how people have bullied me, insulted me, look down on me. I would have spilled my problems about work.

I remembered the times you held my little fingers and taught me how to walk, you sang to me and taught me to listen to songs, you told me stories and taught me how to read. But you left me half way and didn’t teach me how to cope with life. Now I am stranded alone in this phase of life not knowing what to do. You taught me many things, you spoke to me about many things but you never told me what is my talent or what am I talented in. I am really slow in understanding things. Is it my mistake for being slow or is it your mistake for giving birth to a daughter who is slow or should I blame the one who created me for being slow?

Ma, I realised myself that I am not as smart as those around me, I wish I could but I can’t. Please hold on to my hand and bring me along this struggle I am going through. No matter what happen in life as long as we have our parents by our side we can always go through even the worse disaster. I am afraid that the emotions I am going might put me to mental torture which can lead to physical torture too. If you can’t help me, the least you could do is bring me along with you.

When you were around I could just ask whatever I wanted, now I am afraid to ask cause maybe I am asking too much. All I ask is just help me ma, or bring me with you. I am really lost within myself. Help me find myself. Hope and Wish to hear from you soon. I shall pen-off here.

Your Loving Daughter

Durga

*She knew very well that this letter can never be sent unless heaven send angels to bring cause postmans are not working there.

The Black & White

Deep Thoughts

Life Has Two Sides

Dark Side Of Life

Reflections of life

The Stare

Hmm..wad can i say

The silent words spoken by my eyes ?

The theme at my wrk place to use recycle materials to deco da room for X'Mas

The recycled gifts

The recycled Christmas tree done by my team

The decorated door

Creative rite???

The recycle candle

The Christmas Tree at My work place

Christmas Deco at Bugis Sponsored by Sooke Jewellery

The Golden Compass Deco

Lightings at Bugis. Dis is my Fav

The Golden Compass

My Jude Ruben

The smile which can melt anyone
Hmm..wad shall we do next

Are you taking my pic

I Pray to God To give me beautiful and wonderful gf like my mum

Juz wanted to check you out

I love your dress princess

The Hero is nearer now Oh My!!

Here Camerman! Take My Pic

Posing

Glamorous Ladies With the Sexy Babe

The Bond Which can Never Be Under Estimated

Yeah!! I took her pic wif mummy

Just a Shot

My Nutz Crunchy Chocolate with Cookies

Kirthi's Chocolate Temptation

Bav Anni's Chocolate Overloaded

REALITY